#trustinself

Today was quite an eventful day. I mean I was working from home. But because of a few decisions that I took today, I felt like I catapulted and created a small whirlwind of momentum. Lately, I realized that I have very cluttered energy. I could see it in everything that I do, and also all around me. Everything was simply pending and just added to my clutter. Emotionally and physically, I could feel the heaviness on my body, in my back, my heart, and in my mind.

Anyway, let me start step by step. Yesterday, as soon as I came home, I simply wet my hair and chopped it off. I found a new tutorial. In the previous one, I couldn't keep a stable stance and this would lead to a weird haircut. This felt more accessible and easy to maneuver through the process. So I just did it and my head felt so much lighter! I oiled my air overnight and washed it today morning. I feel like a superstar! I saw so many public figures' hair in the videos and I thought to myself, wow! Such a lovely haircut :) Honestly, by doing this, I realized one really can do anything if they are determined, willing to put in the effort, and still willing to give it a go despite the nervousness. Sometimes, you just got to trust yourself and go for it!

The next is, I completed a pending work for the park project. It took ages and finally, it got done. And I felt like some space was created inside me. Phew! I have to say, actions make everything a whole lot easier!

Then, I also cleared my shelf that had been cluttered and gave away the laptop box that had been a form of stagnant energy in the room for quite some time now.

Then, I downloaded the software I needed into my other laptop and cleared it up. I just need to set up in the morning and clean the surface. And it will be ready to give away. My trusted partner of 7 years :')

I tried on the blouse I got maybe a month back now, to see that it fits wonderfully :) eeeeeeep!

Also made Vietnamese rolls with a super yummy mix, thank god for Manchurian sauces!! :D

I spoke to my friend for 2 hours about so many things. At the end of the day, it's so good to have a listening ear. So say what you wanna, and do what you wanna. Just the presence.

I realized after the conversation that I am aware of the things I am feeling, some things still abstract, and figuring them out, and doing things intentionally as much as I can.

It was a lot of clearing up today and energetically, albeit slightly tired, I don't yet feel relaxed. I think it's because my mind still hasn't comprehended the amount of clearing up I have done. Hopefully I'll feel a lot lighter tomorrow :)