When I finally slept, which was waaaaaaay late into the night/morning I had an extremely vivid dream about my twinflame.

An angry, fighting dream. Maybe he’s angry at me for abandoning him. I wasn’t able to lucid dream because I was VERY engaged with the narrative.

He sent me this big long text message about how I hurt him when I cut him out of my life, and that he was like... idk kind of weird I guess but he was angry that I was dating someone (in the dream, not IRL) but also... he said in the text he was happy for me. Which triggered the HECK outta me.

So I sent him two messages, not really long but very upset with him. I’m not going to say what I said because it was personal, but it was definitely about how... I would choose him every time. But I was angry also. Hiding in my dreamworld bedroom and not letting anyone in.

Finally I was at my dream world workplace, and he was at my dreamworld mall (my dreamworld is really well defined, I have a whole reoccurring world that I am in when I dream). I went to look for him. I found a bag filled with candies and clues. The outside of the bag had instructions and some words. One of the things it said was something like “I have earned this godly fury”. Like about how he did something wrong to cause this (he did) and that my fury was god-like but justified. This comment made me smile, because I know that I am justified in how I’m feeling in this situation. I’m happy that he knows I’m justified in my anger too.

Anyway the rest of the instructions were a scavenger hunt to find him, the candies were the clues. I had sixteen minutes to find him. He was at the train station near the mall.

This is something he would do in real life. He does things like this. One time I was in a car accident-totaled my car-dude sent me on a wild goose chase hunting down things for a friend he ‘didn’t have time’ to shop for-no it turned out I was the friend and he was meeting me at the end of the hunt. All the stuff he had me pick up was for me, and then we hung out after. It seems weird but it’s a thing he does.

I miss him. In my everyday life I feel like I’m moving on, but I guess my subconscious is still in the thick of things...