#true journal

Sometimes, I get really scared because I fear that no one will make me feel the way you used to. I know now that that was my writer's mind, taking moments we had and adding senses that we never felt to make them feel more real. The truth of the matter is that you and I have nothing. Perhaps there was a spark once, but I recognize now that you are imperfect in ways that I can't see yet. Because of this, we do not fit well; you are full with and without me. One day, you will meet a girl who doesn't idolize you and she'll yell back when you fight. She will fill in your flaws with her perfections and you'll create something beautiful. This doesn't make me sad because I realize that now. The pity of it all is that I can't stop searching for the guy who doesn't need me because it doesn't seem right when I don't try to convince somebody to want me.