#trapped dormancy

"in the city of the dead

i lay stuck inside my bed

the house burns down around me

the language of the lost

pouring from their open mouths

nobody can hear a thing

suddenly i’m breathing in the smoke

surrounded by the bodies

as i’m tugging on my chains

i’ll be swallowed by the flames

freedom dripping from the sink"

⬆️ The Solver taking over her mind and body slowly

"i don’t need forgiveness

i just wanna talk and for you to listen

i know i’d only raise the suspicion of my cause

my burns they throb to the beat of your heart"

&

"temperament or sickness?

holler all you want, no one ever listens

if only i had raised my suspicion of the cause

would you have noticed it at all?"

⬆️ Her relationship with DAS!V, she knows V is suspicious of her as is. Cyn blames herself for what happens and doesn't think she deserves to be forgiven. She just wants V & co to understand where the line between her and the Solver falls

"am i a robot or a doll?

am i anything at all?

maybe a soul like me

doesn’t even need to know

am i big or am i small?

hunching over standing tall?

i lost my identity

oh so very long ago"

&

"as i woke up from the dream

i had lost all self esteem

the burning home had cowed me

i thought that i was safe

now i’ll never be the same

tossed aside for making a scene

do i know who i pretend to be?

of whom am i a copy?

yes it made me who i am

but i’ll never understand

why it had to happen to me"

⬆️ Cyn honestly doesn't know who she is anymore, or who she's expected to be. I wont go into her backstory pre manor too much bc ✨spoilers✨ BUT pretty much from the day she booted up people expected her to be a specific way. It didn't end well and then her second chance was ruined by the Solver, who corrupted so much of her that people see them as the same person. That whole trauma also shaped her, she's different than how she used to be.

"software update, reinstall

scary things i can’t recall

making the best of it"

&

"ones and zeros

true or false?

reset system to default

faking the rest of it, but i can’t remember why"

⬆️ PTSD flashbacks and her desperately trying to erase that part of her.

"never even knowing why

on my knees i try to crawl

fire breaking in the walls / fire charred collapsing walls

calling out for somebody

knowing i’ll get no reply"

⬆️ NOT regular DAS -- BUT Trapped/Hivemind Cyn which means also Trapped Dormancy Cyn... calling out to N in the void of her mind...

"not robot nor a doll

i’m not anything at all

i’m just and entity finding out the way to go

but these fingers and these palms, full of love despite the scars

they show indisputably

i have so much more to grow

oh, i can change i can evolve

i can get up when i fall

i’ll live contentedly

i don’t need a reason why standing tall and standing strong

i have found where I belong in the arms of somebody

there is no more need to cry"