#thomasxreader

You took a first deep breath you realized and lazily rolled over on the bed. It was something you weren’t really used to. The bed was so soft and the scent of the bedsheets wasn’t a one you would know.

Frowning into the pillow, you lazily turned your head to the side. You were laying on your stomach and you slowly opened one of your eyes. That one which wasn’t in the pillow. And then you saw him.

His face was turned to you so you immediately knew who he was. And you knew that you didn’t regret the last night. Looking into Thomas’s face, you just took a deep breath and looked away, trying to find some excuse. Just in case he would see you leaving.

Realizing that you had sex with him last night, you sat up on the bed. Supporting yourself on your hands, you looked aside onto the laying body and you breathed out. He was naked.

Speaking of clothing, you looked down at your body since you didn’t feel the cold air crash on your body. As you saw the white shirt which was too big for you, your eyes wide opened and you were even more awake than you had been before. There was a little spot on the shirt which was from blood. Because of the yesterdays fight in the pub.

You stood up from the bed and panicked. Where were your clothes? You started looking around in the room and when you realized a quiet chuckle which didn’t leave from your mouth, you took a breath, ready to turn around.

“Good morning to you too,” Thomas said in deep voice and you looked at him. You saw his tattoo on his breast muscle since he was half covered and half uncovered and you couldn’t take off your eyes from his muscles for a second. When you fought your feelings, you finally looked him into his eyes. Oh, those gray eyes.

“Good morning,” you said back and closed your eyes. “I will give you back your shirt, I just need to find my clothes-“

“You can keep them,” he said sitting up from the bed. He reached his hand out for a cigarette and lit it up, being totally naked on the bed, only the duvets covering him up. “My clothes look better on you.”

“Thank you. But I still need something to replace my trousers with,” you thought out loud and your eyes fell onto Thomas’s pants. You slightly shook your head, your couldn’t leave from there all in his clothes.

“Take them as well. I will drive you home later,” Thomas said and took a deep breath of his cigarette. You closed your eyes, trying to find some solution so you didn’t have to go home in his clothes. But there wasn’t any.

As fast as you could, you took his clothes and dressed up. You didn’t have your underwear neither and you weren’t planning on searching for it. You just put the trousers on and when you turned back, Thomas was standing up from the bed.

He was all naked. Walking like that in the room, he walked over to the wardrobe and chose pants and shirt. You watched his dress up and you didn’t say anything. He had his cigarette in his mouth and you had to admit that he looked incredibly sexy like that.

You watched his muscular hands as he was getting dressed. When he adjusted the belt in his trousers he had on, he turned around with the shirt in his hand and with the cigarette in his mouth.

“Would you like to have breakfast here or?”

“Just drive me home please,” you asked him to and Thomas adjusted the sleeves of his shirt. It seemed to be funny to him since he smirked. As you watched him shake his head you were afraid of what was he thinking about you. “What is it?”

“I thought we could at least have breakfast here,” he said again and you didn’t continue in the conversation. You didn’t want to eat with him.

When he was done and he put the cigarette down, he opened the doors for you. You walked outside of his bedroom immediately and walked down the stairs.

“Thomas this was a mistake,” you said out of blue and Thomas raised his eyebrows.

“You agreed on it.”

“Yes but- it was wrong Tommy,” you repeated your words using other ones and Thomas raised his eyebrows.

“Well,” he said and breathed out. “I didn’t push you into anything.”

“So you are saying I came here and asked you to fuck me?” You crossed your arms over your breasts and Thomas sighed.

“You women are too complicated and like to complicate.”

“And you men are too simple and like to keep it simple,” you said back and Thomas chuckled.

“I guess that’s better. If you don’t want to get hurt, don’t complicate things.”

“For fucks sake just take me home.” You gave up on the conversation and turned around, walking to the front doors of the house.

Thomas did that as well and he put on his boots just like you did. You both left his residence and walked over to his car. He opened the doors for you and you just hopped inside of the car, refusing to thank him for something like that.

Thomas started the car and you didn’t pay attention to him anymore. You were looking out of the window and just kept resting like you have been resting before you woke up. After a half naked Tommy Shelby.

When the car stopped, you found the silence awkward already. You put your hand onto the door handle and opened the doors when Thomas spoke up.

“I don’t need the clothes back. You can keep them.”

“As if I was planning on meeting you again,” you said as if you really weren’t planning that and Thomas looked away from you.

“Well,” he said and slid the cigarette between his lips. “Just said I don’t need them back so you wouldn’t have a bad conscience.”

“Thank you,” you told him angrily and closed the doors shut. You walked up to your house and searched for the keys when you heard the car leave. You breathed out the breath you had been holding in for a long time and walked inside of the house, seeing the lights on.

“…so did you tell him?” Teresa asks while we walk out of the library, we were talking about Thomas. “Tell him what?“ 

“About your feelings, obviously.” She sighs. I shook my head with half a smile. “Really Y/N? You had the time to make out with him in the janitors room but not to tell him how you really feel?” I giggled at how frustrated my best friend sounded as both of us exited school and walked over to my car, well my mom’s car which I borrowed for today.

