#thoughtjournal

I’ve opened screentime for the first time, and turns out that I spend an average of 7 hours a day on my phone, and to my own shock and horror; peak days with over 12 hours spend on my phone

That’s insane on its own, but the math on this: 7 hours a day = 49 hours a week= which is 196 hours a month.

I SPEND AT LEAST 200 HOURS A MONTH ON MY PHONE, PRIMARILY ON SOCIAL MEDIA

I’m really happy I’ve started looking more into this, because this is not how I want to spend my life. Imagine how much books you can read in 200 hours? imagine the amount of new skills you can learn in 200 hours? imagine how many times you can actually just meet up with friends and spend time with loved ones?

Hello tumblr and internet people.

It never came across my mind that one day I will do journal blog entry on the Internet. I usually keep all of my writings and thoughts just for myself. But here I am writing on tumblr, so let’s just have fun and try something new.

There are a lot of stuff that bothers my mind these days. Work, Project, Tasks, you named it. And there is also me who is trying to show up looking good every day, trying to manage all of my goals at all costs, trying to manage my own expectations so it wouldn’t kill me, trying to manage my time so I can show up at least on time. Trying to maintain my social life to keep me being alive (?), and trying to be responsible yet reliable by replying all of my messages and emails as fast as possible. But even after I tried my best, I still end up feeling left behind.

Is it the world that is moving so fast? or is it me who did this all wrong?

Growing up became so hard that I couldn’t keep it only for myself.