fading to dust !
Send me 'Fading to Dust' for my muses reaction to watching yours die right in front of them.
Ā Ā Falling in love is a thing that cannot possibly be truly understood without ever having experienced it. People think they do, think they know love, but they don't until they crash down and hurt and heal all the same, when a single person's smile can get the sun to rise and their tears are worse than a year worth of rain coming down in a moment, when their thoughts and wants seem so much more important than your own. And that didn't quite yetĀ capture it, anyway.
Ā Ā Does it matter now? Does it matter when his heart is getting ripped apart in this very moment? Does it matter when everything that defined himself over her gets torn to pieces, his heart exploding in just to many pieces and he feels so helpless, so helpless, why is thisĀ happening.Ā
Ā Ā He's supposed to help her, he is supposed to make sure everything is alright, he is supposed to save her, that's his goddamn job so why can't he? Why is this out of his reach, why can't he make sure she is fine, why can't he help the throbbing pain in his chest, slowly bleeding out on the inside?Ā
Ā Ā This is notĀ fair. She did nothing wrong, she did nothing to deserve this, and it's not okay, it's not alright, and he can barely breathe, can barely get any words out.Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā "Please don't leave me."
Ā Ā A selfish little sentence muttered out, rolling between dry lips, pressing his forehead against her hand, trembling. Is this really just because she doesn't yet deserve to go, or because he doesn'tĀ want her to leave? He doesn't know. He doesn't.
Ā Ā It hurts. ItĀ hurts.
