#tw:blind

“There is a lot of things that I’m scared of.” Dan suddenly said as he laid next to Phil. “And I don’t know if it’s because I’ve never experienced them or that my mind is making it so hard for me to process it happening to me.”

Phil, at the time, had no idea what Dan was referring to. But he let Dan continue as he began just spewing out words in never ending streams.

“Like, colors for example.” He began. “I have no idea what a ‘color’ is? How does one to describe to me what blue looks like, or black? People say I wear black alot but I don’t know. I could be dressed in something and never know the color. The other day, I wore white pants and Beth told me that my underwear could be seen through them because they were pink. But how was I to know that? I would have went my entire day not knowing that.”

Dan paused for a moment to catch a breath before continuing.

“And then, people tell me how my face is flushed red. But what is red? What color is my face? I also apparently have brown eyes and brown hair. But all I know is that it means they’re dark. But what is dark? What is the difference between light and dark? I just...I don’t get it because I’ve never seen it and that scares me.”

“It’s okay to be scared of something.” Phil said when Dan was done. “It’s always valid to be afraid.”

“But the thing is that I’m afraid of things that I shouldn’t be afraid of. Like, who the fuck is afraid of a color?”

“I’m sure you’re not the only one.” Phil said, hoping to give Dan some positivity.

Dan just shrugged.

“And how is one afraid of sex?”

Phil turned his head to look at the blushing male. “What do you mean?”

Dan sighed. “I’m really scared of sex. And--and I don’t even--I don’t even know why I’m telling you this. This is embarrassing.”

“It’s not embarrassing.” Phil said. “But maybe talking it out with someone who has had sex will make you feel better about it? I don’t know how much you want to discuss with me though.”

“Well, that’s the thing too.” Dan said. “My sister told me a while ago that I’d know when I met my soulmate because my hormones would become weird and I’ll start smelling more of them whenever I’m around them...and I met you and...I really trust you.”

Phil smiled at him. “Are you insisting that you think we’re soulmates?”

Dan blushed even redder. “I don’t know. Kind of.”

“Well,” Phil said leaning forward, pressing his hand gently on Dan’s hot flesh, “I think we are too.”

Dan’s lips curled into a smile as Phil leaned forward, kissing him gently again. It was all completely innocent. Their lips moving over each other. Despite Dan being inexperienced, he still was a great kisser in Phil’s opinion. Phil continued the innocent kiss before taking a chance and licking over Dan’s bottom lip, asking for entrance. Dan’s face scrunched up and Phil decided that he wasn’t ready for that yet. So he didn’t do anything more. He pressed down a little bit more into the kiss before disconnecting them.

“I wish I could see what you looked like.” Dan said. “I keep imagining you in my head but I’m scared my image is wrong.”

“That’s kind of amazing that you can paint a mental picture of me.” Phil said.

Dan shrugged. “Maybe it’s because my body knows you’re my soulmate.”

“Maybe.” Phil said. But then he got thinking. He wanted Dan to talk to him about his fears. Phil knew that mates were going to have to have sex eventually. Heats and ruts would need to be shared if they were to complete the mating bond. And plus, if they ever wanted babies, Dan would need to open up himself to bear them. Why was he thinking of that? He didn’t even know what was going to happen between them and now he’s thinking of impregnating Dan.

“But let’s discuss you for a moment. Why does sex scare you?”

Dan shrugged again. “I don’t know. I think it all comes down to the idea that I don’t know what sex really is. Like, of course I know it’s intimate and it’s--well--sex. But what does it entail?”

Phil blushed. He felt like he was about to give a sex-ed lesson to a pre-pubescent teenager in a Health Class.

“Like, I know what happens during sex. But does it hurt? What does it feel like? Can you describe it?”

Phil laid back and let himself think it over in his head. He’s only had sex with one person so he didn’t have too much experience but he knew some basics.

“It’s...it can be incredible. Peak pleasure and euphoria at it’s climax.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Define hurt?”

Dan blushed and hid his face in Phil’s neck. “Does it hurt when someone...puts their dick inside you?”

Phil chuckled. “I don’t know if it hurts because I’ve always been on the giving end. But I don’t want to lie. I think it does hurt a little. And I learned when I was younger that Omega’s always hurt a little bit more when they’re virgins because of their body accommodating the Alpha size for the first time.”

Dan’s breathing heightened against Phil’s neck, making his skin damp. “So it is going to hurt me.”

“But I’d take such amazing care of you.” Phil doesn’t know why he uses himself as a way to help Dan out. He didn't know if Dan would ever sleep with him or mate with him. He kind of figured he would given that Dan already told him he thought they were soulmates which was exactly Phil’s own thoughts. “I’d make sure you never were pain. Just pleasure.”

Dan smiled into Phil’s neck. But then Phil felt it quickly fall.

Dan picked his neck up from Phil’s neck and looked towards Phil’s general direction. His expression was now completely serious. “I’ve been leaking slick for a few days now.” He said softly. “I woke up one morning with sheets soaked and I didn’t know what it was. I called Beth immediately and she came over. She told me instantly that it was slick. It terrified me…”

Phil felt his breath catch in his throat.

“That was the day that I told you that I thought my pills weren’t working.” Dan paused. “But then it stopped and now it’s starting again. And I think I’m going to go into heat soon. My hormones are weird. I have to shower often because my skin is flushed. You can probably feel it. I keep having wet dreams at night and I often need release. I...I think it’s coming soon and I don’t know what to do.”

