title: entropy
author: aspectabund (yours truly)
category: teen titans
rating: M
pairings: robin/starfire, beastboy/raven, cyborg/give me suggestions for cyborg's lover!
summary: You were once a star. A beauty, a treasure, the only gem to retain its pure core. Then you were fire, the flames encompassed you, and you left your past in the embers, your friends included, to rise from the ashes. And now, you are nothing. You are space. You are alone - and you like it that way. AU.
"Then Richard and I patched things up. Garfield was a little too nice to me after that, trying to make me feel better, but things got back to normal. I didn't think it would, because how can things be normal after something like that? But it happened. I don't know, it always happens; things have a tendency of coming into the light, and eventually, it gets used to that sort of exposure, and you start to like it that way. It just... happens. You'll get there too, Starfire." I want to argue with her, but Rachel starts to glare at me, so I shut up. "I learned to cut off my past. People like to say that it's a part of their identity, but honestly? I can leave it all behind me."
"Exactly." I start speaking without thinking, beginning to ramble and reveal my own thoughts. "That's what I've been trying to do: just leave it all behind."
"But you can't do that until you reconcile with it," Rachel says, her voice as sharp as the narrowing of her eyes, "do you see what I'm trying to tell you, Starfire? I'm trying to tell you that it's possible to get over it, once you've accepted it."