#younger!dan

“There is a lot of things that I’m scared of.” Dan suddenly said as he laid next to Phil. “And I don’t know if it’s because I’ve never experienced them or that my mind is making it so hard for me to process it happening to me.”

Phil, at the time, had no idea what Dan was referring to. But he let Dan continue as he began just spewing out words in never ending streams.

“Like, colors for example.” He began. “I have no idea what a ‘color’ is? How does one to describe to me what blue looks like, or black? People say I wear black alot but I don’t know. I could be dressed in something and never know the color. The other day, I wore white pants and Beth told me that my underwear could be seen through them because they were pink. But how was I to know that? I would have went my entire day not knowing that.”

Dan paused for a moment to catch a breath before continuing.

“And then, people tell me how my face is flushed red. But what is red? What color is my face? I also apparently have brown eyes and brown hair. But all I know is that it means they’re dark. But what is dark? What is the difference between light and dark? I just...I don’t get it because I’ve never seen it and that scares me.”

“It’s okay to be scared of something.” Phil said when Dan was done. “It’s always valid to be afraid.”

“But the thing is that I’m afraid of things that I shouldn’t be afraid of. Like, who the fuck is afraid of a color?”

“I’m sure you’re not the only one.” Phil said, hoping to give Dan some positivity.

Dan just shrugged.

“And how is one afraid of sex?”

Phil turned his head to look at the blushing male. “What do you mean?”

Dan sighed. “I’m really scared of sex. And--and I don’t even--I don’t even know why I’m telling you this. This is embarrassing.”

“It’s not embarrassing.” Phil said. “But maybe talking it out with someone who has had sex will make you feel better about it? I don’t know how much you want to discuss with me though.”

“Well, that’s the thing too.” Dan said. “My sister told me a while ago that I’d know when I met my soulmate because my hormones would become weird and I’ll start smelling more of them whenever I’m around them...and I met you and...I really trust you.”

Phil smiled at him. “Are you insisting that you think we’re soulmates?”

Dan blushed even redder. “I don’t know. Kind of.”

“Well,” Phil said leaning forward, pressing his hand gently on Dan’s hot flesh, “I think we are too.”

Dan’s lips curled into a smile as Phil leaned forward, kissing him gently again. It was all completely innocent. Their lips moving over each other. Despite Dan being inexperienced, he still was a great kisser in Phil’s opinion. Phil continued the innocent kiss before taking a chance and licking over Dan’s bottom lip, asking for entrance. Dan’s face scrunched up and Phil decided that he wasn’t ready for that yet. So he didn’t do anything more. He pressed down a little bit more into the kiss before disconnecting them.

“I wish I could see what you looked like.” Dan said. “I keep imagining you in my head but I’m scared my image is wrong.”

“That’s kind of amazing that you can paint a mental picture of me.” Phil said.

Dan shrugged. “Maybe it’s because my body knows you’re my soulmate.”

“Maybe.” Phil said. But then he got thinking. He wanted Dan to talk to him about his fears. Phil knew that mates were going to have to have sex eventually. Heats and ruts would need to be shared if they were to complete the mating bond. And plus, if they ever wanted babies, Dan would need to open up himself to bear them. Why was he thinking of that? He didn’t even know what was going to happen between them and now he’s thinking of impregnating Dan.

“But let’s discuss you for a moment. Why does sex scare you?”

Dan shrugged again. “I don’t know. I think it all comes down to the idea that I don’t know what sex really is. Like, of course I know it’s intimate and it’s--well--sex. But what does it entail?”

Phil blushed. He felt like he was about to give a sex-ed lesson to a pre-pubescent teenager in a Health Class.

“Like, I know what happens during sex. But does it hurt? What does it feel like? Can you describe it?”

Phil laid back and let himself think it over in his head. He’s only had sex with one person so he didn’t have too much experience but he knew some basics.

“It’s...it can be incredible. Peak pleasure and euphoria at it’s climax.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Define hurt?”

Dan blushed and hid his face in Phil’s neck. “Does it hurt when someone...puts their dick inside you?”

Phil chuckled. “I don’t know if it hurts because I’ve always been on the giving end. But I don’t want to lie. I think it does hurt a little. And I learned when I was younger that Omega’s always hurt a little bit more when they’re virgins because of their body accommodating the Alpha size for the first time.”

Dan’s breathing heightened against Phil’s neck, making his skin damp. “So it is going to hurt me.”

“But I’d take such amazing care of you.” Phil doesn’t know why he uses himself as a way to help Dan out. He didn't know if Dan would ever sleep with him or mate with him. He kind of figured he would given that Dan already told him he thought they were soulmates which was exactly Phil’s own thoughts. “I’d make sure you never were pain. Just pleasure.”

