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But I’d knew you’d linger like a tattoo kiss
I knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs
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Erik couldn’t sleep.
Though, if he was being honest, sleep never came easy for him. Nightmares plagued him in both his waking hours and dreams for far too many years that it was hard to find solace in rest anymore. He thought he had gotten better at pushing the nightmares away, but it seemed the only time he ever knew true peace in his rest were the days he spent with Charles.
Charles.
The name leaves a bitter taste in the back of his throat that is hard to swallow down. The piece of metal, a broken belt buckle he thinks, misses his hand as he ceases his idly fidgeting with it. He barely registers it hitting the floor with a distinct clink before he’s sitting up far too fast. That bitter taste nearly finds its way out of his mouth and he takes a moment to push it down. Charles. The memory of that man was a ghost. The memory of what they had haunted him with his nightmares.
And yet, the memory remained fresh in his mind no matter how hard he tried. There had been so much he wanted to say, but never found the chance nor the words. Even as their paths crossed again and again in this twisting, tangling elaborate dance weaving in and out of the red threads of “fate” that threatened to strangle them both, Erik always let Charles go with what he always hoped was a final goodbye. Charles always let him go with that final goodbye.
Only for them to come right back, clashing heads and ideologies once more.
The helmet lay nearby. It never strayed far from his side when he attempted to rest. The moment he laid down to the moment he got up, it was on his head, blocking out the world. Blocking out any attempt at Charles trying to reach out to him. He had gotten lucky so far that he’s never attempted to reach out in his sleeping hours. Maybe his assumption that Charles slept at the same time he did worked out in his favor for once.
Erik closes his eyes. Even if he couldn’t drift off to sleep, he could, at the very least, rest his eyes. With his eyes closed, body sinking into the mattress ever so slightly, he extends his senses far beyond sight and feel in the room. He hears the walls shift and creak. He smells the clean, fresh linen he slept on. It’s soothing enough to give him some form of peace, he thinks. Erik? Of course. Charles Xavier had to ruin this peace as well. A low growl is involuntary ripped from his throat as his eyes open. He could feel him in his mind, the gentle caress of his presence. But aside from saying his name, Charles is quiet. Waiting for a response, he assumes. What?
Having trouble sleeping, old friend?
You’re in my mind, Charles. Why do you ask questions to which you already know the answer?
Charles chuckles in his mind. Something twists and squeezes in Erik’s chest, but whether it’s rage or something else entirely is still unclear to him. He sits up, hearing and feeling the mattress creak underneath him
Funny, am I?
No, not at all.
He doesn’t have to be there in person to envision the grin he was no doubt trying to hide. His fingers twist into the linen underneath, resisting the urge to pull them off the edges of the bed. What do you want, Charles? He finally gets out, his internal dialogue just as snappy as his voice would have been if had spoken out loud. He falls quiet, but he lingers. He was certain that if he was able to, Erik could push himself into the telepath’s mind to see he was thinking of his response.
But he didn’t need telepathy to know what Charles Xavier was thinking. He never did.
I want to offer you peace, Erik.
The snort that leaves him is audible. You and your peace and your hope. How many times must we—
You misunderstand me. I wasn’t talking about our ideologies.
That gives him pause. The silence on his end hangs long enough for the other man in his head to continue.
I want to offer you a peaceful night. Let me block out those nightmares.
Once again, Erik is at a loss for words. He knows Charles can feel and hear as he tries to make sense of what he’s said but thankfully, he keeps his comments to himself.
Are you even capable of doing such a thing this far apart?
Oh, my friend. When will you stop being surprised at what I am capable of?
The smile that comes to his face is met with little resistance. He knows it’s dangerous to allow him in when he would be at his most vulnerable and yet… A promise of comfort he hasn’t had in many months was far too tempting to deal with the repercussions of what tomorrow would bring if he allowed him to stay in his mind for a night. It doesn’t take long for Erik to find his answer, one he barely has to respond with before a wave of sleep washes over him and leads him laying his head back down into the pillows.
Sleep, Erik. I am here.
And he does, falling into peaceful darkness with a smile on his face.