Phil rubbed his hand over Dan’s back. “What do you think you want to do?”

“I want help when I go through it.” Dan bit his lip. “Do you think you could help me?”

Phil took a deep inhale of air. He let it out slowly. “Dan...if I smell your heat, I won’t be able to control myself. My alpha instincts will take over and I’m going to need to take you.”

“Then I give you permission to!” Dan said confidently--even though his lip was trembling.

“Dan,” Phil said again. “You don’t want that. You don’t want to have you first heat taken by an Alpha who can’t control themselves. I’d love to help you, but I’m afraid of what I’d do. My body and mind will become intoxicated by your heat. I can hurt you.”

Phil watched as Dan’s eyes glazed over, something he had never seen before, and then tears run down his cheeks. Phil immediately pulled Dan to him and held him. “Then what do I do?” He cried. “What do I do?’

“Well,” Phil said, “We can do a few things. I can buy you toys and you can go through it on your own. Or...we can do something prior to your heat so you’ll know what it feels like?”

“But then I won’t be pure for my mating.” Dan spoke.

“I don’t care about Dan.” Phil said, running his hand over Dan’s hair, pulling gently on the curls. “When we mate, I won’t care that there is no blood. I’ll just want you.”

Dan’s body tensed but then relaxed almost simultaneously. “Are you suggesting we have sex?”

“Well, it doesn’t have to be like that.” Phil said. “We can just be like how we are know and if something happens, then it happens. And if we happen to not do anything before your heat, then I’ll buy you toys and we’ll get through this.”

“But I’ll want you during my heat.” Dan said. “I know I will.”

“Then we’ll figure it out.” Phil said. “Soon.”

Phil paused and leaned down, kissing the top of Dan’s head.

“Let’s just relax right now. We don’t have to discuss anything else right now.”

Dan nodded against him and shut his eyes. Phil watched as Dan’s breathing evened out. He might not be asleep, but his body was completed relaxed against an Alpha and that’s all Phil wanted from Dan. He wanted for Dan to never be hurt and never be tense.

He just wanted to hold Dan forever.

The next morning, Phil was surprised to wake up and see Dan still sleeping beside him. He didn’t remember ever falling asleep. All he remembered was just talking with Dan and then them telling stories of their families.

And as they were talking, it reminded Phil that fall break was next week and that also meant Family Weekend was next week too. Which also meant his family would want to come to campus that weekend to do every. single. event. But that meant he could introduce them to Dan.

Dan said he’d tell Beth about it. Apparently he just has Beth as a sibling and then his parents, much like Phil did with just his older brother. When Phil asked him if Dan was going to invite his family, Dan sighed, and said that he didn’t know if his family would come.

But then as they were sitting in Phil’s room, Dan’s iPad went off and began reading to him a text message from Beth that said that their parents were definitely going to come.

So now, Phil looked over to Dan and smiled slightly. He was going to meet Dan’s parents...and that was actually kind of exciting to him.

In a weird way.

Phil remembers this exact time the year before. His classes were beginning to pick up and he was already bombarded with a calendar full of due dates and homework. This year was no different.

It had been nearly two weeks since Dan fell asleep in his arms and Phil can admit that no progress has been made between them. But he knows that there is something going on inside Dan’s head. Dan’s body language has changed around him and Phil could have sworn the other day when they were hanging out again that Dan wanted to grab his hand and lean into him again.

Phil is scared of the feelings between them though. He didn’t want to get mixed up in another relationship just because of his past with Devon. But part of him is drawing into Dan, wanting Dan all to himself and never wanting him to leave.

But Phil didn’t want Dan to know that just yet.

Even as he and Dan walked with linked arms to the plaza off campus where Phil was going to buy Dan a real pizza and not just the frozen kind the cafeteria serves them. When he had asked Dan to lunch this morning after meeting up together briefly in the elevator, he got happiness at the blush that spread through Dan’s cheeks before he answered.

And now, they’re almost there and Phil is loving the way Dan’s arm squeezed his as they walked slowly to make sure Dan didn’t trip and fall. Phil had to admit he was kind of a shit guide and being clumsy himself didn’t help. But it didn’t seem like Dan minded. He just laughed it off.

As Phil opened the door for them and they walked in, they were first bombarded with the scent of coffee from the Dunkin Donuts that was in front of them. But then Phil hung a right and took them to the pizza shop where he guided Dan to a seat.

But as they were almost to a booth, a sudden grip on Phil’s arm stopped him. It was coming from the opposite arm that Dan was holding so he was confused as to who it was until he turned his head.

A mop of blonde hair came into his view.

Devon.

“Hey guys!” Devon announced cheerily. “What are you two doing here?”

Phil gritted his teeth, not wanting Dan to be associated with Devon in any way. Over the past week, his entire body just hated Devon. He’s ignored all of his texts and pleas. Devon even came to his dorm room and asked for favors with which Phil refused.

“Dan and I are getting lunch?”

“Phil?” Dan’s timid voice broke through. “Who is that?”

“No one.” Phil snapped.

“What the fuck do you mean no one?” Devon shouted. “Who the fuck do you think you are?”

Phil’s blood boiled through this veins and he let go of Dan momentarily, his hands gesticulating madly in front of him. “Leave me–us–alone!” He belted out, his Alpha voice shining through enough that Devon immediately cowered where he stood. And the whimpering next to him made him turn his head and see a very upset and distraught Dan who was whimpering, his lips shaking.