Teresa sat down on the passenger seat, still chattering about Thomas and I, while I made myself comfortable on the driver seat. “Wow, okay, I didn´t know my love life was this interesting.” I said sarcastically. A light chuckle escaped her lips. “Honestly, me neither.” I looked at her with an offended face expression which soon changed into a smile then laughter. 

The rest of the car ride contained a lot of jokes, talking about my love life again and as always endless laughter. I dropped Teresa off at her place, hugging her goodbye before driving away. 

My eyes was on the road but my mind was somewhere else. Should I tell him? No. He probably doesn´t feel the same way, not anymore. “But what if he does?” I thought out loud. I kept on driving, not paying attention to where the road was taking me. My eyes studied the neighborhood I was on, it looked familiar, very familiar. 

My foot hits the breaks in front of a house I´ve been in before and wasn´t planning on going to right now, Thomas´ place. Where did the road take me? It took me to Thomas. I sighed, looking out of the window at the empty front yard.

I should leave. “But I´m already here,” I mumble to myself, mentally slapping me for talking to myself like a weird person. I turn the engine off then take a deep breath, clearing my mind and trying to think straight. My fingers nervously drums on the steering wheel as my eyes looks straight forward at the empty street. “I should call him first.” I reach over to my bag and grab my phone, unlocking the screen then scrolling down on my contacts list to find Thomas´ name. My eye catches his name, my finger gently presses the screen to call him as I lift the phone to my ear, listening for the beep while my other hand remains on the steering wheel, fingers drumming against it impatiently.

It´s just about to beep when I quickly end the call and throw the phone on the passenger seat right next to me. “Ugh, I can´t do this. What am I supposed to say? Can you talk? I mean, I’m already outside your house but can you talk?”

I lean my head back on the seat, eyes fluttering shut. Fuck this, I’m going over, either he´ll be home or he won’t but I´m doing this. Lets get this over with.

With another deep breath I gathered the courage to step out of the car and walk over to the door, ringing the bell with a shaky hand and a racing heart. Waiting for the door to open felt like hours even though it had barely been a minute. The wait was killing me.

The door opens, revealing a tall male figure with messy brown hair and breathtakingly beautiful brown eyes. Thomas was wearing a pair of grey sweatpants and a plain white shirt. He furrowed his eyebrows at the sight of me and my heart dropped instantly. “Y/N?” He says looking at me surprised. “What are you doing here? Is everything alright?” He sounded more worried now than surprised. I took my bottom lip between my teeth, looking down at my shoes nervously. “Uh, yeah, everything is fine. I- I’m sorry for coming unannounced like this, I know I should’ve called. Again so sorry I-” I began to ramble but got cut off by him. “Hey, hey, it’s okay. Don’t worry about it.” He smiles sweetly.

We stay silent for a couple of long seconds, with me looking anywhere but at him and Thomas, having his eyes only on me. “I… Um… Can I come in?” I finally ask, my voice almost comes out as a whisper. He looks at me dumbfounded, “Yeah, of course.” He takes a step aside letting me in and mumbles something for himself, something along the lines ‘fuck why didn’t I ask her to come in’, I giggled to myself, finding him absolutely adorable.

I followed Thomas up the stairs then into his room. As always it was tidy and spotlessly clean, my lips curled up into a small smile. Thomas gestured with his hand for me to sit down on his bed while he made himself comfortable on the chair at his desk. “Your parents ar-” I began, sitting down. “Oh, they’re not at home. They went on a business trip, they’ll be back tomorrow.” I nodded, pressing my lips together.

“So…?” I looked at Thomas who was looking at me questionably. “Um, right. I kinda need to talk to you… about, something.”

“Okay.” He simply says as if it was the easiest thing in the world. My gaze flickered down to the floor. “I just need a minute, sorry.” He stands up from his seat and sits down next to me, taking my hands in his. “Take your time beautiful, I’m not going anywhere.” He smiles, nudging me playfully and making me chuckle. His thumb gently brushes the back of my hand as I stare at its movements. “You know you left me speechless earlier today at school. I just, I was- wow!” He chuckles softly.

“Trust me, I surprised myself.” I giggled. “By the way,” Thomas says, getting up and walking over to his desk with his back towards me, he grabs something then walks back to me, sitting on the same spot as before. “You forgot this.” He lifts the teddy bear up in the air for me to see it, a wide smile spreads across my face. It’s the stuffed animal he won for me when I was out with Gally. “Aw, Mr. Teddy!” I took it from Thomas and hugged it tightly. Yeah, I was acting like such a child, but it’s so cute! 

