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Aaron's first mealtime 💓💓💟💟 . . . #babyAA #AaronAydeen #6months

SOMBONG!! Sebelum ni rasa diri boleh tahan hebat. Takdela hebat mana,but kind of hebat😅 I published a book at 13 years old,it was endorsed by the ministry of education and launched by Tun Dr Siti Hasmah. I was good in sports, excelled in chess and I graduated with a dean's list from medical school. I was a doctor who picked up my little clinic ALONE from nothing to something. And that was all. So this weekend as part of our company's plan for this year,we are going to do lots of networking and meet a lot of people to expand our business. Boy did I feel like a small fish in a sea of sharks. Or maybe I was actually as small as fish food. We think we are the best until we open our eyes and get out of our comfort zone. The people I met over the weekend were mega mega business people,earning millions each year. And here I was, a small fry trying to pay my way in life. I met this young woman who even has a PERSONAL MOTIVATOR due to her pressure in business and family,the motivator will make her refocus every 3 months. Wahhh...and here I am still living with my parents😅😅😅😂😂😂 I met lawyers who spoke jargons I've never even heard off, I met bankers talking about things I don't even understand. You think you are smart until you realise that you can save a life, but you can't even save your bank account😂😂 This year,i'm truly humbled by all that I have gone through but the road to heaven is filled with good intentions. But whatever we become, or whoever we are,always remember that there are people smarter,better than us and we should learn from them and also empower each other always. Love, Doctor Dream 🌈 . . #dreamskinhq @dreamskinhq #skincare #naturalskincare #halalskincare #medicalgradeskincare #brightening #hydrating #anti-aging

Excuse my excited face😅😅 with the founder of Jamu Tun Teja last night. She is so friendly and humble 💓 #mynewgirlcrush #jamutunteja

Different kind of seminar nowadays 😂😂😰😰😅😅 . . . #dreamskin @dreamskinhq #ombk18 #akusukafbads

Meeting new people and learning new things today 💟💓 #ombk18 #akusukafbads (at IDCC Convention Centre, Shah Alam)

Thinking about now So recently I enrolled in a 2 year program under the ministry of health to improve my leadership skills and also knowledge in the public health sector. There's so many things going on at the same time right now that I feel am I doing the right thing, will I be like a jack of all trades but master of none? To tell you the truth it has been one hell of a month, it was busy,packed,and exhausting, but in a way,it feels right. Yesterday, was the first time in weeks that I truly had a whole day to spend at my clinic. I was finally on pause and fatigue got to me. I accidentally slept during breaktime and woke up at 2.30 pm and the clinic was bustling with patients already! On this journey that i'm taking,I feel that every minute of my life counts,and I should not waste it. I need to spend a few minutes or hours everyday to devote myself to certain things. The 6 weeks edward jenner program, 2 year thesis and presentation,log book for mentor program, aesthetics part 2,my business,my kids,my family and not to forget spend some time for Allah. I don't know how some people manage it,like if I was a CEO of a huge company,im sure life would be super busy, and yet, they can find an equilibrium and live a purposeful life. That's whqt I want. I only have one life to live and I want to make a life worth living. It doesn't matter if I end up achieving or not a few things that I aim,but the road,the journey towards it that matters. It will shape me, it will define me,it will enhance me in hopes for me to become better everyday. To do all this,hubs bought me a cool laptop/organizer/tablet and I love how thoughtful he was choosing this as my anniversary gift. Although, I would also have liked diamonds or gold..bwahahaha. I do use it and it does come in handy,but me being that very traditional girl that I am,will always end up using plain old organizers and to-do-lists!😅😅 God I hope I ace it this year, life is short and I don't know when would be the last day I am on earth, so i'm going to spend the rest of my life doing something worthwhile. 🌈

The Babysitter This year is the year that I felt like I needed to turn my life around. Instead of just having a to-do-list, I wanted to really do it! Get my arse off the bed and stop procrastinating like I always do (which is the hardest part). So I have been busy with different things for the past few weeks and still haven't quite organized my schedule around all of it. Thank god I have this guy in the middle here who is a savior. He took leave just to take care of the kids so I can go for courses,do some work for a whole week! I was worried at first because we usually have 2 maids to take care of the kiddos. But hubsy said he wanted to spend time alone with them. This is not the only time that he does this, basically I don't have to lift a finger sometimes. Words can't describe how thankful I am to have found this guy, never selfish, always puts family first and never himself. He allows me to dream and never once clipped my wings. (Except that one time when I wanted to spend at Typo and he said no..darn it!) Hehe ... Only Jannah for you my love, I am honoured to be your wife.💓 . . . #cheesymoment #iwantanewwatchandsomemakeup #andiwanttospendattypo