Phil let out a breath and smoothed back his hair in frustration. “You need to leave.” He said point blank to Devon.

Devon shook his head and took in a shuddering breath. “We had so much together and you’re going to throw it away from him?” He asked, his finger pointing to Dan.

“You threw it away long ago and I was stupid enough to keep letting you in.” Phil stated.

Devon let out a forced breath. He furiously wiped his cheeks before turning on his heels and stomping out of the door, back outside. Phil stood there, in the wake of the fight that had just occurred, unsure of what to do.

He’s never had to use his Alpha voice before and it just happened.

It happened and he scared everyone, including Dan.

Oh, yeah, Dan!

He quickly turned and looked at Dan, who was staring at the ground, his shoulders drooped and his body language sad. “Dan?” Phil asked. “What’s wrong?”

Dan didn’t look up. He just spoke softly. “You really scared me.”

“I’m sorry.” Phil immediately answered. “What I said wasn’t meant for you. You shouldn’t have had to hear that.”

“Can you explain it to me later?” Dan asked. “I don’t like secrets.”

“I know, baby.” Phil winced at the slip of the pet name. He didn’t even know where it came from but it happened so naturally. He reached out and touched Dan’s arm. “Do you still want pizza?”

Dan didn’t answer for a moment. But then his little head bob told Phil he still wanted food. So Phil moved Dan to a seat in a booth and got in line to grab a small pizza for the both of them to eat.

Throughout lunch, Dan remained quiet. His unseeing gaze was fixed on the table and he showed no signs of moving it. Multiple times, Phil had the urge to move onto Dan’s side of the booth and just hold him until he calmed down. He knew Dan felt better when an Alpha touched his skin and held him.

But he knew that would have to be for later. And only if Dan wanted to. He didn’t know how Dan felt about him quite yet.

They finished their lunch in quiet but when they left, Dan took Phil’s arm again and they went back to the dorm building.

When they got to their floor, and began walking through the hallway, Phil stopped and asked him if he wanted to come back to his dorm room for a while and talk and Dan agreed. It surprised Phil that Dan wanted to go back with him after how scared he got. But he was glad.

It meant the Omega wasn’t totally afraid of him.

Phil unlocked the door to his room and brought Dan over to his bed where they both sat down and relaxed onto the stiff mattress. Dan took off his jacket in the process and let it slide to the floor as Phil removed his sweatshirt. As Phil laid back, Dan laid back too and cuddled next to him, which surprised Phil once again.

But then Dan spoke.

“Was that guy your boyfriend?” His voice was shy and timid. Unsure.

“No.” Phil said. “He was an ex.”

“An ex-boyfriend?” Dan asked.

“Yeah.”

“What was his name?” Phil smiled at Dan’s curiosity. He normally would have been annoyed at the prodding but with Dan, he was okay with it.

“His name was Devon.”

Dan’s hand came up and rested onto Phil’s shoulder.

“How long were you guys together?”

Phil sighed. “I’ll just tell you the whole story. But I warn you it’s kind of long.”

Phil didn’t want to be at this party. Okay, that was a total and complete lie. Of course he wanted to be at this upperclassman party, but he never expected himself to be invited. He guessed it paid off to have a roommate who was on the soccer team. And he was even more lucky that the party was at the soccer house tonight.

It was his first college party. He knew it was probably gonna be a mistake but he felt like if he didn’t go, he would have regretted it in the end. He didn’t want to be seen as one of the prude freshman who never let loose or have fun.

But as of right now, he wasn’t totally having fun. He didn’t know anyone here and everyone was packaged in like sardines. He didn’t even know where to go or where anything led to.

He saw a staircase in front of him, but it was lined with students making out on every step, some of them going further on a few of the steps. And to his side, he had a tell jock pushing a red cup to his hand. “Dude. You need to have a drink man. Your hand is empty!”

Phil took the drink and looked down at the weird colored liquor. He slowly lifted it to his lips and tasted. It was disgusting and strong. He coughed and sputtered, the taste wetting his lips. He didn’t like this.

Okay, maybe this was a mistake.

Phil left the cup somewhere on a mantle piece as he walked through the living room and somehow ended up in a less crowded kitchen with jocks pouring various liquor bottles into a giant punch bowl.

Okay, that spells disaster pretty quickly. But he grabbed a cup of it anyway from a way too drunk jock that sloshed it down his front in process. Good thing he was wearing his black shirt.

Taking a sip, this drink much more appealing, he found himself wandering outside to the back of the house. His legs were just moving on his own. He made it to an open area and sat down, the loud music pumping outside through the ground and the lights from inside shining out.

He was tapping his foot on the grass when a blond male came up to him, his head bouncing of curls and his green eyes staring at Phil. He was cute. He was extremely cute. And as Phil took an intake of breath, he noticed that the male was an Omega and his scent was delicious.

“Hi there.” The boy said, sitting down next to Phil with his own cup. “My name is Devon.”

Phil looked at him and smiled. “I’m Phil.”

“Any reason you’re out here all alone?” Devon asked.

“I just don’t know what to do here.” Phil said with a laugh. “I’m a freshman.”

Devon chuckled. “Same. But don’t tell anyone else that.”

“What major are you?” Phil asked.

“I’m a political science major. I wanna become the first Omega lawyer in this town.” Phil smiled at that. That was such a great accomplishment.

