#two things even

in therapy on thursday, i told my therapist that i’m not getting anything out of our visits (and haven’t been for a while). it took me til the end of the session to muster the courage to just come out with it, but i’m glad i did. i expressed my frustration that i still have these BIG phobias i’m not making any progress on, and that he was more helpful when i was in a crisis where i needed comfort than he is dealing with my regular type of crazy (which is overloading my plate with projects and then burning out/melting down once a month). i’m hoping he can refer me to someone who will be more helpful. i scheduled an appointment for 2 weeks from now to figure out next steps.