#thousandturmoils

I want to get to know someone. I mean really know them. Not their favorite color or favorite book or when they first lost their tooth. I mean I really want to get to know someone. Like how they watch the sky or laugh when they think nobody is watching. I want to memorize where every scar, blemish, birthmark paints their skin. I want to know them when they are at the happiest and when they are at their absolute worse #qotd #lifechoices #walkaway #nopointholdingon #thousandturmoils #paindemandstobefelt #lifestorybruhh

Time has always been thought of as the enemy, as something trying to push back. But I have found that time was my only friend during the loss of you. After awhile, it made me want to swim instead of sinking deep into the depth of darkness. It made me want to live my life again, the way I wanted. Instead, of being a person that walks around with ghosts in her head. People say that time heals all your wounds, I have to disagree. Time won't ever heal a wound to make you forget that it's there or to forget that it happened. Time just leaves the scars to remind you of what you faced and how you fought through it. It'll remind you of excruciating pain but also how you grimaced through it and then felt relief that the cast came off #lifechoices #thousandturmoils #lessons #paindemandstobefelt #itsokaynottobeokay #lifestorybruhh

Do you ever feel like you're constantly sacrificing your own happiness to let others have theirs? Ever feel like you're drowning in the thoughts that you can't tell people? I do. I've got a nasty habit of saying "yes" when I should say "no". And now it's another night where I'm second guessing everything I've said yes to and that's made me sad, as a result. My heart is forever battling to see if it beats for others or myself #lifechoices #thousandturmoils #paindemandstobefelt #lessons #lifestorybruhh

You shouldn't have to convince someone to want you. You shouldn't have to settle for 'almost' when you wanted a 'yes'. You shouldn't have to be all-in, when someone is still on the fence. You don't want to be stuck into a love-adjacent limbo when you could have the real thing. Your person is going to be a number one. So don't ever be someone's number two. Don't be the plans that they'll make of other plans fall through. That isn't a compromise. That is someone treating you less than you are. That is someone who don't deserve you. You are no one's 'maybe'. You are no one's second choice and no one's fall back. You are no one's safe bet or convenience pick #lifechoices #lessons #intimidating #paindemandstobefelt #thousandturmoils #totallyokay

When you love someone who loves someone else, it leaves a wound that time struggles to heal. Love that cannot be returned defines a person. It makes you vulnerable and floods in a surge of emotions so raw, that it leaves you extremely exhausted, yet so alive. But this love prepares you for another love. A stronger love, a lasting love. A love that is extended towards your bruised heart in a beautiful, wholesome way that had yet to be explained by the poets. A true love, a requited love. A love that loves you back. #vividcolors #magical #thousandturmoils #lifechoices #selfdestruction #paindemandstobefelt #lifestorybruhh