“Really? You named it Mr. Teddy? Never heard that one before.” He jokes while laughing. “Hey! It’s the first thing that popped up in my head.” I defended myself, making him put his hands up in the air for surrender. “Thanks.” I smiled at him before putting the stuffed animal, Mr. Teddy aside. “Thomas, I…”

“I- I never meant it, any of it, having sex with you wasn’t a mistake and I don’t regret anything except for pushing you away and hurting you. I’m really sorry for being so rude and difficult to deal with. I wasn’t sure about my feelings, I mean, I knew I felt something but I didn’t accept the fact that it was love. I kept on denying it and lying to myself because I was afraid to get hurt.” A single tear escapes my eye. “When you said you loved me, I didn’t know how to react but I really just wanted to be with you even though the right words wouldn’t cross my mind.”

As I kept on talking I didn’t dare to look at Thomas, so I stared at my hands while my heart was beating insanely fast.

“You kind of asked me something that day but I didn’t have an answer for you, but I do now. I can’t tell you that I didn’t feel anything when we first kissed, I can’t tell you that I don’t feel anything when we’re together, every time you touch me, every time our lips meet or every time you look at me, even if it’s for a brief second. I couldn’t tell you that I didn’t feel anything Thomas, because I felt a million things and I still do.”

I finally turned my gaze to Thomas, meeting his eyes that gave away nothing. “I understand if it’s too late and if you don’t feel the same way anymore but I have to say this, I need to say this. I love you Thomas.” His lips parted as his eyes studied every inch of my face, bringing a light blush to my cheeks. But he said, nothing, absolutely nothing. I felt my heart sink and another tear escaped my eye. “I should probably go.” I mumbled with a broken voice.

I was just about to stand up but was stopped by Thomas hand on my wrist. I looked down at his hand that was around my wrist then up at him. “I just got you, I’m not gonna let you go.” He speaks up and my heart melts. “W-what?” I ask unsure.

“Y/N, feelings don’t change overnight or week or month, not when it comes to love. Of course I feel the same way as before.” He wrapped his arms around my body as I sink into his embrace. “I loved you then and I love you now, I love you so much.” Thomas whispers against my hair as my tears falls down, my happy tears.

He lifts my head with his fingers under my chin then wipes away the tears. He leans down closer and kisses my lips, it´s a slow and passionate kiss. Our tongues meets and starts to move in-sync as the kiss gets more heated and Thomas gently lays me down on his bed and gets on top of me, never breaking the kiss. My hands moves up to his hair, tugging on it softly and pulling him in even deeper to deepen the kiss. A light moan leaves my lips and Thomas kisses moves down to my neck, attacking every little inch of it, focusing on my sweet-spot and making me moan with my eyes shut.

My hands wandered down to the hem of his shirt, tugging on it lightly. He took it as his queue to take it off and with one move he pulled his shirt over his head and threw it to the side, I do the same before he hovers over my body again and attaches his lips back on mine.

His hands explores my body, driving me mad under his touch. Thomas breaks the kiss, leaving me wanting more but is quick to attach it somewhere else. Kissing and moving his tongue along on my stomach as he slowly makes his way upwards. His lips reaches to my breasts. “You’re so damn beautiful Y/N.” He murmurs against my skin, his lips brushing against the swollen area of my breast. I bit my bottom lip as a response, feeling all hot and bothered.

He took my bra off then eagerly reconnected his lips to my breast, swirling his tongue on my nipples, one at a time. With my hands on his hair, I pull on it softly with pleasure running through my body while I fill the room with soft moans.

Thomas brings his lips back on mine for a brief moment as my hands wanders down his body to his sweatpants, pulling them down with the boxers in one go. He breaks the kiss, looking down at his hard erection then back at me with a smirk playing on his face the entire time. I blush shyly, placing my hands on top of his and moving them down from my hips to my shorts.

With that smirk still remaining on his face, he takes my shorts off before kicking away the clothes hanging down from his legs. He sweetly kisses my thigh then slowly pulls my panties down.

I bring him back up to my height, kissing on his neck and running my tongue against his skin, earning a pleasing soft moan from him. My hands wanders up and down his chest when he enters me without warning, making us both sigh in pleasure.

Thomas moves slowly, he pulls out then thrusts in again, he keeps on doing the same thing, thrusting in and out, gently and slowly while my mouth fell open and I repeatedly moaned softly.

He shifted a little, finding another angle before starting to thrust faster. We filled the room with soft pleasuring that soon was turning into more.

I felt Thomas warm breath against my skin as his lips were barely touching my neck. His hands around my hips tightened and I wrapped my legs around his waist, the thrusts got faster and harder, making it impossible to keep my voice down. My moans got louder as he hits the perfect spot.

“Right there babe?” He asks, noticing the change of my moans. I open my mouth to answer but only groans escapes my lips, giving up on talking, I manage to nod and hum as a response while feeling how close I was to hit my edge.

“Th- Thomas, I’m cl…-” I don’t get to finish my sentence. Thomas thrusts in with a hard thrust, sending me over the edge and making me release all over his length while I almost scream in sensation.

