#timetovent

You're a smart kid, that MUST mean you can do everything. All the pressure to do well while at the same time doing as much as you can. APs, extracurricular, sports, jobs. That's not me. I'm not like that. I'm not even that smart. Maybe I just used to try hard on stuff, but it's different now.

Is it even fun anymore? Isn't it senior year? How did it all come crashing down so fast. And now an accident? Small as it may be, it's still a fault. When it was least needed, as if I didn't have enough on my plate. Just keep screwing things up as you go. Fail tests, late homework, hit cars, late to classes. Another problem, just stack it up.

Haven't even began to talk about a social life. Do I even have one anymore? Friends? Barely see them. College? Wow, those applications need to get turned it. Actually need to be started, but with what time? Just a teenager in high school but already in the midst of a crisis. Paralyzed throughout the day, not knowing what to do, where to go, and who to turn to.

I'm stuck, lost actually, and don't know what to do. I'm not like this. Everything is so different, I'm so different. If I say something, I might just be complaining because heck, I'm supposed to be smart. And not only that, I did this to myself, right? I know, I picked my own classes so what happened? Didn't see this coming. Didn't realize it would be like this, come to this new low.