Phil went over his major with Devon as they both sat and just stared ahead at the party going on. He didn’t know what to expect when he left with Devon that night. He didn’t expect for him to lose his virginity to him in his dorm room as Devon took control. He didn’t expect for them to become an item–to begin dating.

He didn’t expect for Devon to go off his heat suppressants and begin going through heats. He didn’t expect himself to be so intrigued at Devon being his mate that he went off from his pills too. He didn’t expect to share a rut and heat with Devon as he locked inside of him, his knot swelling for the first time ever as he bit deep into Devon’s mating gland. And he definitely didn’t expect for Devon’s body to never heal because Devon never felt the same.

But Phil didn’t know that when he took Devon’s hand and showed him his dorm room at three am on a Friday night after drinking a little too much at the soccer house.

Phil finished the story and looked down at Dan who was tense.

“Do you still care about him?” Dan asked.

Phil shook his head. “I did. But I’ve got someone else on my mind now.”

Dan blushed and curled in closer to Phil. Then his smile faltered and he managed to look up–almost–directly at Phil. “So does that mean you’re not a virgin?” He asked.

Phil was taken aback at the question but he figured if he and Dan were actually soulmates, like his body was beginning to sense more and more every day, that they needed to talk about this with each other.

Phil nodded. “Yes, I’m not a virgin.”

Dan sighed. “I am.” He said. “I’m a virgin because Omegas are supposed to be pure when they meet their mates.”

“I know that.” Phil said, his arm tightening along with his jeans at the sudden arousal he was feeling. Stupid Alpha hormones.

“I hope that I don’t disappoint my mate with my inexperience. I’ve never even kissed someone before.”

“Yeah?” Phil asked.

Dan nodded. “Yeah.”

“Do you–”

Phil’s voice got caught in his throat as Dan lunged forward and his lips landed somewhere on the corner of Phil’s mouth and his cheek. He chuckled softly as he reached his hands out and moved Dan’s head so their lips were connected.

His body was screaming at him how right this was. This was his mate. He knew this now. Everything about this was exactly what he needed. And oh God, he never wanted to stop.

Their lips moved together in sync before Phil pulled away and smiled at Dan, although Dan couldn’t see it.

“Did you feel that?” Dan asked.

“I did.”

“What does that mean?”

“I think we’ll know soon enough.”

Dan smiled at Phil and rested his head back to Phil’s chest. Phil reached down and threaded their fingers together as their hands rested in each others.

This was perfect to Phil. The inner need inside of him to find his mate was suddenly being unleashed but also quenched. As he looked down at the blushing curly hair boy on his chest, his heartbeat sped up.

Yeah. Dan was definitely his mate.

Phil left Dan’s dorm later than he was expecting to. He had talked to Dan and calmed him down slightly on the idea of a heat but he didn’t want to get too into it. He just wanted to let Dan know that he was gonna be safe if it does happen unexpectedly.

When Phil entered his room at around 8:30, he had forgotten about how his room was left unlocked and he was surprised to see Devon sat naked on his bed, stroking his cock slowly. Phil groaned.

“What are you doing?” he asked.

Devon smirked devilishly at him. “Don’t act like you don’t know why I’m here.”

“Oh, I know exactly why you’re here.” Phil said.

“Then why are you acting so surprised about it?” Devon questioned. “Just get over here and do something. I’m supposed to be in heat this week if I wasn’t on my pills and I’m so horny.”

“You left me a year ago because I wasn’t able to satisfy you anymore and now you’re back here wanting me to have sex with you.”

Devon nodded. “I’m sorry for what I did, Phil.”

“That doesn’t excuse anything.” Phil snapped.

Phil didn’t know where any of this sudden rage was coming from. Just hours ago he was fully okay and accepting of knowing he was going to have sex with Devon tonight but now the thought was sickening to him.

Devon sat up, covering his lap with one of Phil’s pillows. “What’s going on with you?” He asked. “On Tuesday you let me suck you off with no protest and now tonight you’re snapping at me and freaking out.”

Phil sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose between fingers. “I’m sorry. I’m just a little stressed.”

Devon shifted on the bed and reached down, grabbing his sweatpants before lifting up and pulling them on to cover himself. He patted the bed next to him and Phil walked over and sat down.

“Want to tell me about it?” Devon asked, his sudden sex-driven mind thrown out the window as far as Phil could tell.

“There is this Omega who lives on my floor and he’s blind--but that’s not the point--and he’s so nice and caring. But he told me tonight that he doesn’t think his heat suppressants are working anymore and--”

“Aww,” Devon cooed, “Does Phil want to fuck the bitch in heat?”

Phil’s nostril flared. “Never call Dan that!”

Devon sat back, surprised at the sudden outburst.

“Sorry...but to answer your lewd question, that’s all I can think about.” Phil said. “Ever since he said that to me, the first thought that popped into my head was how amazing it would be to share his first heat with him.”

“Does that thought arouse you?” Devon asked with a smirk.

Phil furrowed his brows until he saw where Devon was referring to and he looked down, the tent in his pants pretty obvious.

Devon reached forward and pressed his hand against Phil, palming him through his pants. “How about you take out all of that sexual frustration on me? I’m a willing Omega who wants a big Alpha cock to knot me.”

And Phil couldn’t resist any longer. He turned Devon onto his back hovered over him, practically ripping his sweatpants from him as his desires got the best of him.

But even later, when Phil was inside of Devon and thrusting, he could not get the sight of Dan in heat out of his head. He wondered how Dan’s facial features would look like as he came. He wondered how Dan would react to receiving so much pleasure.