Dan smiled into Phil’s neck. But then Phil felt it quickly fall.

Dan picked his neck up from Phil’s neck and looked towards Phil’s general direction. His expression was now completely serious. “I’ve been leaking slick for a few days now.” He said softly. “I woke up one morning with sheets soaked and I didn’t know what it was. I called Beth immediately and she came over. She told me instantly that it was slick. It terrified me…”

Phil felt his breath catch in his throat.

“That was the day that I told you that I thought my pills weren’t working.” Dan paused. “But then it stopped and now it’s starting again. And I think I’m going to go into heat soon. My hormones are weird. I have to shower often because my skin is flushed. You can probably feel it. I keep having wet dreams at night and I often need release. I...I think it’s coming soon and I don’t know what to do.”

Phil rubbed his hand over Dan’s back. “What do you think you want to do?”

“I want help when I go through it.” Dan bit his lip. “Do you think you could help me?”

Phil took a deep inhale of air. He let it out slowly. “Dan...if I smell your heat, I won’t be able to control myself. My alpha instincts will take over and I’m going to need to take you.”

“Then I give you permission to!” Dan said confidently--even though his lip was trembling.

“Dan,” Phil said again. “You don’t want that. You don’t want to have you first heat taken by an Alpha who can’t control themselves. I’d love to help you, but I’m afraid of what I’d do. My body and mind will become intoxicated by your heat. I can hurt you.”

Phil watched as Dan’s eyes glazed over, something he had never seen before, and then tears run down his cheeks. Phil immediately pulled Dan to him and held him. “Then what do I do?” He cried. “What do I do?’

“Well,” Phil said, “We can do a few things. I can buy you toys and you can go through it on your own. Or...we can do something prior to your heat so you’ll know what it feels like?”

“But then I won’t be pure for my mating.” Dan spoke.

“I don’t care about Dan.” Phil said, running his hand over Dan’s hair, pulling gently on the curls. “When we mate, I won’t care that there is no blood. I’ll just want you.”

Dan’s body tensed but then relaxed almost simultaneously. “Are you suggesting we have sex?”

“Well, it doesn’t have to be like that.” Phil said. “We can just be like how we are know and if something happens, then it happens. And if we happen to not do anything before your heat, then I’ll buy you toys and we’ll get through this.”

“But I’ll want you during my heat.” Dan said. “I know I will.”

“Then we’ll figure it out.” Phil said. “Soon.”

Phil paused and leaned down, kissing the top of Dan’s head.

“Let’s just relax right now. We don’t have to discuss anything else right now.”

Dan nodded against him and shut his eyes. Phil watched as Dan’s breathing evened out. He might not be asleep, but his body was completed relaxed against an Alpha and that’s all Phil wanted from Dan. He wanted for Dan to never be hurt and never be tense.

He just wanted to hold Dan forever.

The next morning, Phil was surprised to wake up and see Dan still sleeping beside him. He didn’t remember ever falling asleep. All he remembered was just talking with Dan and then them telling stories of their families.

And as they were talking, it reminded Phil that fall break was next week and that also meant Family Weekend was next week too. Which also meant his family would want to come to campus that weekend to do every. single. event. But that meant he could introduce them to Dan.

Dan said he’d tell Beth about it. Apparently he just has Beth as a sibling and then his parents, much like Phil did with just his older brother. When Phil asked him if Dan was going to invite his family, Dan sighed, and said that he didn’t know if his family would come.

But then as they were sitting in Phil’s room, Dan’s iPad went off and began reading to him a text message from Beth that said that their parents were definitely going to come.

So now, Phil looked over to Dan and smiled slightly. He was going to meet Dan’s parents...and that was actually kind of exciting to him.

In a weird way.

Phil remembers this exact time the year before. His classes were beginning to pick up and he was already bombarded with a calendar full of due dates and homework. This year was no different.

It had been nearly two weeks since Dan fell asleep in his arms and Phil can admit that no progress has been made between them. But he knows that there is something going on inside Dan’s head. Dan’s body language has changed around him and Phil could have sworn the other day when they were hanging out again that Dan wanted to grab his hand and lean into him again.

Phil is scared of the feelings between them though. He didn’t want to get mixed up in another relationship just because of his past with Devon. But part of him is drawing into Dan, wanting Dan all to himself and never wanting him to leave.

But Phil didn’t want Dan to know that just yet.

Even as he and Dan walked with linked arms to the plaza off campus where Phil was going to buy Dan a real pizza and not just the frozen kind the cafeteria serves them. When he had asked Dan to lunch this morning after meeting up together briefly in the elevator, he got happiness at the blush that spread through Dan’s cheeks before he answered.

