buried in chaos only to come out growing stonger
Heart to heart connections are what is needed
caring about others is so important, and although I have felt it lack quite a lot in my life this past year so far - it is truly from my own thoughts that cause me suffering. Others cannot truly hurt us unless we give them power to. In my pain and anger I have lashed out at others and I am sorry. If I hurt another, I hurt myself as well.
I only wish that if someone is talking about suicidal thoughts..please listen and care if you can. I have dealt with this a lot in the past and I have felt it used against me. Yes my thoughts cause me suffering and this is how I’ve learned to let it go but that doesn’t mean the pain isn’t real in the moment I allow someone to hurt me, which I’ve done many times before. It can be such a struggle at times to not want to blame another person for our past pains, especially when it targets these specific areas - for me a lot of this pain has been felt through my trans experience and feeling not of this planet most of the time on top of that.
That is something I feel I should write on later and try to pick apart my thoughts and why I find what others say or think of me as hurtful.
A strange truth I always try to remember
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We are one.
Kai
Namaste
