It gets more in believable that you're gone. Stone days that's all I can think about. How are you not on this planet anymore. You were my first love, my first... everything really. I still have wonderful memories of you, but on the other hand I definitely have some very terrible memories of you. When I first started college I would get random phone calls from you every Month or so. Always from a number I didn't know... i still can't wrap my head around the fact that I will no longer get random calls after midnight from you... and it's been 4 years. Weird emotional day I'm having. One day we'll meet again, and I'll smack you for being stupid enough to let drugs win.