He wondered if Dan was a virgin and if he would be taking him pure. If he was pure, there would be blood on the sheets following their first time.

He had one of the best orgasms of his life with those thoughts racing through his head. But he couldn’t help the moan of the name ‘Dan’ that popped out of his mouth as he collapsed onto Devon, completely neglecting the fact that Devon had gone soft just mere moments before and didn’t have his release.

Phil fell asleep not long after and Devon left without a word to him.

But when Phil woke up near midnight and checked his cell phone, he had one text from Devon that said:

I think you’ve found your mate, Phil.

Phil spent majority of his weekend thinking about Devon’s text to him Friday night. He tried to ignore it, because Devon couldn’t possibly have known any of that when Phil didn’t even know himself. But he found himself texting Devon Saturday afternoon to ask him.

Phil: What did you meant by your text?

Devon: Exactly what it says?

Phil thought for a moment, but surely this was a mistake. Who was Devon even referring to when it comes to that of his text message?

Phil: Okay, but who were you talking about?

Devon: Are you being serious right now??

Phil: Yeah?

Devon: Well, I’m not going to tell you then. You’ll need to figure this out on your own.

Phil sat back on his bed where he was sat and scrolled through the text messages again later that night. He kept getting more and more upset with them as he tried to figure out who Devon was referring to. And every time, his mind came up short.

So he went to his friends Ashlee and Louise and called them to his dorm room for a hang out that night. And now all three of them were sat in the lounge on Phil’s floor while they waited for the pizza delivery guy to arrive.

Ashlee was talking about something new with her newly found mate and Louise was talking about something to do with her English class. But Phil wanted to bring up Devon to them and what he said so he intervened in their conversations.

“I met up with Devon last night.” Phil said.

Both Ashlee and Louise stopped talking and turned their head to face Phil.

“Excuse me?” Ashlee said. “I thought you were just crying to me about him because you hated him so much.”

Phil rolled his eyes. “You know I can’t resist him.”

“No, you can.” Louise piped in. “But your dick always makes the decisions for you so therefore, you can’t.”

“On another note,” Phil began again, “I met up with Devon last night and I was in a slight predicament because I had just gotten done spending two hours with Dan.”

“Who’s Dan?”

“He’s one of my residents.”

“The one who’s blind?” Ashlee piped in.

Phil nodded. “Yeah, he locked himself out of his dorm yesterday so I helped him get back in. But that’s not even the point. So we got into his room and we were talking when he suddenly brought up the mention of heats. And not just in a way where he was just discussing a biological thing but he told me he doesn’t think his heat suppressants are working.”

Ashlee’s mouth dropped open and Louise cocked her eyebrow in an all-knowing look.

“Why is that bothering you?” Ashlee questioned. “You’ve never been bothered before regarding heats with other Omegas besides with Devon? That’s mainly why you were picked as an RA, remember?”

“Well that’s the thing.” Phil said. “After I left Dan’s room and went back to my dorm, Devon was there. He was trying to get me to have sex with him and I was just so focused on Dan that I turned him down. So he and I just talked for a while and suddenly, he acted like Dan?”

“What are you talking about?” Louise interjected. “How could Devon act like Dan?”

Phil threw his hand over his eyes in embarrassment as he croaked out. “He told me he was a willing Omega who wanted an Alpha and that made me think of Dan during his heat and so I shoved Devon to the bed and then it happened.”

“Okay...but I still don’t see where you’re going with all of this.” Louise continued. “You say that you had sex with Devon but yet it was because your body thought it was Dan?”

“Well...I don’t know!” Phil suddenly exclaimed. “I didn’t even see it as that way until I got this stupid text from Devon last night telling me I’d found my mate and now that’s all I can think about.”

Both Ashlee and Louise smirked at Phil, leaving him peeking through his fingers and blushing at being so forward with him. “Phil, do you like Dan?”

At Ashlee’s words, Louise burst into a fit of laughter over her treating Phil like he was a pre-pubescent middle schooler.

“I hardly even know him.”

“But you’re getting yourself worked up thinking about him.” Ashlee said. “I can tell because you’re tense. Just think about this for a second.” She took a deep breath. “When Dan told you he could possibly go into a heat, what was your first thought?”

Phil sat back on the couch and pouted because he didn’t want to say his first thought about that because it was a lewd, unnecessary comment. But he knew if he didn’t, Ashlee would keep prodding so he finally said it. “That I wanted to help him through it.”

“Okay…” Ashlee prodded. “Help him how? Make sure he has tons of water? Give him food? Maybe buy him a few toys?”

Phil shook his head.

“Sit with him and make sure he’s okay? Make him shower so he doesn’t overheat? Clean his sheets for him?”

“Ash, are you really gonna make me say it?” Phil pleaded. She nodded and Louise smirked. “I want to help him by...going through it with him. I can’t say it in a lewd way because Dan deserves more than that from me.”

“But you want to fuck him and knot him during his heat?”

Phil nodded and groaned. “I’ve never thought about this with someone else other than Devon.”

“Well maybe Devon was right.” Louise said. “The way you’re thinking of Dan now gives me the indication that you really aren’t thinking clearly which is the perfect sign of someone who just discovered their own mate. You’re never like this and you can even admit it. Even with Devon you never once mentioned how you thought beforehand of sharing a heat with him. It just happened because he purposely stopped taking his heat pills and lured you in.”

Phil rolled his eyes because he didn’t want to be reminded of that.

