#torchsnuffers

me rn

voted for allison twice, voted for scott twice and voted for jessy once and i'm sitting here in the final 4 with them dfgdhgdd

i'm honestly over fighting with allison. she obviously doesn't care what the jury thinks about her game when we're literally the people who have the final say on who wins. instead of arguing with us and telling us our opinions are invalid, maybe listen and change your game to fit in a way that would earn you the votes. god i really don't like her i'm sorry

here's what i've had to suffer through the past half an hour [1:52:49 PM] connah. i guess.: what information did you give to mj? [2:06:51 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I literally fed him information and tried to save him premerge and he told me nothing [2:07:08 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And then I was trying to get him to vote Jessy because I didn't know she had immunity. [2:08:00 PM] connah. i guess.: oh well i wasnt there for that first bit [2:08:17 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Like, it's hard being told that I had to talk to people [2:08:22 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): When I did [2:08:25 PM] connah. i guess.: but tbh mj and i knew jessy had immunity because she told us about it and she told is she told you as well [2:08:31 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And was ignored or fed lies. [2:08:43 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): It was before I knew she had it. [2:08:48 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And he didn't respond to it [2:08:53 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): So I was like? [2:09:02 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Why give you the new information? [2:09:16 PM] connah. i guess.: i was informed that jessy told you 10 minutes after results [2:09:26 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): She did not for like an hour. [2:09:37 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because I spent that hour trying to formulate a way to make a move [2:09:50 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): But trying to work around not knowing who had immunity. [2:10:03 PM] connah. i guess.: yeah and didnt you tell mj the next day to vote jessy? sweaty no reason to lie anymore its final 4 [2:10:16 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I did. [2:10:18 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): The next day. [2:10:21 PM] connah. i guess.: we also knew the entire day you guys were splitting votes [2:10:25 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because I literally tried to work with him and he didn't care. [2:10:33 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I know Jessy has been feeding you information [2:10:35 PM] connah. i guess.: so why are you complaining about us lying when you do it too? [2:10:37 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And that's why you like her. [2:10:48 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And that's why she is playing a good game. [2:10:55 PM] connah. i guess.: because jessy is open to making a move and helping us advance [2:10:59 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And me not needing to do that means I'm a bad player [2:11:04 PM] connah. i guess.: connor voice: a pagonging isnt cute [2:11:12 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Why would I want to help you advance when you aren't beneficial to my game. [2:11:18 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): It's literally not a pagonging. [2:11:24 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Looks at Andrew and Connor [2:12:01 PM] connah. i guess.: ummm it still is when theres been a consistent majority since final 9 [2:12:51 PM] connah. i guess.: the only reason connor left is because jessy's not afraid to make a move to benefit her game and gain jury votes, if you're not willing to work with different people, we arent gonna know what game youre playing thats just how it works [2:12:56 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): That we literally had to fight our way from minority to get [2:13:01 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I literally tried [2:13:06 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): You keep saying I'm not willing [2:13:07 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I tried [2:13:09 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I got no response [2:13:17 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I stopped caring because you didn't want to work with me [2:13:26 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Period. The end. [2:13:28 PM] connah. i guess.: yall were in minority for one round please and at least i was open to communicating about the game at that point [2:13:30 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): You can say what you want [2:13:37 PM] connah. i guess.: allison [2:13:38 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): But you continued to lie to me [2:13:41 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): But I tried [2:13:49 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And you saying I didn't just because I didn't want to. [2:13:55 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): When I did [2:13:57 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And I tried [2:14:00 PM] connah. i guess.: you have not once come to me and said i want to work with you and make a move [2:14:01 PM] connah. i guess.: not once [2:14:08 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): More than anything in this game I wanted to work with you [2:14:13 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because you voted with MJ every round [2:14:17 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Why would you flip on him. [2:14:22 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): You