#thepossible

I began Thinklings with all kinds of intentions. Don’t we always? And then the world unleashes its lesser gods, the atmosphere its impenetrable fog, the forest its obliterating fire. Intentions then are constituted by a hope unencumbered by the unforeseen material and psychic fallout of the everyday. They make for the best kind of aspirational living, if the least bound to reality. They allow us to project ourselves into the possible, into imaginings greater than what our current constraints would dictate. 

I love that.

God: Can you feel my essence?

Steve: You go on without ending, there is too much

God: There is always more

Steve: I'm reaching for more and more and have gained no ground

God: Listen in here (touches solar plexus lights up)

Steve: I can do anything! Be anything, be anywhere, Your will glows in me like a dimming star.

I want to know what is possible.

I was thinking earlier this evening how it’d be my dream job just to go explore and chronicle haunted places around the earth.

Even as a small child, I was always fascinated by ghosts and halloween and the supernatural.

And twenty years later, my driving focus is to see how far out energy bending goes. I want to do it, learn what can be done, teach other people, this would be a very fulfilling life.

Energy bending is the only thing I’ve ever learned that I wouldn’t give up for a billion dollars. Not all the money in the world. Yet, at the same time, if I knew I would dishonor my teacher or the men who discovered and grew it, I would drop it in a heart beat.

This dichotomy between invaluableness and integrity, this is why I pursue that path.

Yet before that path, I followed one I am still on, and that is the deeper implications of the Godman. I decided then and still hold to be true that Jesus was completely limited by his humanity.

Which means, anything he did, we can do as well, I 100% believe this. I also believe he kept trying to tell us this and nobody would believe him.

Well, I believe him, and that’s one of the reasons I took to energy bending so easily. It was a relief to finally encounter something I knew could be true. Most things in the world seem mundane, simple and plane. If there was fascination with a flower or sunshine, it left me as a child.

But not my fascination for the supernatural, and that’s what I realize now. Jesus, energy bending, ghosts, they’re all things beyond what we currently know or experience.

And not that I’m pursuing Jesus because he did miracles, or that I’m only pursuing miracles, I just want to know what’s possible, I just want to KNOW.

I want to know so bad, that it came as a shock when I found out other people didn’t. It’s such a core part of me, I just assumed other people had it as well.

And I’m just now getting over a months long grieving process after finding out people aren’t interested in knowing.

Before bending, I just assumed people didn’t know because there was no opportunity to learn. After being able to show people some things, and people still not believing/caring, it has been lonely.

Though now I realize, this is a path for me, I don’t know why I was born differently from other people in this way. Certainly there’s other people like me somewhere following Jesus, pursuing the possible.