And now, they’re almost there and Phil is loving the way Dan’s arm squeezed his as they walked slowly to make sure Dan didn’t trip and fall. Phil had to admit he was kind of a shit guide and being clumsy himself didn’t help. But it didn’t seem like Dan minded. He just laughed it off.

As Phil opened the door for them and they walked in, they were first bombarded with the scent of coffee from the Dunkin Donuts that was in front of them. But then Phil hung a right and took them to the pizza shop where he guided Dan to a seat.

But as they were almost to a booth, a sudden grip on Phil’s arm stopped him. It was coming from the opposite arm that Dan was holding so he was confused as to who it was until he turned his head.

A mop of blonde hair came into his view.

Devon.

“Hey guys!” Devon announced cheerily. “What are you two doing here?”

Phil gritted his teeth, not wanting Dan to be associated with Devon in any way. Over the past week, his entire body just hated Devon. He’s ignored all of his texts and pleas. Devon even came to his dorm room and asked for favors with which Phil refused.

“Dan and I are getting lunch?”

“Phil?” Dan’s timid voice broke through. “Who is that?”

“No one.” Phil snapped.

“What the fuck do you mean no one?” Devon shouted. “Who the fuck do you think you are?”

Phil’s blood boiled through this veins and he let go of Dan momentarily, his hands gesticulating madly in front of him. “Leave me–us–alone!” He belted out, his Alpha voice shining through enough that Devon immediately cowered where he stood. And the whimpering next to him made him turn his head and see a very upset and distraught Dan who was whimpering, his lips shaking.

Phil let out a breath and smoothed back his hair in frustration. “You need to leave.” He said point blank to Devon.

Devon shook his head and took in a shuddering breath. “We had so much together and you’re going to throw it away from him?” He asked, his finger pointing to Dan.

“You threw it away long ago and I was stupid enough to keep letting you in.” Phil stated.

Devon let out a forced breath. He furiously wiped his cheeks before turning on his heels and stomping out of the door, back outside. Phil stood there, in the wake of the fight that had just occurred, unsure of what to do.

He’s never had to use his Alpha voice before and it just happened.

It happened and he scared everyone, including Dan.

Oh, yeah, Dan!

He quickly turned and looked at Dan, who was staring at the ground, his shoulders drooped and his body language sad. “Dan?” Phil asked. “What’s wrong?”

Dan didn’t look up. He just spoke softly. “You really scared me.”

“I’m sorry.” Phil immediately answered. “What I said wasn’t meant for you. You shouldn’t have had to hear that.”

“Can you explain it to me later?” Dan asked. “I don’t like secrets.”

“I know, baby.” Phil winced at the slip of the pet name. He didn’t even know where it came from but it happened so naturally. He reached out and touched Dan’s arm. “Do you still want pizza?”

Dan didn’t answer for a moment. But then his little head bob told Phil he still wanted food. So Phil moved Dan to a seat in a booth and got in line to grab a small pizza for the both of them to eat.

Throughout lunch, Dan remained quiet. His unseeing gaze was fixed on the table and he showed no signs of moving it. Multiple times, Phil had the urge to move onto Dan’s side of the booth and just hold him until he calmed down. He knew Dan felt better when an Alpha touched his skin and held him.

But he knew that would have to be for later. And only if Dan wanted to. He didn’t know how Dan felt about him quite yet.

They finished their lunch in quiet but when they left, Dan took Phil’s arm again and they went back to the dorm building.

When they got to their floor, and began walking through the hallway, Phil stopped and asked him if he wanted to come back to his dorm room for a while and talk and Dan agreed. It surprised Phil that Dan wanted to go back with him after how scared he got. But he was glad.

It meant the Omega wasn’t totally afraid of him.

Phil unlocked the door to his room and brought Dan over to his bed where they both sat down and relaxed onto the stiff mattress. Dan took off his jacket in the process and let it slide to the floor as Phil removed his sweatshirt. As Phil laid back, Dan laid back too and cuddled next to him, which surprised Phil once again.

But then Dan spoke.

“Was that guy your boyfriend?” His voice was shy and timid. Unsure.

“No.” Phil said. “He was an ex.”

“An ex-boyfriend?” Dan asked.

“Yeah.”

“What was his name?” Phil smiled at Dan’s curiosity. He normally would have been annoyed at the prodding but with Dan, he was okay with it.

“His name was Devon.”

Dan’s hand came up and rested onto Phil’s shoulder.

“How long were you guys together?”

Phil sighed. “I’ll just tell you the whole story. But I warn you it’s kind of long.”

Phil didn’t want to be at this party. Okay, that was a total and complete lie. Of course he wanted to be at this upperclassman party, but he never expected himself to be invited. He guessed it paid off to have a roommate who was on the soccer team. And he was even more lucky that the party was at the soccer house tonight.