Bad moms Daniyal has been having a bad fever for these two days and I had to take leave to take care of him. He is a bit irritable and clingy all day and cries even when I hold Aaron which is unlike him. He was so cranky just now that I accidentally told him off and he cried and cried. Right after that he vomited twice and fell asleep 😢😢. Being a mom is probanly the toughest job im handling right now. Because what we do or how we treat our child is what will shape their future. Sometimes I feel like im such a mom-failure. I see friends cooking this and that for their kids and I feel am I feeding my kids right. I see kids wearing nice clothes and then I feel omg, they don't have enough clothes, I have to buy more for them. There's this mom who went viral on facebook about how her 2 year old kid could hafal 42 surah and I start comparing am I not teaching my son enough. At times it does get to me, but I try to remind myself. No moms are perfect. We learn about our kids and ourselves along the way. Yes we do make mistakes sometimes, sometimes we forget their mealtimes or a bit late in giving them a shower but it doesn't mean your a bad mom. Taking care of kids is a journey, one that is topsy turvy but full of love and joy at watching them grow. Full of vomit and poo, but also full of kisses and hugs too. * this is a DIY project that me and daniyal did for his car collection. My dad found this old shelf somewhere and we repainted it. Daniyal loves this and when I see that look in his eyes, i'm not such a bad mom after all 😉

My new years resolution Mom was admitted in the hospital today to try out a new chemotherapy drug, I took the day off to meet the specialist and hear their plans for her. I just arrived from kl late last night in manjung, so I had to pack the kids and maids early in the morning, send them to our house in tronoh and went straight to the hospital. When I arrived,the nurses said that the specialist might come later in the day, so I decided to run some errands while waiting. It turned out to be probably the worst and the best decision I made today. I needed to do 3 simple things,go to the pejabat tanah,insurance and also settle something for my product, but boy oh boy,it was a wild ride. I had to go up and down, here and there, that by 3pm, I was so beat up that I fell asleep in the car. It was like god wanted me to face so many hurdles to test whether I was serious about my new year resolution about being more patient and persevering. I almost felt like I wanted to just go home and procrastinate like I always do. But today, I just didn't. No matter what, I finished what I started. It truly is amazing what you can achieve and learn if you really put your heart to it. If you fall down, pick yourself up and try again. If you feel like you might fail, just persevere. If you really want it,show it. I might have begun the day on a bad note, but being positive helped me end my day on a good note. I'm going to stop being moody and sulky if things don't turn out right, and instead,dust my shoulders and pick myself up!

A bigger heart A genuine person A patient mother A devoted wife A loving daughter A kind soul A good doctor A humble beginning A beautiful life A wonderful year 2018 (at Frisky Goat)

That Quiet Girl I grew up being very reserved and shy, im not entirely sure how I became like that, but I was one of those people who felt so hard to interact with people. Maybe it was because I felt so insecure about myself, I was short and I was just not a very interesting person. Going to events, meeting people really scared me. When my mom said, "nadya, tomorrow we will go to this and this person's house" , I would spend the night thinking what a nightmare it would be. What if people tried to make conversation with me, what would I say, I should read today's paper and see if there is something I could talk about. I kid you not. People who do not face this problem don't really know how it feels like. It was just terrible. Unable to adapt to the social environment is probably one of the worst feeling's anyone could face. At events,I would just stick to my mom and pray that no one notices me. And if they do strike a conversation with me,I would just withdraw into my little shell and be like " shit,what else can I say,owh no,I bet she thinks im weird now,shit shit" 😅😅 Then one day during a motivational camp,we were asked to describe the person beside us in one word. The girl who was sitting next to me said "the best word to describe you is that you are a very CONFIDENT girl!" I was so shocked that someone would describe me as that that I nearly said what the hell! Here I was, this timid little shrew, and someone felt that I was a confident girl. And then I thought,maybe all this while, I was just listening to voices in my head, telling me what I can't do. But was I in a way, not listening to the voices that were telling me what I can do! That little moment in my life slowly changed me. I felt that because I was listening to all these negative thoughts, I was withholding my full potential. If there are people who believed in me, who thought that I was confident, I should be able to believe in myself! I guess that was a life changing aha moment for me. I'm still a little shy and reserved,but I try to overcome it, one event at a time and not listen to all the insecurities I have about myself. 💟 @theduckgroup #duckscarves

