Break The Shell!
In my state of so called peace
I’m making strides
Thriving!
Queening!
Well,so it seems
Cause when doors close
Lights are off
My true self shines
I am broken
Bruised and battered
Hurting deep inside
I am Stuck between mountains and hills
And I’m meant to make a garden
Filled with roses and lilies?
But forgive me if all i can make
Is a statue of rocks
Because Rocks are all I have
From the chiseling I’m doing
Trying to find an escape
From the prison
These mountains have put me in
Climbing got tiring
Cause I kept falling
Kept hurting
Kept being pushed down
And I’m tired
So tired, that i put insomnia to shame
Nights and days
Have blended
To one continuous Trauma!
Motions, thats what it is
I’m going through the
Damn motions- emotions!
And I’m exhausted
Of assuming a position
Of happiness
When all i want
Is to kick,scream
And maybe shoot someone
And build castles in the sky
And pretend that the clouds
Are candy floss...
So,what are you saying?
His voice brought me back
To the coldness of this world
I am saying
I want more
Be more
But not with you
I looked in the mirror today
And it’s like i saw me
For the first time
And I fell in love
With my quiet strength
With the beauty of my scars
And realised each tear I cried
Watered the seeds inside of me
And now I’ve bloomed
I want to be present
In this life
Be in the now
Without you sucking the life
Out of me
And making me remain stuck
In the past
And be clothed with guilt
For mistakes made in ignorance
I want to strip off
Your scent of worthlessness
And adorn grace
And button it up
With being content
Because even with my flaws
I am enough!
I am saying
I want my groove back
I want my smile
I want to be able to dream
And live my dreams
I want my heart to know
The beat of another’s
To have my soul
massaged to ecstasy
And i moan
Genuinely exhilarated
I want love
I want my crown
And that can only happen
Outside of you
I am saying it’s over
It’s been over
I was just late
To realise that i always had
The key to my Queendom