He keeps on moving inside of me, the thrusts getting sloppier and slower. A few more thrusts and I feel the warm liquid filling me up, I bit my lip enjoying how it makes me feel while Thomas moans in pure bliss.

He slowly pulls out and lays down beside me. I roll over to the side and put my head on his chest, it was moving up and down while he was catching his breath. “That was… amazing.” I said, smiling to myself. He chuckled lightly, keeping me in his embrace as he pulled the cover over our naked bodies. “Yeah.” He replies, kissing my nose.

“I love you.”

I smile, kissing his jaw. “I love you too.”

We stayed like that in the same point for a while, silently enjoying each other’s company. “Thomas?” I said, breaking the silence. “Hmmm?” He hummed sweetly.

“If you could be anywhere in the world, where would you be?”

I moved my head so that I was able to see his face. He opened his eyes and gazed into mine with the sweetest smile before saying the words that made me love him even more. 

“Somewhere close to you.”

It´s been almost 2 weeks since Thomas and I spoke to each other. When it came to the school project, we ended up finishing the project on our own then just putting it together just before handing it in to the teacher.

After our “fight” or whatever you´d call it, he have been ignoring me ever since, even though I´ve tried to talk to him several times. But I don´t blame him, I fucked it up. I made it even worse when I went on a second date with Gally, the date was sweet like the one before and he ended up kissing me goodnight. I would be lying if I said Thomas never crossed my mind during my time with Gally, because all I could think about was him, almost wishing it was Thomas I was with. Who am I kidding, of course I wished it was him.

I feel so bad for hurting Thomas, for being a complete bitch towards him when he was nothing more than the most adorable, caring and loving human being ever. After being so distance from him, not being able to talk to him, laugh with him, I´ve realized my true feelings for him. I miss the way he looks at me, even though I still catch him staring with his beautiful brown eyes, I miss the way he makes me feel every time he´s around, every time he touches me and makes my heart beat like crazy. I just miss him so damn much it hurts. I´m in love with him, I really am.

I feel so guilty for going out with Gally, for misleading him when my heart belongs to somebody else. I can´t deny it anymore, I can´t lie to myself about my feelings towards Thomas. And I can´t confess them to him either since he probably hates me by now.

Thomas POV

The school hallway was as always filled with students, standing by the locker and talking to their friends or rushing down the hallway to get to class in time. The hallway had its own kind of music.

As I was shoving my textbooks into the locker I heard whispers and giggles from behind, I looked over my shoulder to find Gally leaning against the locker while he was speaking to two girls and a bunch of boys. Not interested, I turned my gaze back to my locker as I put the last book inside before shutting it closed.

“… Y/N… I know I will.” I heard Gally say, not getting the full sentence. I focused my hearing on the conversation that seemed to be so amusing to the group of people that now where gathered around Gally.

“No need to eavesdrop Thomas. I´m just talking about how I´ll finally fuck your girl. Oh wait, she´s not yours anymore.” He snorted, making the group of people laughing at his words. My hands quickly clenches into two fists, feeling the anger rushing over me. “How do you always screw it up with her?” Gally adds only seconds later with a calm voice.

“Shut the fuck up! I´ll fucking end you if you talk about her like that again!” I shout, making the rest of the people around us go numb. Gally smirks wickedly while coming towards me with small steps. I clench my jaw and my fists tightens as I feel my nails digging into my palms. “I´ll make Y/N scream my-”

Without a second though I grab Gally by his collar and push him against the locker with every strength in my body, bringing a slamming noise as his back hits the locker. “You don´t know when to stop, do you?” I say through gritted teeth. “She´ll be-“ I don´t let him finish his sentence, my fist meets his face, punching him hard and developing a bruise, just below his right eye, within seconds. He quickly pushes me away from him, making me lose my balance as I stumble backwards.

I feel two small hands, one on my back while the other one rests on my waist, stopping me and helping me regain my balance. My blood was still boiling and I was ready to hit Gally again. I looked behind me to get a quick glance of the person behind me and when I saw those pretty Y/E/C eyes, my heart stopped.

It was Y/N. Her eyes were watery and I could feel how her hands were shaking. She was quick to remove her hands, she pressed her lips together into a thin line before taking a step backwards then running away with tears in her eyes.

“Y/N…” Her friend Teresa said, looking over her shoulder as we both saw her disappear.

“Did she…?” I ask with a calm yet worrying voice. Teresa nods, “Hear you guys? Yeah, she did.” She looks over at Gally before speaking again. “You´re a fucking pathetic asshole!” She shouts at him before storming away in rage.

I don´t bother to look at Gally as I start to walk towards the direction Y/N headed to. As I walk pass the hallway I make sure to check every little corner of it, both left and right, I check a few classrooms through the small glass window on the doors, but there´s no sign of Y/N.

My feet stops at the janitors closet and I take a deep breath before opening the door, praying she´ll be here. “Y/N?”

