#transvet

I am a combat veteran that transitioned while in a Veterans hospital for 8 months being treated for PTSD,MST,TBI, severe depression , ( I’m sorry for writing mistakes, I have brain damage from my moderate TBI )and rehab for substance abuse. (I have been having work done for over 10 years to heal my burn scars that flare up from time to time so don’t post pictures I feel so ugly in, but there is one video of it online.)What is law, and how I was treated are very different. As a transgender female combat veteran i was housed with the men and raped by a staff member at Bath NY VHA after being removed from the female locked wing because an older transphobic woman complained and the transphobic director of the DOM agreed. (They supposedly interviewed me whil e in full detox. I identified as non-binary with female pronouns. They then actually used my sexual orientation against me because I am married to a female) . I had no LGBTQ support staff as required by law! COVID closed it down! The did zoom meetings and zoom investigations. One day belt get moved me to the female wing just till pass the inspection . No one believed a crazy junky veteran with ptsd and a TBI over administration. The absolute hell and harassment I received from administration contributed to my “depression” attempts. I also feel extremely guilty for what my country did to other countries. I’m ashamed of the atrocities. Yes I am a 🏳️‍⚧️USMC and 🏳️‍⚧️11 Bravo and 88 MIKE in the (New York , Vermont, and Oregon ) Army national guard. I’m a proud 🏳️‍🌈 Queer soldier/Marine married with 12 kids, but 4 are in heaven now. 😔 I was even a bobsled racer in the New York Army national guard

Hello everyone! I am trying to learn about who I am by connecting with others. My mother was a leftist feminist that raised me with extreme shame for being a WASP. I have outlived many of my children and was never so sad as when I was 5 years old, and did not clean my room to her standards , as a punishment my dolls where taken away and I was told I would never have children of my own. (I did not understand I could father children at 5 ) to this day it’s one of my saddest days. I lost my 6 month old daughter to a bad vaccine😭.

We cremated our twin infants that died of Mercury exposure here in Vietnam just before they would have been born 😭😭😭 they never got the chance have a life . I was not man or woman enough for my 1st and 2nd wife . My first wife was a bigamist. She was living as married to two people. She had a a husband and a wife 10 years younger. I did not like having 2 wife’s and all the dumb rules.Except for the sex! That was okay!!! But I was young and in the military in a time of war . I’ve outgrown that . I don’t need to fantasize about it, I’ve lived it! But i constantly dealt. with jealousy or one would complain if the other wife came harder or one did not cum at all ! Who did I spend more attention on, who did I talk with more. Far too many rules! I am happy with just my soulmate downtown Đào! My 1st and second wife where with me at the same time and I had children with both. When they broke up I was deployed to Afghanistan, where I suffered a TBI and no one but my new born son visited me with wife 2. Wife I left me for her drill SGT and wife 2 left me for another woman . Both where cheating on me and each other. I was was constantly called a pussy for crying when sad. I was a In the USMC 1996-1998 and US Army National Guard 2006-2015. My 3rd wife was Iranian and held me hostage when I tried to divorcee her, but that’s a whiloke other story! . She was a refugee and guaranteed citizenship but had an anchor baby with me the first week we met . I don’t blame her, she has terrible PTSD from the Iran-Iraq war she survived living in the Iranian border city of Iilam . I battle addiction every day. I have one year clean from fentanyl, cocain, heroin, benzos, and booze. I’ve always been allergic to marijuana and hate it. So I am living sober for the first time since I was 12 years olds I have never had sobriety and don’t know what I’m doing but getting through it one day art a time, sometime second by second . Using social media keeps me busy and away from temptation. I always drank my pain away. I have been raped in the military at 17 and by staff at the Bath NY veterans Hospital at 42 while being treated for MST, PTSD, and substance abuse. When I detoxed in the hospital is when I came out publicly as a transgender female combat veteran. Some veterans supported me, others tried assaulting me. I was back in a war zone. And recovering from a suicide attempt. No one ever wanted to prosecute because I’m transgender and I was victim blamed for how I look, I was housed with men while identifying as a woman at the Bath NY VHA. Everything was swept under the rug. Shawn and Benita in charge constantly made fun of my queer style of dress. They tried banning fish nets and lace gloves. I was shamed because you could see I had a penis under my cloths. You could see it with other make veterans but I was supposed to hide it?Why where so many “straight” Male veterans staring at my crotch?? Yet the men could wear anything they wanted with their balls hanging out constantly ! With few exceptions on their dress code.

