#thequotehaven

She's used to silences: she can distinguish between full silences and empty ones, between those that come before and those that come after. Just because there's a silence it doesn't mean that nothing is going on.

I don’t seem to want anything others want.  I don’t even know if I want something. To be perfectly quiet, still alive with no one pressing me.

I don't want your love unless you know I am repulsive, and love me even as you know it.

In this universe we are given two gifts: the ability to love, and the ability to ask questions. Which are, at the same time, the fires that warm us and the fires that scorch us.

In short: I felt my existence was tainted, in some subtle but essential way.

I could live almost completely in imagination.

On the surface, I was poised, cool, indifferent. (…) The discrepancy between what I would show the world and the chaos I felt grew steadily more intense.