“Go away.” She says between sobs. I walk inside and close the door behind me. “I´m not going anywhere.” I make my way towards her and take a seat on the floor, sitting close, right next to her. Her knees were against her chest as she buried her face in her arms that rested on top of her knees.

A few minutes passes as we both remain in the very exact position while Y/N´s sobbing is the only sound that´s audible in the room. She finally lifts her head up and presses her back against the cold wall behind us, the tears kept running down her cheeks, creating tiny wet spots on the floor and her clothes.

“Y/N, don´t cry. Please.” I hate seeing her like this, it kills me inside. My thumb brushes over her warm cheek and her eyes goes shut at the touch. I gently wipe off her tears. “Come here.” I put my arm around her shoulder as I gently pull her closer to me, welcoming her to my embrace which she gladly takes.

She snuggles into my chest, making it feel just right, as it should be. My hand strokes her back softly, calming her down as the other one is holding her body close to mine.

“Why are you always this nice to me?” She asks all of a sudden. “Even when I treated you so wrong.” She continues as I brush some strings of hair out of her beautiful face that was still leaning against my chest. “You know why.” I almost whispered.

She lifted her head and gazed into my eyes. “I´m so sorry Thomas. I really am. I should´ve believed you in the first place, I shouldn´t have gone out with him and I-”

“Sshh, it´s okay, it´s not your fault.” I cut her off, noticing the tears falling down her cheeks. I pressed my lips against her head, placing a sweet, innocent little kiss there. “Don´t blame yourself for any of this, okay? And don´t cry, please beautiful, he´s not worth it.” My thumb brushed over her red cheeks, wiping away the tears as her eyes were on me the entire time. “But if I-” She starts, sitting up.

“No, stop.” I pulled her back into my chest, earning a light chuckle from her. It sounded like music to my ears. “It´s not your fault.”

“Why does these things keep happening to me? Why do they feel the need to play me like a toy?” She questions, brining old memories back, when I was the jerk. “This is all my fault.” I sigh. “This whole thing, was between Gally and I, then he just had to bring you in on this. I´m so sorry Y/N.” She looks up at me with an expression I can´t really read before cupping my face with her small hands. “No, it´s not. It wasn´t your fault the first and it isn´t your fault this time either.”

My mouth falls open, “You-…” She nods with a sweet smile playing on her lips. “Yeah, I know you didn´t do anything that day… That she was the one jumping on you.” A smile curls up to my lips, finally. I waste no time as I lift her up and place her on my lap, bringing her back into my embrace.

“Did you like him?” I ask out of the blue. “I´m not upset because I liked him, because I didn´t. It just sucks to be played like that.” She replies and I nod understanding.

With that we go silent for a couple of long minutes as she rests against my chest while my arms are wrapped around her body, holding her safe and warm. My eyes exams the room we´re in, brining old memories back and a smirk to my face.

“We had some unfinished business here.” I smirk. She looks at me, giggling. “Yeah.”

I cup her face and bring it closer to mine, stopping just a few inches away. I lean down a little closer, our lips now touching. “Lets finish that.” I whisper against her lips.

I capture her soft, rosy lips with mine, kissing her softly with passion as my hand rests on her cheek while the other one moves down to her waist. Her hands wanders up, holding my neck and pulling me in to deepen the kiss. My tongue brushes over her lower lip, then gently parted her lips and entered her mouth, exploring every little inch of it. Our tongues met as they started to move in sync.

Everything feels perfect, but what does this mean?

Both of us breaks the kiss to catch our breaths, my eyes studies her face, she´s smiling and her lips are now swollen and a bit red which I bet mine are as well. I caress her cheek with the back of my hand while gazing into her beautiful eyes. “How´d you know I was here?” She asks, taking my other hand in hers. My eyes moves down to our now intertwined hands and a smile spreads across my face.

“I didn´t, I was hoping though because somebody once told me that this was a kind of place where somebody would go to if he/she wouldn´t want to be found.”

Her face lit up in an instance. “You remembered that?” I nodded with a playful smirk. “I remember everything.”

Y/N´s eyes travels down to our intertwined hands, she lift it, bringing my hand close to her lips then starts to leave sweet, soft little kisses on my knuckles that were still red after hitting Gally. God, I love her so damn much. She´s irresistible. I smile at her actions, feeling my heart flutter.

“Do you wanna get out of here?” I ask in a low, sweet tone. She looks at me with a raised eyebrow. “I can take you home, if you want?” She shakes her head. “No, I´m fine. But we should probably go to our next class.” She giggles.

“Are you sure?” I look at her worryingly as she nods with a smile. “Positive.”

After leaving the janitors room, so many questions were popping up in my head but I, for some strange reason, couldn´t use my voice to actually ask them. Y/N has a crimson blush on her face the entire time, biting her lower lip as we make our way to the next class.