were an obvious F2 [2:14:27 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And he was the person I wanted gone [2:14:28 PM] connah. i guess.: that makes me think youre not ever interested so why would i bother when jessy actually is willing to vote with me [2:14:37 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Whateevr. [2:14:44 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I've said the same thing 4 times [2:15:00 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Apparently me trying to work with other people suddenly means I'm not trying to work with people [2:15:06 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Believe what you want about the game [2:15:18 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): But I wanted to work with you. Because I genuinely enjoyed talking to you. [2:15:18 PM] connah. i guess.: i voted with mj every round because yall literally wouldnt even consider the possibility of even making a f2 deal with me? why would i vote mj out if hes voting with me? [2:15:37 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And I'm not one to do strategy with someone until I talk to them as a person. [2:16:04 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I literally would have if you would have talked to me about the game. But we had one conversation and MJ didn't talk to me. [2:16:26 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And it was obvious you didn't want to work with me until you absolutely needed me or you would go home. [2:16:36 PM] connah. i guess.: Apparently me trying to work with other people suddenly means I'm not trying to work with peoplethat's not what im saying. literally. please. listen. im saying you have worked with the same people the entire game, you have not been willing to change it up and actually make multiple plans. when mj, jessy and I saved you and sent Lydia home, you didn't even talk to me that round, like not even a hey whats up? [2:16:52 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Like, there's no need to flip on my alliance to save someone in the minority when they haven't worked with me. [2:16:58 PM] connah. i guess.: And I'm not one to do strategy with someone until I talk to them as a person.we're at the final 4 sweaty, we have been communicating now for 20+ days we don't need to get to know each other anymore [2:17:00 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): and they haven't tried. [2:17:26 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Just like you didn't talk to Jessy until you needed her to keep you in the game. [2:18:30 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because everyone told me you were with Lydia. I didn't know you were a part of that plan. [2:18:53 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I was just trying to survive, and if I spilled to you, you were going to spill to Lydia. [2:19:18 PM] connah. i guess.: how would you know what i talk to jessy about? despite being on opposite sides jessy and i have always been able to talk about game even when we're not voting together [2:19:25 PM] connah. i guess.: something you lack. [2:19:47 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because you haven't trusted me [2:20:06 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because everything I said to you ended up back to MJ and I didn't want him to know. [2:20:16 PM] connah. i guess.: if you came to me. and said. lets vote out jessy at f7. i would trust you because thats all i have at that point [2:20:23 PM] connah. i guess.: you just assume i wouldnt trust you [2:20:28 PM] connah. i guess.: im in the minority [2:20:31 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): When you're an obvious F2 and I distrust the other half, why would I trust you. [2:20:43 PM] connah. i guess.: im not in any position to throw away and opportunity when someone is handing it to me [2:20:45 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): How am I supposed to know this isn't all going back to Jessy? [2:21:08 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I literally would tell you so much if I could guarantee it wouldn't get back to people [2:21:10 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): But I can't. [2:21:20 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): Because you've been closer to other people that aren't me. [2:21:39 PM] connah. i guess.: why would i tell jessy? i literally said we talk about game but lie the entire time and we can have a good laugh about it but youre getting offended about our perception of the game [2:22:02 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): And you're getting offended about mine by thinking you would tell Jessy. [2:22:04 PM] connah. i guess.: let me tell you, you're not gaining any brownie points for my jury vote at this point [2:22:18 PM] connah. i guess.: im not offended i asked you why youd think id tell her [2:22:20 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I'm honestly just trying to defend myself. [2:22:23 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): I'm not winning this game [2:22:25 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): It doesn't matter. [2:22:26 PM] connah. i guess.: obviously shes the biggest threat to win [2:22:37 PM] connah. i guess.: why would i openly work with her at this stage [2:22:54 PM] connah. i guess.: i literally said ill vote for you over scott [2:23:12 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): you're about the only one. [2:23:33 PM] Allison (PI Motonui Host): The jury doesn't like me. The jury wouldn't talk to me. The jury is all people I've voted out. [2:24:49 PM] connah. i guess.: I can tell you the jury doesn't like scott at this point because of the way he comes across to people, it seems condescending hence why I wanted to lay everything out right before tribal because he was lying to me and wouldn't admit it when there were facts right there

