#thoughtlessly

Words should not be spoken recklessly, but as I age, words spill out thoughtlessly. As my body grows older, so does my mouth. Although I know that words should not be spoken carelessly, my thoughtless words pierce hearts. My lips, like withered petals, crinkle up. I quietly touch my lips alone.

I don't know why I made this guess it's to help keep me from doing the worse and take my mind off my urges. I think that by writeing in this it will help me. Then again it might not. Before you read more know this is not a suicide note. I know it might sound it as I write on others might think it's a bash on other things when in reality it is my way of coping with life. Today I shot down a possable suiter all because of the talk of sex. I am old fashioned and before we where even to make plans for our first date he instantly asked me about this so called hooking up. I told him no. He then got upset. This brings a question to me. Can a Guy say no to sex and it look normal and chill? Because when a girl says no it seems we are always being placed on a block and guilt tripped by guys that if we say no to them then we are the real harm. It hurts me that every time I try to date It instantly goes to sex in a matter of seconds after telling a person I don't do those kinds of things. Anyway that's all I wanted to say.

Yours in bleeding hearts ink,

gti mug rmongs pa'i ngang du - foolishly, thoughtlessly [RY]

rdol thabs smra ba - 1) disordered] hurried speech, unstructured anxiously talking; 2) [arch] confused, silly speech, some1 who thoughtlessly says whatever comes out [IW]