“Can I just ask you guys something kind of weird and personal?” Phil asked.

“As if we’re not already discussing personal matters.”

“No...guys, just listen please.” He took a deep breath. “While I was having sex with Devon, I envisioned him as Dan. When I opened my eyes and looked down, I didn’t see Devon, I saw Dan. I imagined myself taking him as my own, and destroying his purity. I had thoughts about what he would actually look like under me, whether or not he was a virgin and if I’d see blood afterwards. I moaned out his name when I finished.”

The thing with Phil is that he hadn’t quite thought about all of these things until now. So prior to this conversation with Louise and Ashlee, he hadn’t even realized what had happened last night. And now he was spilling it to not only them, but to himself as well.

But the conversation ended when his phone buzzed and it was the pizza delivery guy saying that he had arrived and was waiting downstairs.

The rest of the evening Saturday was spent with Louise, Ashlee, and Phil talking about how college was going for them so far. Phil explained how he was enjoying his residents more than last year and Ashlee said the same worked for her. Louise then went into a spiel about how she didn’t like any of her classes and wished she could change out of them.

And then the night ended and Ashlee was on duty for the night so she had to leave. And then Louise still had to drive home (she was a commuter) so she left at the same time Ashlee did. That left Phil back in his dorm room to catch up on some homework.

He hadn’t even thought of Dan any more that night.

On Sunday, the same routine basically happened where Phil worked on some more homework and got a jump start on some reading before he was interrupted by a knock on his door. He got up from his desk, adjusting his glasses that were slipping down the bridge of his nose, and opened the door.

And to his surprise, Dan was stood there again. He was wearing an all black hoodie and a pair of ripped black skinny jeans. His cane was out in front of him, resting on the floor and he was wearing black sunglasses over his eyes.

“Phil?” Dan asked.

“Yeah?” Phil answered back.

“Do you want to get lunch with me?” Dan asked, his voice rushed but also strong and confident. Phil could have laughed because he could tell that Dan had well-practiced that phrase prior to coming to his door.

“Sure.” Phil said. “Where are we going?”

“I thought to the dining hall. It would still be open right?”

Phil turned his head and looked at his clock on his microwave. It said that it was a little after one. “Yeah, it’s open.” He said Dan bounce back and forth on the balls of his feet, back to the heels. “Oh, yeah, hang on. I have to slip on some better clothing. I’m just in some pajamas right now.” He watched as Dan just stood there, not moving from his spot. “You can come in for a few. I don’t mind.”

Dan smiled at him and walked in, his cane tapping the floor as he got familiar with the new surroundings. Dan found his way into the middle of Phil’s room and Phil chuckled to himself as he grabbed a pair of jeans from his dresser and let his sweatpants fall to his feet.

He quickly pulled his jeans up. He felt awkward knowing Dan was here, and he was undressing, But he also knew that Dan couldn’t see anything anyway so it’s not like he would even mind. Or so he thought until he looked up from buttoning his jeans and noticed Dan was blushing like mad.

“You okay?” Phil asked with a laugh.

“I just have heightened hearing and I could hear you zipping your jeans.” Dan blushed even more red--if that was even possible. “That’s all.”

“Does it make you uncomfortable knowing I was dressing in front of you?” Phil asked, suddenly concerned that maybe having Dan come inside wasn’t the smartest plan. He didn’t even know Dan that well.

“No.” Dan said. “I’ve just never been around Alpha when they’ve gotten dressed before.”

“Does if make you feel weird knowing an Alpha was dressing?”

Dan shook his head. “No. It just feels really personal.” He said. “And for some reason, when I’m around you, I feel really odd...but in a good way.”

Phil smiled wide at him as he slipped his sweatshirt on. “You ready to go?”

Dan nodded and stood up straighter, moving his cane back to the floor. “Yeah, let’s go.”

“Beth is coming to see me this afternoon and she wants to meet you.”

Phil looked up from cutting apart his piece of chicken breast. Dan was sat opposite of him, eating a sandwich that was made specifically for him since using a fork and knife was a little difficult.

“Why does she want to meet me?” Phil asked.

“Um…” Dan flushed red again. “I told her a lot about you and she wants to meet the guy who has been helping me out quite a bit. I think she just wants to thank you.”

Phil smirked. “She doesn’t need to thank me.” Phil’s hand suddenly reached out and placed itself on Dan’s hand that was laying on the table. “I enjoy helping you. It’s what I like to do.”

Dan smiled and blushed redder. “I’m really glad you’re my friend, Phil.” He said. “I didn’t have any friends prior to coming here. Not even any when I was back home. No one wanted to ever hang out with the blind kid.” Phil’s face instantly dropped and an ache filled in his heart. “And I’m not even sure if you consider us friends because I’m not sure what constitutes as friends but you’ve been so kind to me and helpful. And I trust you and that just means a lot to me.”

“Dan…” Phil trailed off. “We’re friends.”

But saying the phrase “we’re friends” nagged at the back of Phil’s mind. Almost as if he was lying to someone. But it wasn’t in the instance that he was lying because it wasn’t the truth. It was almost as if he was lying because his body was telling him something different.

Dan was different to him. And Phil had yet to figure out if Ashlee, Louise, and Devon were right.

The first week of classes went by extremely fast and soon Phil was faced with the fact that the day was Friday. It was the day that Devon was going to be coming to his dorm room and there was no doubt in his mind that he was going to want something.