“Y/N!” I hear a familiar voice calling. Gally jogs his way towards as, glaring at me before turning his gaze to the girl who´s standing right next to me. I put my arm around her, holding her close to me. “Y/N, I- I didn’t mean it like that! I was just mad and I- I´m sorry I wasn´t thinking straight and I-”

“Cut the crap Gally!” Y/N chuckles, stunning us both. “No, Y/N. You don´t understand, I need you.”

“For what? Your game?” She takes a step closer to him as my arm leaves her body. “By the way, that time when you asked me about my deal with the scarf, I wasn´t getting a cold. I was actually feeling amazing, you know after having really awesome shower sex in the morning. What a great way it was to start the day.”

She takes another step towards him, this time a much smaller. “While you were planning your twisted games, I was having the time of my life. Oh, you´re probably wondering who he is, I´ll give you a hint. His name starts with a T.”

Y/N flashes him a devils smile before turning around to face me. “I´ll see you in class, Thomas.” She says, smiling proudly as she walks away leaving both Gally and I in complete shock and speechless, both of our mouths shaping an ´O´ with wide eyes and a frozen brain. I couldn´t get any part of my body to work while I was trying to let her words sink in, the words that she said in such a confidence and the words that I had never expected to hear.

I got out of the bathroom fully dressed with my hair down and some light makeup on. Thomas had changed too and was sitting at the edge of the bed, his elbows resting on his thighs with his index fingers over his lips. He seemed to be deep in thought.

I had put some makeup on to cover the hickeys but noticed that it was still a little visible. I opened my closet, pulled out a scarf and swung it around my neck, adjusting it a little and trying to make it go with my outfit.

Thomas looks at me from the corner of his eyes, his lips slowly shaping into a frown. “Did I do something wrong?” He finally speaks up. With my back towards him, I shake my head, “No.”

“Then why are you not talking to me?” I turn around to face him. “I- I don’t know… I might not have anything to say.” He looks at me with narrowed eyes. “We just had sex, and you have nothing to say? Seriously?!”

“I- I just…” My voice fades away. He stands up and walks towards me, placing his hands on his hips. “Come on, just talk to me Y/N!” I close my eyes and swallow the clump in my throat before returning my gaze to Thomas, knowing that what I’m about to say may not be what he’d expect. “We shouldn´t have done it Thomas.”

He looks at me surprised, yet as if he had a feeling I´d say something like that. He opens his mouth to say something but then shuts it again, taking a step backwards. 

“I just, I wasn´t thinking straight at that moment and- I don´t know.”

“You regret it…” He mumbles to himself, looking down at the floor.

His head snaps up again, looking straight into my eyes as he rushes towards me, holding me by my arms. “Just say it Y/N! You regret it and it was just a mistake! Say it!” His sudden actions startles me but I don´t hold back. “Yes! It was a mistake! I regret it Thomas!” I shouted back at him but wasn´t sure myself if that was the case.

Thomas lets go of me immediately, looking at me more hurt than ever. He shakes his head in disbelief, pacing around the room before finally stopping with his back towards me.

“Since when do you care so much? It was just sex.” I surprise myself with the last words that runs out of my mouth before I can stop it. Thomas turns around to face me. “Why do I care? Because I love you Y/N! There, I said it! I love you!”

My mouth falls open while I look at Thomas shocked as the three words he said plays on my mind nonstop. “Y- you love me?” I stutter. “I do. And it wasn´t just another fuck for me Y/N, it meant so much more than just that. Everything we´ve done, every little second I´ve spent with you, means something to me.”

Every word he just said warms my whole heart up, my heart beating like crazy and my mind driving me insane. But I can’t find the words to tell him how I feel, how could I when I don´t know myself.

“Thomas… I don’t know what to s-”

He came closer to me and cupped my face with his warm hands. “Just, tell you didn´t feel anything when we first kissed, tell me you never felt anything when we were together. Tell me you don´t feel anything every time I touch you, every time I gaze into your beautiful eyes, every time our lips meet. Tell me you don’t feel anything right now.”

I feel something, I´ve always felt something but I don´t know what, is it love? Or is it something else?

Thomas took my silence for an answer. He sighed as he removed his hands from my face. “Never mind. You obviously don´t give a single fuck about me.” He mutters. “Let’s just go, or we´ll be late.” I open my mouth to say something but no words comes out while I watch Thomas take his stuff then walk out of the room.

We drove to school in silence, he stopped by his place on the way and changed his pants and took his backpack. He didn´t even look at me once as I kept glancing over at him every five seconds. I knew I hurt him and I felt terrible for that, that was never my intentions, in fact I´d never want to hurt Thomas even if he tore me apart.

Thomas parks the car at the school parking lot, taking his keys out and turning the engine off and just, sits there, staring at the steering wheel. I look over at him, not sure what to do but then open the car door and step out of the car. He turns his head to face me, looking at me, finally, and all I can see is pain behind his eyes.

It broke my heart to see and what I´m about to say wasn´t going to help either. “Please, just don´t tell anyone, okay?” I said, referring to what happened in the shower. He doesn´t bother to answer, neither do I wait for a reply as I shut the door behind me then walk away.

