I'm never getting over my hc that Fitz and Biana are both trans (ftm and mtf respectively). Under the cut cause it got kinda long
Fitz was supposed to be the Vacker's perfect daughter. He was supposed to grow up to be what Alvar couldn't have been. His parents had always wanted a daughter, and who was he to disappoint them? And so he delayed his transitioning and his coming out, even to himself, and he let himself get cloaked in the femininity and the womanhood that everyone expected of him, until it became too much and he wanted to tear off his skin whenever he looked at himself in the mirror because I don't want to look like a girl, I don't want to be a girl, I'd rather die than be a girl anymore.
And so Fitz Vacker resorted to being the perfect son, overworking himself until he collapsed on the floor of his bedroom from exhaustion, unable to move. But he could never be, because he wasn't their true son. He'd always be the boy who wasn't a boy, the boy who could never be a son because that wasn't how he was born and raised.
Fitz was shunted and punished by the family, subtly enough that those who supported him wouldn't notice, but not subtly enough that Biana, with her sharp eyes and her ability to hide where she wasn't noticed, wouldn't know. And so the role of "perfect son" went to Biana. But Biana had always had just that little bit more confidence than Fitz, and so she'd come out to herself long before the dysphoria made her whole body itch and hurt.
And now her parents had the daughter they’d always wanted. But she was far from perfect. She wasn’t nearly as perfect as Fitz was, with his friends and his grades and the elves who stared and blushed and giggled in the hallways. Biana didn’t have any of that, and nor did she want it, even without knowing what came with it; the loss of everything you care for, the leaving of your friends, the crying when you think no one can hear you, the empty seat during meals because you’re too busy studying for the test you have to pass or you’ll be shunned.
Fitz was supposed to be the perfect daughter. Biana was supposed to be the perfect son.
But neither of them could be perfect. Not when they’d chosen paths that defied their family’s wishes, not when they’d chosen paths that benefitted no one but themselves.
For a normal family, that was a price they’d be willing to pay. And perhaps the paths would merge.
But when you’re a Vacker, you only know acceptance when you’re exactly what they want you to be.