Phil knew in his heart that he shouldn’t let Devon talk his way into his pants again but he knew it was inevitably going to happen and pretty soon, Devon was going to be underneath him, moaning out in loud whorish moans like he always had.

In preparation for this to possibly happen, Phil decided to shower to clean up. He undid his clothing and pulled on his robe, ready to grab his towel and shower caddy when a knock appeared on his door. He looked at the clock on his microwave and frowned. It was only six and Devon wasn’t supposed to be here until eight. There was no way it could be him.

Phil closed his robe further and slowly opened the door, peeking out as he saw the hint of curly hair and olive skin. He opened the door further and looked at Dan who seemed to be visibly distressed, his hair disheveled and his skin flushed.

“Hey, Dan?” Phil said. “What’s going on?”

“I’ve knocked on five doors and none of them were you and I was beginning to get upset but that’s not the point.” Dan spewed out, his words all colliding with the other. “I don’t know where my room key is and my cane is in there and I can’t walk anywhere. I just wanted to go to the bathroom but I can’t find my key to my room now and…”

“Dan,” Phil said, stopping him, “You’re fine. I have a master key with me. I can open your room door for you so you can get your key and your cane.”

Dan’s face showed one of visible relief and that made Phil happy. But then the other nagging though plagued his head. He was technically naked right now. He was only covered by a thin blue robe and nothing else. He couldn’t walk the hallways like this to unlock Dan’s door for him.

He bit his lip and thought for a moment. Then he decided to just say it. “Can you give me like two minutes? I’m technically just wearing a robe right now and would need to put on a pair of sweatpants quickly.”

Dan’s cheeks flushed and he just stood there awkwardly. “Well, it’s not like I can tell that that’s all you’re wearing.”

Phil chuckled and laughed. “Can you just wait here for me? I’ll be just a second.”

Dan nodded and Phil gently shut the door before throwing his robe off and grabbing a pair of pajama pants that were slung on his desk chair and yanking them on. He grabbed a shirt next and yanked that on as well before grabbing his key that was also a master key and opening the door.

He had opened the door so fast and walked out that he wasn’t aware that Dan literally hadn’t moved from where he was stood and he ran directly into him. Their bodies collided and Dan let out a loud oomph before falling backwards, Phil on top of him.

Phil instinctively wrapped his arm around him, trying to keep them both up but their combined weight wasn’t making it easy. He felt Dan’s arms come around him in a desperate attempt to hang on as Phil straightened them both up. “I’m so sorry!”

Dan was breathing heavy, his chest heaving so hard that Phil could feel it in his own chest. “It–it’s okay.”

“No, it’s not.” Phil said letting Dan go, despite the Omega still hanging onto his shirt. “I should have been watching where I was walking.”

Dan smiled at him. “It’s okay.” He said more confidently. “I promise.”

“Are–are you ready to go unlock your dorm?” Phil didn’t know why his voice broke when he spoke. Maybe it was because his nostrils were suddenly filled with this sweet smell of Omega that just overwhelmed him from nowhere. Or it could also be because there was something about Dan’s touch and clinging on his body that sent a spiral of shock waves through his veins.

Dan nodded and his smile widened. With that, Phil began to walk down the hall, not even thinking as he neglected to check on Dan behind him. When he didn’t hear footsteps, he instinctively turned around and saw Dan was slowly taking step after step and that’s when Phil realized he should probably help him out.

“Oh, jeez. Here!” Phil ran back and let Dan’s arm link with his.

“You don’t mind helping me walk?” Dan asked sheepishly.

Phil shook his head. “Of course not.” He then quickly added, “I’ll always help you.”

Dan blushed at that.

They walked slowly and carefully down the hallway, Dan shaking slightly on his arm as Phil felt sad that Dan’s only source of comfort was locked in his dorm, unreachable.

“How did you manage to lock yourself out of your room?” Phil asked with a chuckle.

Dan blushed a deeper shade of red. “Um…I thought that since the bathroom was across from my room that I could just go there and find my way but as soon as I shut the door, I knew it was a mistake. And I turned around to try and go back and get my cane and that was when I noticed that my door was locked and I panicked.”

Phil smiled at him. “Hey, it’s definitely happened to me more times than I would like to admit. Except I’m the one with the master key so it’s even more embarrassing for me.”

Dan laughed. Phil smiled wider. Dan’s laugh was a beautiful harmonious sound that made Phil’s heart flutter.

Oh god, what was happening to him? Why was everything Dan did so perfect for him?

They reached Dan’s door and Phil let him go long enough to pull out the key and unlock it. He opened the door handle and found himself curious about what was inside. He was even more curious to see how Dan’s walls were littered with posters and how there was an obvious black theme going on from his comforter that was sideways on his bed to his backpack that was slung on the back of the desk chair (it was nearly all the way off but there was an attempt). The first thing Phil noticed though was not the color scheme, but the posters of anime and Muse on the walls.

Was Dan a fan of this stuff? Was that even possible?

“You like the band Muse?” Phil suddenly asked.

He turned to Dan who was still stood in the hallway, unaware Phil had opened his door already. But Dan nodded. “They’re my favorite band.”

“Mine too.” Phil added. “How did you find out about them?”

“Beth’s husband is a huge fan of them. He introduced me to them a few years ago and I’ve loved them ever sense.” Dan was smiling proudly at this. “My dream is to go to one of their concerts but Beth won’t take me because she’s afraid they’ll be too overwhelming.” There was a pause between them and Dan’s smile suddenly fell. “How do you know that I like Muse?”