i can't even win this immunity i'm over

ugh i'm actually leaving tonight? scott, allison and jessy aren't even on right now to even give me a fucking chance to stay. i've been in the minority this entire fucking merge and i've really just lost the energy to fight. i've been making a case for myself to jessy as to why i should stay over allison and it's a pretty solid argument but at this point it seems like she's really not gonna at least give me a chance in a tiebreaker

allison: MJ you never talk to me MJ:

[11:24:37 PM] Jessy: i just wanna tell u that i think i'm voting u out and i'm sorry :/ [11:25:52 PM] connah. i guess.: hmmmm [11:27:51 PM] connah. i guess.: I really don't think that's your best move jessyh I really dont [11:28:21 PM] connah. i guess.: taking someone to final 3 who openly said they wanted you out at final 4 imo is very risky and if you don't win that last immunity challenge you will probably get 3rd place [11:28:51 PM] connah. i guess.: I'm just saying whether you believe me or not, your odds of getting to final 2 are far greater with me at the final 3 than Allison who said she doesn't even want you at final 3 [11:30:52 PM] Jessy: I believe you but I can't beat you [11:31:14 PM] connah. i guess.: jessy you can beat me [11:31:17 PM] connah. i guess.: like [11:31:31 PM] connah. i guess.: mj is not gonna vote for me at the end he's not the type of person to do that [11:31:40 PM] connah. i guess.: people like sam and matt might also vote for you too [11:31:50 PM] connah. i guess.: like if I'm there with you its not as set in stone as you think [11:32:19 PM] connah. i guess.: also you probably shouldn't worry about if you can beat me or not at a f2 at this point if you're gonna be running the risk of not even getting to that point [11:32:23 PM] connah. i guess.: just my opinion This is so awk? BKLJASJKLFKLSMFMKLSA like okay.. i'm literally cassandra rn he's jared KLSJKSJL connah: You won't have power next week sweetie me: Okay... you won't be here next week

Whew!!! The Justice Avengers really did avenge Andrew in the end. This final 3 is so beautiful, and I know I'm not winning this game cause the jury told me that multiple times. So to be against one of these two iconic females??? Ugh its amazing!! Connah definitely did try to hurt my game by telling Jessy what I told him on call, but luckily I did tell her beforehand. Tbh I think Jessy's gonna win final immunity cause Allison and I suck at challenges, so I'm really hoping Jessy sticks to her word and votes Allison out. Honestly I know I won't be winning. I definitely will try in the end, but I accept defeat at this point. I know this is Jessy vs Allison in Final Immunity, cause I strongly believe both would bring me over the other. So I'm contemplating on just throwing the final immunity cause Jessy and Allison both have final 2's with me. And if I win, I lose one more jury vote and this jury really hates me. So I plan on throwing whatever it is. This season really has been fun for me. I'm happy I had the opportunity to play this game, and the fact that I was able to accomplish all the goals I set for myself? I'm really proud of that. List of Goals 1. Not be first boot 2. Not be pre-merge 3. Make the jury 4. Beat AG placement 5. Make FTC (still working on that, but really no biggie if I don't) Now onto Final immunity!! Will i actually throw it, or will i try to win? Who the fuck knows

This final round is so... tough!! I know if Jessy wins, she's taking me. I know if Allison wins, she's taking. But who do I take if I win??? I really don't know. Allison told me she plans on throwing it to me if we were in FTC together, because she really thinks I deserve it. And I really do think if I take her, I can win this season. HOWEVER I've been alongside Jessy for a long time in this game and I know she's been working nonstop not just to get herself here, but for me. Like I think back to when she told me about the tatzelworm thing, and I told her "don't worry about us, you're safe. Focus on getting yourself further" and she really did save us all in this game. Like I know I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her. So if I win final immunity, taking that away from her would be awful. I know what that feels like cause I was the deserving winner in Ancient Greece, and Gerda lied to me, voted me out, and took my crown. And I don't think I can do that to Jessy.... I really don't think I can. Thats why I'm hoping that I don't win this challenge, but I have a feeling I will cause Allison didn't even try it yet, and after I talked to Jessy, she talked to me about possibly taking her and that she wouldn't be upset if not. I'm just hoping Jessy/Allison win cause if they don't, then I have to actually make a game-changing move and honestly... this is gonna be interesting.

Update: it doesn't matter what I previously just said 5 minutes ago cause Jessy just told me she did it in 24 minutes and is gonna win immunity, so YAS QUEEN!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR HER!!! Hopefully she takes me... Cause I'd rather get grilled by this jury as opposed to being the final jury member and getting the  "I told you so" from Sam.

I could have pretended to Allison liike i didnt know what happened in the vote isntead of just telling her i flipped but allison could've just talked to mj+connah and i'd be blown up KLJSJKLS

scott: give me a kiss and i'll vote with you me as cody:

Whew, did I really need this break. Basically I knew Connor left and I just had to act like he wasn't going. But with this next immunity, we needed to make sure MJ/Connah didn't get it cause we need more than anything. It's best for my game they are split up at Final 5 so I can really think about what to do in Final 4. Luckily Allison won, so no need to worry about that. However, the thought of MJ/Connah having an idol scares me because if MJ (the target) plays an idol, then one of Jessy and myself will get voted out. And like, I'm not ready to go home yet. I still have a lot of game left. So we concocted a plan for me to give Connah the Obsidian idol and make him think he needs to play it so if he does, he just self-votes and if MJ plays an idol on himself then we vote out Connah on a revote. Very complex but I'm hoping it works. I'm gonna talk to him about it last minute so he has time to scramble and make an impulsive decision out of paranoia. Well, here goes nothing.

