In the words of Stained "its been a while...."
And clearly I still look like I've seen better days. But honestly I don't even think I know what "better days" were. Not everything was terrible but it definitely wasn't the best either.
I don't even know where to begin with an update.
Except now there is a status hearing for the divorce and the judge is aware of the domestic charge so mediation doesn't really seem possible.
Of course since then he manipulated not only me but the boys and mom into believing that once his warrant was over we'd try to fix shit because he broke down and claimed he hated his life. But he actually fooled us hardcore.
As of now he's no longer on the run. The warrant was removed. He manipulated that situation to his advantage too and now he's back to being a complete dick. Turning everything around on me. claiming he's going to take the boys away.
The advocate I called to try to get a protective order basically said since the charge isn't against me to mind my own business, in cases like mine usually someone (me) ends up dead because a piece of paper isn't going to make someone behave. Then basically said I look bad because I waited this long well duh I'm fucking scared and with the warrant I figured I'd he got mean a cop call would get him away and I'd be safe.
And yes I know I said I would have tried to work things out. Which is ignorant on my part. But things are hard and no one will help me. He may be awful but he's some sort of help.
I'm at a loss. I really need to find a better place but j can't afford the up front fees and literally no one will help. And my credit isn't great enough for a loan.
I just want something before Thanksgiving so we can have turkey this year. The oven doesn't work and hasnt and slum lord's won't fix anything.
I just want the best for us. Why is everything so unfair? Why can't someone help me?
And once again there's a tip feature or if you a random stranger may want to help donate to the cause because I'm trying dammit.
