#tp text posts

imagine you're a chill lesbian just trying to get through a boring day at your mall job at knock-off Build A Bear, and some twink loser from your comphet phase that you haven't thought about in like a year shows up with his weird ass boyfriend that's like 10 years older than him who keeps asking what you're doing later but you know he means it as a threat and to top it all off, he's sitting behind you glueing dick and balls onto a giraffe and you can feel his eyes on your back the whole time

it's so embarrassing that my hyperfixation is The Passenger

controversial opinion but best scene in The Passenger 2023 is Benson halting his crime spree for a bit so he can, with great focus and intensity, decorate a stuffed giraffe and dress it up in little outfits

me posting benson chapters: hey guys!!! hope this reads okay, it's very important to me that i get benson's characterization right! he's very complex and beloved in our fandom and i want to respect that! hope you enjoy! <33

me getting in my 'writing for Benson' headspace: I believe I am in charge. I believe I am untouchable. None of that is true, but I don't know that. I don't believe that. I am blinded by my own belief in inner strength I think I possess that is more fragile than I realize. I am strong, except when I'm not. I don't need help from anyone, except when I do. I'm calm, but I'm chaos. I'm a collection of contradictions, but I think I'm the most rational person in the world. I am so mentally unprepared for the day my worldview crashes down around me. Every day, I am walking on a tightrope that I've convinced myself is solid ground. I was never in charge. But I don't know that yet.