#thisis33

Well, hell. Where do I start?

Actually... I don’t know how to start. Not sure how to wrap up. So I’ll just give some snippets.

1) August 21st my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Let me tell you, what a massive punch to the gut. You can’t help but wander to the worst case scenario part of your brain. But my mother hit the ground running and is knocking chemo out of the park. We’re only two rounds in so I know the road ahead of us is still going to get bumpy. But whatever you’re into, I’ll gladly take all the good vibes, positive thoughts, love and prayers.

2) My niece turned 11. WHAT. I remember holding her the day she was born. I remember thinking... how can something I’ve only known for a short time already consume my whole heart? Loretta hit the cousin jackpot.

3) Speaking of Loretta... My Lo. My love. My tiny homegirl. My world. 10 months of pure magic. She is such a delight and fills our lives with so much color. She’s crawling like she’s constantly late to a very important meeting. She’s standing tall and proudly. Sometimes I’ll see her confidence really soar and she’ll briefly let go of whatever she’s holding on to and will stand independently. But then I see the fear come over her face as she quickly reaches back to her comfort zone. You’re so close, my dear. And I am so proud of you.

4) Mr Thompson... *swoon* What a dreamboat. I can’t imagine getting through recent days without him. When I’m having my moments, when I am in the middle of feeling what I am feeling, he says all the right things at the right time. He can make the world right just by simply placing his hand on mine. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being mine.

5) A friend and I are having “carbs and cocktails” nights. We recently started trying to match the cocktail and the bread from the same country. If you have any suggestions, I’m all ears.

My tiny homegirl is 11 months today. And y’all, I am feeling feelings.

Well. I haven’t ran in months. I’m probably in the worst shape I have ever been. I’ve got zero motivation to start (though the want is still always there). And yet... I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. Our girl is the sweetest girl.