anyway i am fucking gaggedt like how is that mj? and i? are the last two of our alliance? like it literally makes no fucking sense for it to go down this way hdsgfsdfsdsa like it's so fucking iconic... sam then matt then josh? like fucking gag worthy

Well, this week is turning into shit real fast. So I say at the last tribal "oh, you know there's no twist the rest of the season, it should be easy" And then trevor is like "surprise bitch, bet you thought you've seen the last of me". Like are you kidding me??? and this twist is fucking BLIND WEEK (thanks connor) So I have no idea what is really about to go down. Jessy won immunity, which would be a good thing for me. However, now it makes me more of a target cause Connor wants to flip and vote me out with MJ/Connah and like... I work night shifts this week and cant socialize to save myself at all cause everyones asleep/busy until 5pm!!! Like I can't with this. I'm gonna hate going to the jury with Sam/Matt/Josh who all despise me in this game. But you know, I think I need to like vote Connor out and hope Jessy works her magic with MJ/Connah so other Connor can go. Cause at this point, it really is "anyone but me" As for my final plans, final 3 is gonna be Allison/Jessy if Connor goes this round. And I think Connor going is best for me cause I think Jessy would take me and I know Allison would take me. And honestly, I think I can only win against Allison in this game. However, I really wouldn't mind going to the end and losing with Jessy cause... know that the Queen is doing THAT

So, I voted out Josh last round, and within minutes MJ is pretty much yelling at me about how 'this wasn't my move' and I have 'no defining points in the game to show the jury.' Which I kind of agree with, but that does depend on who you're asking and when. I know I won't win against MJ. He's too liked by Matt and Sam. But one point MJ did make to me which has gotten me to rethink this end game and how it's going to be playing out. MJ said, and i loosely quote: "you will not get the one of our votes if you turn on the other, and you certainly won't get Matt and Sams, so you're one vote away from losing the game right there." True. But here's the thing. I am the only person left in this game that can still beat my previous placement, and the only way to do that is to win. I'm going to do what ever it takes. Blind week, the sweet red headed step child of mine who i love, is helping my end game out a lot. Allison/Jessy/Scott are intending to split their votes so that the vote will be 2-2-2, with Connor and MJ being the other two. (Duh.) What they don't know is, if the vote ties, it immediately goes to rocks. This vote is "going to tie". Scott is going to go home tonight "because of rocks." When they ask how he went, Trevor can slide on in to messages and explain how a tie vote works with blind week. (Trevor, please.) I can then play up with Jessy and Allison how stupid we were to do that, and how Scott MUST have been rocked out, its the only thing that makes sense. Im hoping to vote Mj off at 5, but im still not totally sure if thats best. All I know is both Connor an MJ have to go. I know they're going to take each other to finals, there is no reason for them not to. For me to make finals with f3 being Connors and MJ, I would HAVE to win immunity and I would HAVE to get Allison, Scott, Jessy, and Josh's votes, and frankly, i dont think they would vote for me sitting next to either of them, and it would take one of them to fall and vote the other way for me to lose in a f2 again. Fingers crossed that this, what ever this fucking is, works.

i really can't fucking believe that worked i'm actually screaming dsfhdsghdfgd i love this song

All I have to say is I deserve an Academy Award for all the lies I've told in this game... Meryl Streep who? This week I have to act like I had no idea Connor was going home to every single person in this game except for Jessy. Allison asks me if I flipped and I'm like "no, wtf happened I'm so mad" when in reality, I think Connor going strengthens my chances of getting further in this game. Allison is now closest to me, but I am worried about her thought process in this game. She wants to vote Jessy out at f5 and risk making a fire against MJ/Connah. I'm sorry, I legit can't.... I can't go to fire. I'm such a flop at challenges and I will NOT get 4th place again. I'm so close to getting my highest placement in this series and I can't risk flopping now. Ideally, for this next round Jessy needs to win immunity so I can go far. With Jessy gone, I know I'm the biggest target on the other side so I need her here if I want to have a fighting chance. If she wins, it guarantees Allison sticking with us and one of MJ/Connah going if they don't have an idol. WHich I'm hoping they dont. However, me winning immunity would be cool too just so I can guarantee myself safety. This round Connor tried to get me out, and I can't risk that happening cause I've been such a huge target all of merge. It amazes me how I'm still here honestly.