#titaniumtessa

John sank to the ground as he looked at the wall across from him, his phone dropping as well. There was no way. None at all. Tessa was someone that John never thought he was going to like. Instead, they ended up close to one another. Sucking in a breath, John thumped his head against the wall a few times. He wasn’t going to cry. He wasn’t going to appear weak. "It doesn’t prove that you’re weak—it proves that you’re strong enough to face them." The words ran through his head and John crumpled. Tears ran down his face as he closed his eyes. He’d never thought he was going to be this upset over the death of Tessa but then it was Tessa. Clutching his hair, John felt the emotions Tessa had tried to so hard to unfold mere hours before unbottle before him.

Sometimes John wondered what he’d done wrong to his parents, how he’d wronged them. It wasn’t fair to him, he questioned it and even went through a spell where he’d do anything to gain there attention whether it be getting detention, hurting himself, breaking something, etc. When that didn’t work, John ended up giving up on trying to get his parents attention. It wasn’t worth his time anymore. If he wasn’t worth theirs then why make an effort at all?