It was his first college party. He knew it was probably gonna be a mistake but he felt like if he didn’t go, he would have regretted it in the end. He didn’t want to be seen as one of the prude freshman who never let loose or have fun.

But as of right now, he wasn’t totally having fun. He didn’t know anyone here and everyone was packaged in like sardines. He didn’t even know where to go or where anything led to.

He saw a staircase in front of him, but it was lined with students making out on every step, some of them going further on a few of the steps. And to his side, he had a tell jock pushing a red cup to his hand. “Dude. You need to have a drink man. Your hand is empty!”

Phil took the drink and looked down at the weird colored liquor. He slowly lifted it to his lips and tasted. It was disgusting and strong. He coughed and sputtered, the taste wetting his lips. He didn’t like this.

Okay, maybe this was a mistake.

Phil left the cup somewhere on a mantle piece as he walked through the living room and somehow ended up in a less crowded kitchen with jocks pouring various liquor bottles into a giant punch bowl.

Okay, that spells disaster pretty quickly. But he grabbed a cup of it anyway from a way too drunk jock that sloshed it down his front in process. Good thing he was wearing his black shirt.

Taking a sip, this drink much more appealing, he found himself wandering outside to the back of the house. His legs were just moving on his own. He made it to an open area and sat down, the loud music pumping outside through the ground and the lights from inside shining out.

He was tapping his foot on the grass when a blond male came up to him, his head bouncing of curls and his green eyes staring at Phil. He was cute. He was extremely cute. And as Phil took an intake of breath, he noticed that the male was an Omega and his scent was delicious.

“Hi there.” The boy said, sitting down next to Phil with his own cup. “My name is Devon.”

Phil looked at him and smiled. “I’m Phil.”

“Any reason you’re out here all alone?” Devon asked.

“I just don’t know what to do here.” Phil said with a laugh. “I’m a freshman.”

Devon chuckled. “Same. But don’t tell anyone else that.”

“What major are you?” Phil asked.

“I’m a political science major. I wanna become the first Omega lawyer in this town.” Phil smiled at that. That was such a great accomplishment.

Phil went over his major with Devon as they both sat and just stared ahead at the party going on. He didn’t know what to expect when he left with Devon that night. He didn’t expect for him to lose his virginity to him in his dorm room as Devon took control. He didn’t expect for them to become an item–to begin dating.

He didn’t expect for Devon to go off his heat suppressants and begin going through heats. He didn’t expect himself to be so intrigued at Devon being his mate that he went off from his pills too. He didn’t expect to share a rut and heat with Devon as he locked inside of him, his knot swelling for the first time ever as he bit deep into Devon’s mating gland. And he definitely didn’t expect for Devon’s body to never heal because Devon never felt the same.

But Phil didn’t know that when he took Devon’s hand and showed him his dorm room at three am on a Friday night after drinking a little too much at the soccer house.

Phil finished the story and looked down at Dan who was tense.

“Do you still care about him?” Dan asked.

Phil shook his head. “I did. But I’ve got someone else on my mind now.”

Dan blushed and curled in closer to Phil. Then his smile faltered and he managed to look up–almost–directly at Phil. “So does that mean you’re not a virgin?” He asked.

Phil was taken aback at the question but he figured if he and Dan were actually soulmates, like his body was beginning to sense more and more every day, that they needed to talk about this with each other.

Phil nodded. “Yes, I’m not a virgin.”

Dan sighed. “I am.” He said. “I’m a virgin because Omegas are supposed to be pure when they meet their mates.”

“I know that.” Phil said, his arm tightening along with his jeans at the sudden arousal he was feeling. Stupid Alpha hormones.

“I hope that I don’t disappoint my mate with my inexperience. I’ve never even kissed someone before.”

“Yeah?” Phil asked.

Dan nodded. “Yeah.”

“Do you–”

Phil’s voice got caught in his throat as Dan lunged forward and his lips landed somewhere on the corner of Phil’s mouth and his cheek. He chuckled softly as he reached his hands out and moved Dan’s head so their lips were connected.

His body was screaming at him how right this was. This was his mate. He knew this now. Everything about this was exactly what he needed. And oh God, he never wanted to stop.

Their lips moved together in sync before Phil pulled away and smiled at Dan, although Dan couldn’t see it.

“Did you feel that?” Dan asked.

“I did.”

“What does that mean?”

“I think we’ll know soon enough.”

Dan smiled at Phil and rested his head back to Phil’s chest. Phil reached down and threaded their fingers together as their hands rested in each others.

This was perfect to Phil. The inner need inside of him to find his mate was suddenly being unleashed but also quenched. As he looked down at the blushing curly hair boy on his chest, his heartbeat sped up.

Yeah. Dan was definitely his mate.