#thread:rose

"You’re a dhampir. You should be thinking about protecting him, not sleeping with him.” Granted Rose had fooled around with Moroi before, she wasn’t above fueling any possible doubts about the world Jo seemed to be somewhat unfamiliar with. 

Rose hadn’t really intended for the mood to grow so heavy, but she could tell that she hadn’t just been stating the obvious. The dhampir had also struck a cord with Adrian. And to be fair, she should have known better. Hadn’t he been the one to shock his parents with promises of raising little dhampir babies, while Rose herself went out and made a living protecting other Moroi from danger? 

Until now, she hadn’t realized just how serious he’d been in his desires for a different kind of future than the one laid out by his parents. Rose had just discarded it as a somewhat childish attempt at trying to earn his parents’ disapproval. It had been uncomfortable then and the thought now still made her feel the same way. Probably because of the mention of children, which wasn’t really in any of her future plans. 

“I’d rather die for you than a lot of the other Moroi out there,’ she told him, trying to lighten the mood a little. It was true though, from as early as she could remember, it had all been about them. Protect the Moroi, at any cost. And she didn’t or wouldn’t question it. That was just the way it was, and Rose knew that nothing would ever change that now. And although she’d likely step in front of any Moroi in trouble, it being so ingrained in her, the dhampir had been honest in saying she’d rather die saving Adrian than anyone else. Well, except Lissa perhaps, but the lengths she would go for the one she’d been bonded with was general knowledge by now. 

Not ever having considered a life outside of becoming Lissa’s guardian and protecting the princess, Rose appeared utterly dumbstruck at the question. What did she want to be? It seemed an easy enough question, but it wasn’t. Never in her entire life, had she ever really considered there to be any other possility than fulffilling her duty towards the Moroi. Not even when she’d been living on the outside with Lissa, because even that had all been about keeping her charge safe. Was there really anything else she COULD be? 

“I don’t know. I don’t think there’s anything else I can want to be for myself, because that would mean giving up Lissa and I can’t do that.” The honesty stung her like a bee with every word, because saying it only made it that much more true. Rose was stuck. Where she would have rebelled against it to a certain degree in the past, free will was non-existent to her now, because she was just too good a dhampir. 

“So I guess best I can hope for is being your sexy, not-so-secret lover until they ship you off to marry some beautiful, tall Moroi girl.” Rose winked, chuckling softly as she moved forward to sit on his lap, wrapping her arms around him as she did. it was time to get him out of whatever mood she had carelessly put him in, and bring out her more funloving boyfriend to brighten her day. “And maybe even then.” 

@flameinthcdark | some meme

Rose glanced over at Sydney, something akin to guilt fleetingly crossing her features as she once again was reminded that her friend was a human who didn’t really see their ways as normal or even remotely natural. 

“They looked like a threat,” she offered as apology, moving towards the other dhampirs and checking them over for any permanent damage. There was luckily none. 

“I didn’t know how much trouble you could get in for--” Rose paused, unsure how to continue. Liking us sounded so weird, but that was exactly what she was hinting at. Helping without permission, she could understand. But that they would actually retaliate for getting too attached to one of them, seemed like such an evil thing to do. Wasn’t religion about love and being good to your neighbor or something, too? Of course, the dhampir wasn’t exactly sure of what had happened, but after hearing some rumors, she could only imagine. 

“--caring.” she finally finished lamely, although her eyes never strayed from the blonde girl she’d come to consider an actual close friend over time. Swallowing down any guilt that tried to reach the surface, knowing the other must have gone through hell, Rose moved closer, feeling the urge to hug Sydney. She stopped midway though, unsure of whether or not the gesture would even be welcomed. 

ANGER, white-hot and overwhelming-- it spiked from across the room. Rose reacted to the sensation instantly as she turned to locate Lissa. Despite the sudden intensity of the emotion, it hadn’t pulled the dhampir into her friend’s mind and Rose was grateful for that much as she started towards the other side of the room, taking big and determined strides as she went. The sooner she got to the blonde, the better. 

In the meantime, she focused on pulling some of the darkness away in an attempt to calm the other one down. It might not be enough to dull the feeling completely, but Rose had to help in any way possible. 

“You’re okay. It’s okay.” I’m here.