I was walking towards my locker when I got stopped by a hand around my wrist. I looked up to see who it was, it was Gally.

“Hey, why are you in such a hurry?” He asks with a smile. I stare at him with a straight face, not finding any energy in me or a reason to smile. “What´s wrong? Are you okay?” His smile fades away as he takes my hand in his and gives it a light squeeze.

“Uh, yeah, I´m fine.” I reply, slowly freeing my hand from his grip. “What´s with the scarf?” My eyes widens and my hands moves up to the scarf around my neck. “I- My throat hurts, I´m getting a cold.” I said, covering my moth as I fake coughed.

He looked at me with furrowed eyebrows before speaking again. “Oh, okay. Um, so I was wondering if you wanted to go out again, on Saturday?” My eyes wanders to Thomas standing across the hall, next to his locker with his face towards me. Both of the guys waiting for a response.

“Y/N?” Gally says, getting my attention back to him. “What? Oh, eh, sure.” I blurt out without thinking. A smile spreads across his face but before we get the chance to say anything else, a loud slamming sound comes from behind.

“Y/N, turn off the alarm clock…” Thomas mumbled with his eyes still shut. He had an arm wrapped around my body while his face was buried in the crook of my neck, his nose tickling my bare shoulder.

I stretched out my hand, searching for the alarm clock at the nightstand with no luck. “Ugh.” I sighed, getting out of Thomas hold and switching the alarm off. “Why do you even have an alarm set on a weekend?” He asks as he pulls on my shirt, trying to get me back in bed and back in his embrace. I don´t, I think to myself when my eyes stops at a note on the stand. I grab the note curiously and start to read.

You two looked so adorable sleeping so I didn´t wake you up but I set the alarm clock for tomorrow, don´t wanna be late for school. ;)

PS. Just friends, huh?

Love, Mom

I roll my eyes as I read the last words. And then start to mentally curse to myself, it´s Monday today. Thomas and I were studying on a Sunday, how could I forget that. I turn my head to look over at Thomas who was already sleeping like a baby, I giggled on the inside, he looks so cute sleeping, I could stare all day.

“Thomas? Get up.” I almost whisper, feeling awful for having to wake him up. “Thomas?” Instead of giving me a reply, he groans and turns to the other side, not giving me a view of his adorable face anymore. “Tommy?” He turned around with a half-smile on his face. “Did you just call me Tommy?”

“Uh… yeah…” I blush, taking my bottom lip between my teeth. “That´s cute.” He chuckles as he sits up and stretches his arms. “I like how it sounds coming from your lips.” I feel how my cheeks gets heated and my heart races. He rubs his sleepy eyes and peeks at me through his lashes, his lips slowly shaping into a smirk.

“It´s 7am Y/N, why are you waking me up so early? Are you kicking me out?” He asks with a serious tone in his voice, looking at the screen of his phone. “What? No, of course not. It´s Monday, we have to go to school.” I reply, walking up to the mirror in my room and putting my hair up in a messy bun.

“Fuck! I totally forgot.” He sighs loud enough for our neighbors to hear. My eyes travels to the male figure behind my, sitting on my bed, still under the covers as he watches me with a million dollar worth smile, if not more. “Well, I´m driving you to school.” He says, determined and I nod, giggling.

I flash him a little smile before disappearing into the bathroom to do my usual morning routine. After that I walk downstairs to make us a quick breakfast while Thomas freshen ups. A few minutes later he joins me for breakfast, both of us still wearing the clothes from yesterday.

“I have to take a shower before changing.” I mumble before taking the last bite from the pancakes. “Yeah, I need to take one too.” Thomas says with his gaze down on the food. “Oh, okay. I´ll be quick. You can take one after me.” I smile as I put the plates in the sink. “You can wear that shirt you borrowed me.” I add looking back to him and he simply nods. “And the underwear. I washed everything.”

Thomas chuckles as he gets up from his seat and heads upstairs with me following right behind. When I reach my room, I pull out his clothes from my drawer and hand it over to him before picking out an outfit for myself and a pair of new, clean underwear, discreetly.

He takes me by surprise when he all of a sudden hugs me from behind and rests his chin on my shoulder. “I need to go home before school, I need to change my pants and get my backpack.” He murmurs into my neck, giving me goosebumps. “Mhm, okay.” I whisper back, feeling the butterflies inside me, he gives me a peck on my neck before walking over to my bed and making himself comfortable there.

“I´ll go take a shower.” I put the clothes on top of the drawer and make my way into the bathroom, I strip my clothes off and wraps my body in a towel as I switch the shower on. “I´d be quicker if we just took one together.” I hear Thomas say from behind with a smirk, standing at the door opening, making me jump. Shit, I forgot to lock the door. “I- I´ll be quick.” I stutter as the grip around my towel tightens.

