#too trusting

Castiel 😇😊💙

I don’t know why I always end up falling for and just generally trusting the wrong people. They come with bad excuses to act like jerks and I believe them and wait patiently for their behaviour to stop because when I like someone I wanna believe the best of them. Even after being hurt so many times I still cannot fathom how people can actually be jerks on purpose so I believe their excuses. I guess it just means that i’m a kind person? I believe in people, even those not worth believeing in? But I gotta stop wasting my time... It’s starting to get really exhausting emotionally and I don’t wanna end up cold and hateful because of the people I let affect me this way. I gotta stop focusing on good moments and see the full picture. It’s not enough if a person makes you happy sometimes... they should do it all the time. They should always be there when you need them. They should be honest with you and listen to you when you need to talk. If they do not do these things then maybe they’re not what you thought they were.