I was accused if leaving VA grounds and had to be chemically restrained (given tranquilizers) to be locked in my room for 7 days as punishment . Walking outside is all I had to maintain my sanity.. I went on a hunger strike and was given more tranquilizers. That knocked me out and no one checked on me between meals . This gave the janitor the opportunity to rape me while medicated . Remember i am a disabled combat veteran at a Veterans Hospital when this happened. Since I was medicated; unconscious and did not verbally say “no” it was considered consent! INSANE!!after getting the news that they would not prosecute the federal employee and that they would be allowed to quit and keep their benefits. This sexual predator is still working with people that are easy targets. He had groomed me from the day I got there. Because of my TBI I did not realize he was crossing boundaries. He also sold contraband to other veterans in the hospital with addiction issues. 😭 I was transferred to Coatesville VHA near Philadelphia and correctly housed with the female veterans and got the help I needed. My Vietnamese (born and still living in Hanoi) wife of 4 years, has stuck with me despite all the hate she receives. She wanted to divorce me for almost 8 months. I convinced her to wait and see how my personality had not changed. Since the borders opened and I returned to Vietnam she has become more an more accepting of me. We still have our ups and downs but what marriage doesn’t.

On the other hand despite all the wealth and privilege I came from I was taught in order defender democracy those that are well educated from well-to-do families must also fulfill their duty as a citizen and become a soldier in the United States military. Why I fell for that, I have no idea no one else in my family did that, just me. I have a bachelors in history and I have a bachelors in Canadian studies because Canada gave me a full scholarship I wanted to go to law school for a little bit but I end up getting a masters in education because I wanted to be a teacher but 9/11 came along and anybody that has ever served was recalled to military service thus I joined the New York Army National Guard deployed with the Vermont army national guard and recovered from my combat injuries in the Oregon Army National Guard.

I am a warrior and a soldier and a USMC, I will survive. Follow me to see what my life is like being a Progressive American transgender woman married to a very conservative northern Vietnamese woman from Hanoi. Our lives could not be more different. I was raised in upper middle class maybe even called wealthy. I had maids, summer homes , winter homes, everything I ever wanted.i was a spoiled brat before at 17 the Marine corps ones that out of me. I’m still spoiled though, but appreciate what I have . My wife on the other hand was raised in a village just Harlekin getting by and eating meat once a month if she was lucky during the hard years Vietnam was sanctioned . Despite all the benefits I had coming from the wealthy well to do upper middle class some would call a wealthy family, I did not go anywhere near as far as my wife who came from a rice farming family in a village outside of Hanoi and put herself through not only university but grad school in Australia in order to teach English as a second language and she opened her own English center and school. Our story may not be typical, but normal is average,,-average are idiots and I’m no idiot.,. So I don’t want a normal life. I love my life. This was a very brief summery. I have left out so much details, other chapters of my life , adventures and the bad deployment daysZ brake. I have seen things no human should see. Had my baby girl die in my arms while giving CPR as she went into shock from a vaccine. I was forced to take the life of others in state sponsored murder known as war. I am Tay Ho Trish I am a transbian. I am only 1 year old as the woman I was always meant to be! In the first year of being a transgender woman I was ashamed of the word transgender I was not proud of who I was. I had great shame. Now I am so proud to be who I am! I am a strong intelligent mighty woman , I am woman hear me roar! No longer do I feel shame in hearing the word transgender . Society had forced that negative image into my head making me feel terrible by associating that word I was called fag queer all sorts of derogatory names but I now know that was just jealousy . I feel far superior to everyone that every called me a name and still holds hate in their heart today .I love me . I am beautiful, I am strong I am gorgeous. I regularly attends AA IN Hanoi . I am to start NA back up here In Hanoi. Follow me to see my life either succeed or self implode in flames . I want more than anything to have better relations with my estranged children as their trans mother. Thanks for helping me stay sober by writing this. The LGBTQIAPLUS community or just known as LGBT is very misunderstood here un Vietnam , but we do enjoy many protections abs freedoms. Sane sex marriage is not recognized yet.