#thoughtsofawolf

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Sleep really is the cousin of death... Every time i wake up i have to focus on my body heat and bring it up manually while shivering. And the dreams seem to take the concept of time away from me. One dream could seem really long but in reality it could be 30 minutes. And i wake up mad wanting to be there again.

Film director. Seeing my vision being watched by millions. Producer Hearing my heart on the internet being loved finally. Writer Letting my thoughts being read on pages or tablets across the world so they know where the light goes. Poet Letting my mind roam free to blossom into something that cant be tamed. Dancer Dancing to music that moves me to make a story with the movements of the moment. A performer is what i am and i will die happier knowing i tried at least making it with one of these.

Slowly becoming pessimistic I dreamt of death and was fine with it. I dreamt of it twice and i only fought back when other people were injured. I was stabbed but I kept running after the guy who did it in his escape he stabbed a friend deep enough to kill in time i chase the guy for minutes never stopping even when i was out of breath. As i get closer I tripped him and he pulls out a mini blade i stop it with my hand and we r pushing back and forth against each other. I push dude against the wall and accurately push the blade into his hand and slid it downwards. He looks at me knowing that would be the ending blow. I throw him into a shelf near by as hes dazed i get him on the ground and had my knee on the back of his neck holding his arms if he moved all i had to do was apply my weight to one knee. He tried to move, i tried to warn him, but he didn't comply . I snapped his neck with my knee and as he let out the last breath i told him-i will see u again some day. Its the fact that I've probably met more than 1000 killers thieves gang members and friends who would kill to have different life or to be accepted or have attention in this life alone.

If ur cold u hurt people but if ur sensitive they hurt u. Who woulda knew adopting the wolf life persona would have gave me talents and knowledge along with a number of people dropping like flys outta my life to the point of me not even needing them. Peace and stability to my mind is all that is. Called u my friends gave u nicknames and all u did was bash the hippie for what he preached to u to save ur life lines. Judging others shouldn't be done by us but God. Shouldn't he be the only judge. But practice what i preach thats all i can do wont show back up till yall niggas through with all of the shaming and turn it into acceptance. The distance between us has been created for a reason. i asked my old revron or pastor for assistance. He told me to find the balance I responded with Whats the balance. Its pretty much non existent. The trail lies cold and infinite to be unfounded. Unfortunate the truth is behind man as man is behind religion. Belief in god gets harder every day with the imagination of being insane is being different and having ur third eye opened so u can sift thru the bull shit that society portrays as a good christian. Limiting urself and being constructed into a robot or grey machine that acts for its master to seek acceptance from the rest of the team. And now chasing dreams has to be done with a squadron of hungry beast, that all looks for other means of getting cream, vanity. Sweet lines like vanilla beans. insanity cux they fall into a cycle doing the same thing for cream, whipped. Its crazy to think outside of the cans to escape the blatantly obvious lies that hide what's underneath the tree line. A lone wolf giving u a divine chance to escape with at least half of ur life. Saving ur mind not cux i care cux idgaf i could do it by myself like who really needs ya. Dont hold me back and dont tell me what to do im not controlled by the stipulated mindset of being boxed in without breaking out of contest to win . Go ahead and kill me i dont fear death. I believe in reincarnation so ur threats dont scare me. Thinking for urself in this generation happens to be unfortunately uncanny. The resemblance between us and another is all done by ethnicities. And Categorizing us by how much of the greenery we dont have instead of how rich we r without it making us all blind with our eyes wide opened only to search for dirty gold instead of the other side of the plane. Astrals. I visited when i was younger and now im locked out cux of me being a hard headed lil rascal. But imma alphalpha male letting karma lead me and let things come naturally. All hell on earth would fade away if this strategy works i could save the day. If we could get past the jealousy of each other's luxuries. This here mind can take us out of the galaxy giving us gravity and levitate finally. Substantially we can be happier than we could ever dream about if we just open our minds to a higher spirituality. And not the ones they drew out for us on the ships or ones that don't make sense ahem science. Fiction is all that is. The violence has to cease and with the smashing of a diamond ring would be the sirens of us being in unity like a club of lions. But a wolf is what i call u and me we're almost alike and can feel the same electricity.

