#trustnomore

If only I could bury all the memories I had from the year 2023, I would

I'm fortunate enough to realize that year was a mess. Someone took advantage of your kindness and, worst of all, used you. They perfectly show how much they care for you, but it turns out it was all for a show. They played it all. I should listen to my gut more and follow it. I know there's something wrong with those actions; that's why most of the time I just stare at them blankly, like I didn't know how to react to them. At that time, I just did not know how to express how uncomfortable I am with it, yet I'm still observing them. People I thought I could trust turned out to be secretly harboring feelings of envy toward me. A person I thought was different from the crowd turned out to be one of them. 

Another thing: Am I a joke? Am I really a joke? How could they say those words just because they thought I could easily believe in them? How ironic! It turns out it was all a lie. Little did they know, I gave them my benefit of the doubt. Those half-meant jokes aren't even funny, to be honest, and the not-so-sweet words they utter were really bitter and fake. I guess things could be more different if I could react and respond to them frankly every time they made those things a "joke,"  not just a silent reaction they got from me. Of course, without sounding offensive, don't be like them, lol. Every time those moments crossed my mind, I could laugh it off now and realize they made themselves fools and stupid for doing it. Good thing they didn't get what they wanted from me. I am thinking too that maybe there's really a motive behind to get me to fall for their trap without my knowledge; we don't know. Only God knows all of it. They perfectly played with my emotions and made my mind confused at the same time. I feel betrayed tbh. Now that I am reflecting on all those memories I had from the past, I just let karma do the things for me. As the saying goes, "what goes around, comes around". As Taylor Swift also said, "You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes". Pity them cause I learn that I am not a prize to be won.

Now, I am at a point in my life that you cannot easily trust people around you. It's heartbreaking when someone broke your trust. I must say, "c'est la vie." That's life. Only time heals all wounds. Just learn from those experiences and move on with your own life but never ever ever forget what they did to you. Forgive but never forget.

Yours truly,