He takes a few steps closer to me, each step making my heart beat faster and faster. “But together, it´d be quicker.” He almost whispers, taking a big step towards me and placing his hands on my hips. He leans down and presses his forehead against mine before pulling me in even closer to him, leaving no space between our bodies. “I won’t look if that´s what you want.” He whispers.

I look up to meet his eyes but they are already shut. I remain silent, not sure what to say, something in me is telling me to say yes, while something in me is saying no. Before I even realize what´s going on, Thomas kisses my lips, in a sweet, slow, passionate kiss. I melted into the kiss, kissing back with just as much passion as him. “I promise beautiful.” He whispers against my lips.

My grip around the towel loosens as I slowly nod. Thomas takes his clothes off, leaving him naked and exposed, bringing a faint blush to my cheeks. He places his hands back on me and slowly removes the towel from my body while I shut my eyes, feeling too shy to look at him. He drops the towel to the floor before stepping into the shower with me, where the water was already running.

I opened my eyes and looked up, he had his head up with his eyelids shut, letting the water hit his face. I turned around, having my back against his chest and feeling the warm water relaxing my body and mind. Thomas started to nibble on my earlobe as he wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me in closer to him. He kissed down my neck, swirling with his tongue on my skin, driving me crazy, crazy for him. I let my head fall back and rest on his shoulder while giving him more space to continue whatever he is doing.

I place both my hands on top of his, and I can feel the smile his lips curls up to against my warm skin. He finds my sweet spot and sucks on the skin before giving it a light bite, making a moan escape my lips.

“Thomas…” I manage to say while breathing heavily. I turn around, our bodies touching, chest to chest, as I cupped his face with my small hands. He opened his eyes and gazed into mine. He caught my lips with his soft, warm ones and kissed me, which I responded to in an instant.

His tongue smoothly brushing my lower lip, asking for an entrance. I give his tongue the access it needs as his hands caresses my body and my hands trails up to the back of his neck. The kiss gets sloppier by the minute and hungrier while I feel his hard member pressed against me.

“Do you want me to stop?” Thomas asks against my lips before pulling away and giving me a sincere look.

Yes, he touched me and kissed me but not once did he look at my naked body because he knew how uncomfortable or shy I felt about that. He promised he wouldn’t look if that´s what I wanted and he kept that promise. Just that meant the world to me.

I shake my head and give him a soft little kiss on the lips. “I want you…” I almost plead with a whisper, kissing his jawline. That´s all he needed to hear. He crashed his lips on mine as my hands quickly made their way to his neck. His hands wandered down to my thighs, lifting me up as I wrapped my legs around him. My back hits the wall, he starts to kiss on my jawline then down my neck, leaving hickeys and irresistible kisses all over.

My lips attacks his neck, doing the same as he was doing to me while grinding my hips and earning a loud moan from him. His kisses travels further down to my collarbone and then my breast, swirling his tongue on my left nipple, sucking and leaving hickeys on the swollen area and doing the same with the other one. Giving my breasts equal amount of attention.

“You´re gorgeous Y/N, every little inch of you.” He says, bringing a smile to my face and warming my whole heart up.

I tug on his brown wet hair, moaning his name loud and clear.

“Fuck, I don´t have a condom.”

“It´s okay. I´m on birth control.” I said, pulling him back to a heated kiss. “Babe, are you sure you want to do this?” He asks sweetly. He just called me babe. I bit my lower lip and nod. “Yes, Thomas. Please.”

He enters me slowly, making us both gasp out of pleasure. He starts to move back and forth, his body pressed against mine and his full length inside of me as the warm water washes over our already heated bodies. His lips are attached to my neck while he keeps thrusting.

“Babe, you´re so fucking tight.” He groans, thrusting hard and making me almost scream out in pleasure.

He meets my lips with his lips, our kiss gets sloppy and all over the place as his thrusts gets harder and faster, making both of us moan against our lips. My back hits the wall, hard, every time he pushes his length in fast with strength, earning a pleasuring sound from me every time. His lips leaves mine as he focuses on thrusting and making me scream his name.

My hands wandered from his neck to his shoulders. “Tho-… I- I´m close.” My grip on his shoulder tightens, nails digging into his skin but not too deep. “Me too beautiful. Come for me.” He says while breathing heavily.

“You feel so good Y/N.” He moans against my skin.

A few more thrusts and I clench around him, hitting my edge and coming all over his length which seems to make him hit his point as well and filling me up with his warm liquid. I rest my head on his shoulder as we both try to catch our breaths.

“That was amazing Y/N.” He breathes out. And I couldn´t agree more.

After staying like that for a couple of minutes, he pulls himself out of me. We stayed under the shower a few more minutes, letting the water clean us up before turning the shower off and stepping out. I wrapped my body in a towel as Thomas did the same before heading back to my room to get dressed. I picked up the clothes I had left for myself on top of the drawer then walked back into the bathroom without a word.

Thomas looked at me the entire time with a worried and confused face expression, waiting for me to say something while probably thinking of what to say himself.