okay, i know i haven’t posted any pictures of my grimoire for awhile (sorry to everyone who followed me hoping to see more). here’s the real reason: i get very anxious sharing my work when i don’t feel like it’s “perfect”, and i haven’t had much energy lately to create my own magical work, much less pretty grimoire pages about it.

so i’m taking a deep breath and posting some spellwork i did, even though it’s not attractive. there was a lot of brainstorming and refining and reiterating and reordering that went into making this spell, which was specifically targeted towards one situation that i couldn’t directly control. it doesn’t look great but it doesn’t matter because -

- it worked!

after months of frustration, i texted the person in question two days after completing the spell, and discovered that all the obstacles in the way were gone! there’s really nothing like seeing your intent manifest to believe in your own power.

been awhile since i pulled out the cards. sometimes i feel like i am waiting for the right moment just to ask for help - a problem i have always struggled with - but it’s usually worth it when i finally do.

the stabbed heart of the three of swords in the center just made me sigh when i saw it; it’s exactly how i’ve been feeling this week. betrayed, let down, and letting those feelings really cloud my mind. being let down hurts. and when my heart gets hurt so badly i struggle to complete any work, to feel positively about myself, to believe in the underlying worth of anything i’m trying to do. feeling undervalued starts a spiral of sad, angry feelings that can easily drag me under for weeks.

two new things:

constellations and stars and the seasons of the year, printed on a lovely piece of scrapbook paper i found