Phil suddenly became aware that Dan did not know what his own room looked like. “Did you not know that you have three Muse posters in your room?”

Dan shook his head. “Beth decorated my room for me. I just stood back.” Dan paused and walked slowly up to Phil who was now stood halfway in the doorframe and halfway in the room. “Do you want to come in for a while?”

“Sure.”

Phil let Dan walk in in front of him. While Dan carefully walked to his bed, Phil looked around and took everything in. There was a tablet on his desk and some family photos, but nothing he could see from where he was stood. He had posters lining the walls and a black tapestry with some type of mandala flower on it. His comforter was of black and grey squares but it somehow suited Dan: and Phil didn’t quite know how he knew that.

“Your sister decorated your room with a black theme.” Phil stated.

Dan, who was now sat on his bed and fiddling with a watch on his wrist, didn’t look up from where he was staring at his knees. “I don’t know what black is.”

“Isn’t that what you see?” Phil asked, unaware of how ignorant his question was.

Dan shook his head. “I don’t see anything. It’s just nothing. I don’t know what black is because I’ve never seen it.”

“Isn’t it weird,” Phil began, “How someone like myself can see colors but someone like you hasn’t ever seen any.”

“What do you mean by saying ‘someone like me’?” Dan asked, his voice suddenly wavering.

Phil got the immediate sense that Dan was hurting from Phil’s word choice. And that in return made his own chest ache.

“I didn’t mean it like that. I just meant someone that was blind but that was incredibly insensitive of–”

“I have enough of a hard time being an Omega but I also have to be blind on top of that.”

“I’m sorry for what I said Dan.”

“It just fucking sucks, okay?” Dan continued, his stare still blank at his knees. “Omegas aren’t treated right in society. We’re looked down on because we’re all supposed to only be good for being pets towards our Alphas. And here I have to be blind and looked down on even more.”

“Can I sit on the bed?” Phil asked, changing the subject.

Dan nodded and Phil took a seat on his bed, scooting closer to him as he felt the urge to comfort the upset Omega. His Alpha instincts were kicking in.

“I didn’t mean to upset you, Dan.” Phil said slowly and softly. “I wasn’t thinking.”

Dan sighed, letting his shoulders fall. “It’s okay. I overreacted.”

“No you didn’t.” Phil said, having deja vu with their conversation that was similar to one they had earlier where Phil nearly ran him over.

Dan suddenly perked up and turned his body, facing Phil perfectly. “Can…this is gonna sound really weird…but can I feel your face? I want to try and envision who I’m talking to.”

“Of course you can.”

Phil watched as Dan’s hands moved upward until his fingers were gently rolling down Phil’s forehead towards his cheek. Phil closed his eyes and let Dan’s fingers roam over his skin in gentle touches. His fingers moved across his cheek and then slowly danced over his lips. And then they were brushing against his eyelids and down the bridge of his nose. He could tell that Dan was memorizing and studying every little bump and blemish on his flesh.

But it was soon over and Dan’s hands were no longer feeling over his face. Phil opened his eyes and looked at Dan who was blushing profusely and Phil was curious as to why.

“You’re blushing.” Phil said, chuckling.

“Your features just feel really unique. That’s all.”

Phil smiled at that.

“Just out of curiosity, but how do you know the time?” Phil asked. “How do you know what time to go to bed or…?”

Dan looked up, facing Phil’s general direction. “I have a watch on my wrist that vibrates when it reaches each hour. For each vibration that’s how I know what time it is. So one o’clock vibrates once and two o’clock vibrates twice and so on.”

“How do you know when it’s night?” Phil continued.

Dan sighed. “My sister normally calls me on my phone at ten so I can go to bed. I suffer really badly from Non-24 so she helps to try and regulate me.”

“Is it hard to be away from your family?”

Phil didn’t know why he was suddenly so invested in what Dan was like but his curiosity was getting the best of him in this situation.

Dan shrugged. “For the most part yeah, but I’m learning how to be on my own. Although it was a lot easier when I had Beth around twenty four seven but she got married last year to her mate so this has been the most I’ve seen of her lately.”

“I think it’s really nice how protective Beth is of you.” Phil said. “My family was no-where near as supportive as yours sounded to be.”

“Why’s that?” Dan asked, now being the one to ask the questions.

“My family thought I presented wrong.” Phil answered honestly. “My dad didn’t see me as being strong enough to be an Alpha so he had me tested multiple times. To be fair, I still think I presented wrong too in some regards. Like, I have all of the Alpha qualities and instincts but…I don’t know…I know my body is that of Alpha’s body.”

Dan nodded, his gaze now somewhere else.

“I haven’t gone through my first heat yet.”

Phil suddenly turned his head to Dan who was sullenly looking at the floor.

“What?”

“My family was scared of me going through a heat under my ‘condition’ so they put me on heat blockers when I was only thirteen right before I was supposed to present.” He paused. “But I don’t know if they’re working anymore. I’ve been feeling really weird lately and it feels like I could possibly get my heat but that makes me really scared.”

Phil suddenly felt a certain fire ignite in his stomach. That’s why Dan’s scent has been so strong for him lately. Dan was going to have his first heat soon. He should have known this growing up with his brother being an Omega but it completely slipped his mind.

“When do you think you’d get this heat if it were to come?”

“I don’t know.”

And that was when Phil got the overwhelming urge to protect this Omega at all costs and means necessary.