#this routine is hell

“Don’t wanna think that I’m stuck here Don’t wanna stick to my creed Because first comes love then comes marriage and then comes wishing you had been miscarried. ... Baby I've got the blues”

<3 can’t stop listening to this album

Swain on their european tour with touché amore and angel dust // february 2017

Swain in cologne

“Young beauty, swallow me whole ‘Cause I know you’ve got soul Sorrow comes, when sorrow calls And when she does, my whole world falls Misery, madness... I’m starting to fight it But what if our hopes were just really misguided? When I’m not so sure I can untie this knot, this heavy dancing is all I’ve got”

“I wanna be a musician. But I'm not doing shit. Wasting my life being stuck at work. But I'm not doing shit. I'm thinking about it. But I'm not doing shit. I'm dreaming about it. But I'm not doing shit. I'm hoping for it. But I'm not doing shit. I wanna get better.”

“Gave up on caring, gave up on being fine. Now I’m coping with a path of relentless decline. Throw a dog a bone and I’ll spit it right out. I’ve burnt all the things I can live without. Because it gets cold, cold, cold. And I’m getting old.”

What's madness? What’s tranquility? What’s purpose in a life full of misery? What’s meaning if it does no good? What’s being an adult without your childhood? What’s money if you’re always bored? What good is a trip to what's already explored? What’s a band if you’re not impressed? What’s sleep without unrest? If it doesn’t scare you, you’re not doing it right. If it doesn’t faze you, you’re doing nothing at all. What’s sex if it isn’t rough? What’s a game if you’re not calling a bluff? What’s a law if it isn’t good? What are ethics if they’re not understood? What’s better than to break the chains? Break it down until nothing remains. "What are the youth if they’re not rebelling?" We’re not buying what you’re selling. If it doesn’t scare you, you’re not doing it right. If it doesn’t faze you, you’re doing nothing at all. I am now. And I wanna be here; I wanna be scared again. Thrill me, faze me, kill my blues. And I wanna feel it; I wanna be nervous again.