i was not in any way 'female socialized' and i can't relate to trans people coercively assigned female at birth who use that term to describe their own life experiences. the thing about socialization is that it's absolutely real and it's also so much more complicated than 'male' vs 'female.' AND, crucially, it requires self identification with the group you are supposed to be apart of. male/female socialization simply does not work on trans children. it just reveals our transness in ways that expose us to violence: more extreme denial of bodily autonomy than the average child experiences, bullying, abuse, and alternatively/additionally self-hatred, self-policing, self-repression, anti-social behaviors and isolation. because of transmisogyny, trans girls and transfem children also experience a greater degree of physical violence on top of everything else i've listed (trans boys and transmasc children are not seen as deserving of physical brutality on the same level.)
i was not female socialized. i was 'freak weirdo kid who is not like the rest of us girls at all' socialized. i was 'autistic' socialized. and i was 'coerced into sublimating my needs and ignoring my own boundaries to suit the arbitrary whims and control needs of adults' socialized, like most children are, regardless of their assigned sexgender or proximity to transness, but because of my transness i adopted this tactic of self-annihilation with far more urgency and dedication, in order to make sure adults would allow my basic needs to be met, and that my peers would be less cruel in their treatment of me.
