Aug 15, 2024
So I have to delete the tiktok app again…I redownloaded it because my partner texts me videos (usually cute animals) but tiktok stopped letting me watch them without the app. Okay, so I’ve had it for like two weeks now. And I’ve been doing pretty good self-control wise. I’ve been scrolling like an hour a day, tops.
And then I was like “I’m not sleepy yet, lemme scroll for an hour before bed” and then my alarm went off for like. “5am time to get up to get an early start on work so we can play dnd this afternoon.” Friends, I will be napping this afternoon. If I don’t conk out at my desk before then :(
#tiktoxic#honestly#I think though this is also b/c. yesterday was my first day of work for the school year#and it was going slow getting back into the swing of things. it’s supposed to be ten minutes a paper for grading and it was like. 30.#so I’m feeling pretty bad about myself. dopamine stores very low. and tiktok is. purposefully engineered to fuck with folks with adhd#plus I just started taking my Wellbutrin again a couple days ago and there’s always an adjustment where I feel like I don’t need to sleep or#eat at all. ya know? and I had my first energy drink in several months. plus I started smoking again (quitting again after this pack)#so it’s a lot of stimulants. which I need to get me over the hill til the Wellbutrin is like. working for real.#so maybe not fair to blame it alllll on tiktok. but it’s at least 50% of the problem.#anyway! wish me luck :(