Don't hesitate to show ur true feelings  Im tired of all these games Nicknames and u stay calling me babe- But Dont want nothing to do with me  At the same damn time what a waste We both kno time is money  Painting scenarios in my brain  Like im that one artist-monet  Abstract waves i still cant catch a break. No reasons to ur pattern. Like heat waves in the summer. i just wanna hear ur laughter. No cane but im limping around after u. No biggie but u never tell me the truth. Cant u see im chasing dreams further than rovers can ever venture to. Journey to the end of the earth. Aint no mountain i cant go through. Threw my heart to ur sleeve yet u up and left the shirt i construed. Drew it out and forced my self to leave it by the door for u. Let my heart finally breath im done chasing for something I don't believe will last. With this plan I could get the last laugh. Its been broken into tiny pieces a cast wont help. Punched with brass and thrown back into the well. Regenerating strength to get up out and kick some ass as i ask for u to stop playing these long waiting games like im bad. Bad to love cux i dont know it. Bad to be loved cux i hide my emotions like a true poet. Its Bad to be too late ayo that's bogus. Better late than never thats what they taught us. Whats too late when these feelings get unnoticed. At the highest octave i scream my true motive. At the lowest octave I repeat that moment. At the highest octave i scream my true motive at the lowest octave i give u props as a bonus. Marching to war with my headphones glowing. Again at the lowest octave these words r spoken. But i scream as loud as the guy from we came as romans. Hope is what u feed me and its so potent. Potential to be urs nope so my time is stolen. Devoted to be urs not anymore im gunning for the exit like im a rodent- cux u turned on the lights due to u hearing something showing emotions and being open. What kind mess is that. Setting this plan in motion, to give u my heart not anymore, im more focused, on letting u know imma be heroic, as u play the villian. Ur schemes where pure brilliance. Here my voice cracking cux im speaking with such ebullience. Cold blooded u sick reptilian. I feed no more rodents to snakes and being fooled by em. Im competent in this argument u not winning this. Staying true to my colors and im down all the time, im just blue i guess. im not cripping tho im catching up to the ruthless. Aiming for ur heart is useless, ur brain dead no conscious either, so my philosophies went over ur head like im Confucius. Obviously im with the wrong person i play jesus with my christ conscious, and ur judas. Cant trust u with any information and that's dubious. Learning ur mind is hungry for vanity but thats an illusion. What else am i to do except speak the truth which leaves me thirsty so i drink more water than ever. Soaring over the bs. u took me high u were my propellers. All that was a lie u were just bad weather. Sirens go off as the sky greys. Thunder as ur voice and lighting as ur eyes gaze. Attack on my heart like cardiac surgery with the sharp blades. Vampire mindset no more wesley snipe days... U show me im expendable and thats not ok i just want a lady to be on a same level for me to say thats my baby or she is taken like my last name is neeson. 

As i dive deeper the lights get dim, the mood set is no longer blissed its getting grim. I guess u can say this wolf life is like the reaper then. Im alone and im starting to like it. Severely contemplating if i am a Diest or theist. But what i write down goes thru brains like a bullet that ricochets. Touché the shit that gets played on the air waves is to bring dismay. Ignoring them to other people u rnt humane. Like being a vegetariane at 16 is too different for their peanut sized minds to understand. That i dont need chicken and that bs we call meat ever again. No more hurting animals when we call dogs our best friends. Hypocrites to judge whats going on across the borders and to not see what we r doing in our own land. Killing innocent sheep and things alike for their "nutrients". when u wake up and see that its the same in the plants. Moving with a lot of energy now thanks to them. So how am i the bad guy when i try to be different. Turning up my nose and chin to things that aren't meant to be eaten. Like the chemicals and synthetics. Y eat that when u can have the real stuff. Truth is its like the music they follow the beat and not whats in the meat, poultry and things that require u to think is what idiots and zombies cant see hear and feel. Spit it in braille so u know whats been selled, sold. spelled wrong but u get the bill first and services later then mailed the phone. Communication breaking because i cant here over the drones... But if i die. like kurt cobain. Then know it was noooooooo... suicide. My mind blown away and thoughts and pieces of me scattered across the border of crazy and stupefied. They neutralize anyone close to the truths or utilize their minds for something worth it. Scrutinized the blurred lines. Sublime rn it means im high. By any means to seek thru the trees if u haven't notice i say trees instead of lies. By anymeans to seek peace in the world and see tragedy flat line. By anymeans sing about me when im gone and remember me as being a poetry genius that didn't have the time to go higher then the bar that was set up by the beginning of its time. If u don't know me. Hi, im Aware. I come to bring u truths and it only cost u freeursoul.99 haha

Unto nirvana where silence lives But stuck in the world where violence thrives. Tis the combination of our whole lives. Our souls combined with fleshy drives is why we are still here. There, there, here, hear me roar. im not lion. Lying down with these thoughts are my thrive. As other thoughts enter my medulla, i now see what trees(lies) ive been talking about  I run with these thoughts like “thieves” or what they call us now. Made it up out this house of one certain color how. Its the bigotry that no one else believes. I hate to repeat my self but its how I remember instead of writing things down. Downloading my unpaired thoughts to my memo or what we kno as the cloud. Easily tweaked to their liking is what i fear. Cant speak my own my mind is what is near. First amendment is being tarnished and the lies r being gardened into truths. No one researches for themselves if they would, they would see the proof. Read between the lines its like magic poof.virgo. My reason for being here is to help us. Ergo adidas to geniuses as to what this world would be without those. Blood money to the government for the control of our souls. Sent to hell for pawning it as if its our own. Its when u realize we r spirits with skin. Instead of sinful flesh with woes. Akuna mata, my medulla oblongata is not closed. Akuna mata im not defined yet. Akuna mata of all the test. Pseudo pseudo no lie imma kick the habit like judo.  Sumo sumo wrestling with my vices but kudos kudos to u that I despise. The children and their innocence for what they seem is right.