I need help I think I might be on the ace spectrum but I'm not sure. I'm an identyfying pansexual woman who is amost 30 and a virgin and have thought about marriage and like 'solo adult pleasure' but the thought of having intercourse makes me feel uneasy though I love romance and romantic gestures and love stories. Do you have any advice? I'm sorry to just drop this out of the blue I just don't know what else to do
Hey! So first of all itās totally fine to be unsure of where your sexuality lies, itās a spectrum and completely fluid, so you may have identified with one thing but find that later on another term fits you better!Ā
It could be completely possible that you are panromantic and asexual! Where you can feel romantic attraction to all genders but donāt necessarily feel any sexual attraction to them. Marriage and as you put itĀ āsolo adult pleasureā are not unanimous with sexual attraction, you donāt necessarily need to want sex with another person to want either one. And again (a)sexuality is on a spectrum, you may not need to fully identify as asexual or aromantic or what not. Donāt feel pressured to fit yourself into a single orientation.Ā
When I was discovering my sexuality, I spent a lot of time reading about other peopleās experiences and watching coming out videos and so on. This is how I found experiences that I could relate to and it really helped me understand what I was feeling when I saw someone else put it into words. So look around! Go explore around asexuality and experiment with using the label if youāre comfortable with it. And if it makes you happy to use it, and identify as a-spec then do it! Being comfortable with yourself is the most important part. ^^