I believe everything happens for a reason, whether it is good or bad. If it is a bad thing, it is a test on how we handle it and if it is a good thing, then it may just be destiny. I remember the first day I started working, fresh from the hospital,no prior knowledge of what I would be facing in the clinic and it would just be me...alone. I thought I was the only one with such a predicament, but it turns out my ex-housemate from uni days was in the same situation as I was. She is from kl,but placed in the outskirts of perak,also the only doctor there. We started sharing experiences on and off and how we dealt with our clinic,but both were busy juggling the clinic and administration life...hehe.. After some time, we met at a course in ipoh and just hung out during breaks. We met again and this time we started to talk about business and how starting one would be challenging, but what we both wanted to try. At the time,I was doing my aesthetics course and was already contemplating to do my own skincare using the knowledge I learnt in the course. Then one day,I felt that I wanted to do it,but just couldn't do it on my own. I needed someone I could trust that I could discuss ideas with, that would keep me in check and also have the same goals that I had. So there was no one else in my mind,but @hajarangelique The day that I asked her to become my business partner felt like doing a proposal (I never told you this!) Haha...but there were butterflies in my stomach,I was so nervous awaiting for her decision. Alhamdul#illah, she accepted my offer and is now the co-founder of @dreamskinofficial Thank you for believing in me and starting this company with me. May Allah ease our little start-up and may we achieve our dreams with @dreamskinofficial !!! #dreamteam #dreamskin #dreamskinofficial #yourofficialskincare #skincare #glowyskin #brightening #hydrating #antiaging #insta #igers #igersmalaysia

Me after watching all those makeup tutorials and failing each time 😂😂 @fashionvaletcom @thaiodyssey #fvbeautymeme @aainaakzmn @shafikah_diana @fatinamirahzainutdin

Have you ever dreamt of having skin so smooth, you won't have any patchy makeup days anymore?? Follow @dreamskinofficial and be on your way to your #dreamskin !!💟💓😍 #dreamteam #dreamskinofficial

CANCER That was the time when I felt most grownup. I have always been the baby in the family, I was the youngest from three siblings and I was somewhat spoilt with love especially by my mom. She is and always be my bestfriend, so it was a blow to me when she was first diagnosed with the big C. It was a few months before my graduation from medical school, she delayed her chemotherapy just to come to my graduation. When I came back home, I knew all I wanted to do was be the grown up responsible to care for her. Growing up was the best thing that could ever happen to me, because I could finally take care of my mother. @theduckgroup #thebutterflyduck #duckscarves

My sleepless nights,my palpitation days...counting days until 2018 with this one!

Weight issues I was a skinny kid growing up,I was all skin and bones that mom used to worry everytime my siblings hold me, they might break my arm or something. Then when I entered highschool, I gained so much weight at the age of 15 because I started eating 2 bowls of rice to compensate for my lack of energy in boarding school. From a skinny girl,I was now miss chubba wubba. So this continued until I went to uni,it was probably the 2nd year of uni that I realised I was indeed on the heavier side. So I started to reduce my food intake, and signed up to THE GYM!😂😂😵😵 I would go to the gym 3-4 times a week,went for aerobics every day,ran the threadmill for nearly 2 hours, went for tae kwan do and all of that shit. At first, I couldn't see much difference,then I felt my clothes were getting loose, as a result,I started to lose weight slowly but surely. I began to develop muscle where once there was fat,my abdomen became more firm and I didn't realise how fit I was until one of my friend pointed out how my stomach did not even lipat satu if I sat down! Haha..proud moment guys!! I felt my steps getting lighter,my movement faster,I was less tired and my skin looked healthy. I turned into a fitness enthusiast! That was until I started working, got married, was pregnant and gave birth to my first child. Then,I kind of hung my sports shoes,if it could talk, it would probably cry at how useless it was. I didn't exercise for what,2 freaking years!!! My weight did go down,but it was a slow process, and just when I was getting slimmer,I got pregnant again! Hahaha But this time, I decided I wanted to take control of my life again, I hated being chubby, so I made sure I had a good booming weight during pregnancy, I watched what I ate throughout (I ate lots of junkfood while pregnant with daniyal), and gained only 10kg compared to my previous pregnancy which was 17kg!!!! 😅😅😂😂😂😂I started to exercise even before the end of my 42 days confinement,and to my relief, I felt my body stronger,my mind calmer and me,way happier. I'm still a long way to go from my target weight (another 10kg) more to be exact!!😅😅😅 but, i'm trying hard to fit back into my uni clothes..lol! (at Bukit 300 Teluk Batik)