#therandomones

So I was baking in the kitchen in the house when my phone suddenly rang in my pocket. As my hands were full with flour and sugar, I decided to leave it ringing and continued baking some cookies.

A minute later my mom came to the kitchen.

Mom : Awat tak angkat phone?

Me: Huh?! You called me?? Why??

Mom : I'm hungry, I want those cookies now.

Dear Mr. Tumblr,

"Four be the things I am wiser to know: Idleness, sorrow, a friend, and a foe. Four be the things I'd been better without: Love, curiosity, freckles, and doubt. Three be the things I shall never attain: Envy, content, and sufficient champagne. Three be the things I shall have till I die: Laughter and hope and a sock in the eye.” 

― Dorothy Parker, The Complete Poems of Dorothy Parker

I have an overwhelming emotion of sadness today. Its supposed to be a happy day as its Friday, the holiest day of the week, and I really have nothing to complain about. I'm back with my family, I don't need to worry about expenses or food, I can buy things, I can do things and basically I have everything I ever wanted, or so I thought. 

I have been wishing for so many things in my life, and things were never enough. When I wanted something, I would think about it day and night and it would effect me tremendously. I guess im a person of many needs and I would like all my needs attended to. I used to wish for something, (which I shall keep a secret), it is nothing materialistic though, not a new phone or gadget or what not, just something that I have been wanting for so long. And when I finally got it, I got more than the amount I wanted. I think God is testing me to see what I will do and how far I would go.

I realize today, everything was never enough for me. We always wish for the best and in the end we expect more. When will enough be enough? How far will greed and selfishness bring us? And to what extent. I guess im just rambling my thoughts right now, because nothing makes sense. Im just exhausted from wanting more and more you know. For once in my life, I want to enjoy being contented. The feeling of not wanting. You just want to live in the now and enjoy what you have, because what you have now is the most precious thing you have, contentment.

“Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough”  ― Oprah Winfrey

I just want to be in the now and not worry about the future and what I will have or not have. I want to appreciate all I have now, and to focus all my energy in showing that appreciation. I just want to stop wanting. 

EverWishYouWereHere

I am now back in Perak for about 3 days and its been really nice to go on walks by myself. Perak is kind of hot but in the morning and afternoons, there is a slight breeze which swings by once in awhile. Yesterday, I watched the sunset by a mining lake, perched on a tall ledge, away from the housing areas. Tuck secretly at the edge of the town, it is so beautiful to behold, especially when you need a breather.

So this morning, after walking for an hour, I decided to enjoy the morning coolness by the huge lake. I was listening to some music, enjoying the birds and the bees circling around when suddenly, I heard the sound of a motorbike stop behind me. The hairs on my arms stood up as the man stayed there for more than a minute watching me. I finally got the courage to look behind me. He was quiet, an old Indian man on an even older bike. In my heart all I could say was " shit,shit,shit, he might be dangerous!"

After what seemed like eternity, he opened his mouth.

Indian man : Helooww ahh

Me: Ye?

Indian man : Lu mauu bunuh diri aaahh?

Me : Hahh?!

Indian man : Uncle tengok lu mmannyaakkk susah hati. Uncle takut lu mau bunuh diri.

Me : Hahh?! Mana ada la uncle. Rumah saya dekat sini, saya baru habis jogging.

Indian man : Betull ahhh? Lu masih muda, lu jangann mmannyaakk susahh hatii. Uncle takut lu pigi terjun.

Me : Takdela uncle, saya suka tengok sunrise sini.

Indian man : Wooo macam itu ahhh? Uncle pun suka datang tengok kerbau sini. Sini mmannyakk bahaya kalau terjun aa...Itu kolam mmannyaakk dalamm wooo.. Betuullaa lu oke2 aa?

Me : Yes uncle, okay! :)

Indian man : Okay, uncle pigi dulu aa..

There is this stray kitten that always comes to our house, so, these few days, the cat was looking kind of sick.

Mom : Tengok tu, anak kucing tu sakitla!

Me : Aah la Ma, kesiannya, asyik tertido2 je..kesiannya

Mom : Haah, okla, siapkan kubur cepat2, senang skit..

Me : Pernah tak makan telur unta?

Friend : Tak pernah la pulak, u pernah ke?

Me : Tak pernah...tapi teringin nak try

A few seconds later.......

Friend : Eh, unta bertelur ke?

Me: I seriously don't like cacing bulu !!!!!

F: Cacing bulu? Don't you mean ULAT bulu?