#theoloki

no matter how much it hurts me

So Theo, in a post canon London, dies somehow. like weither he gets recaptured by police after the train incident or can't manage to find another source of income and ends up on the street or what. I don't know and I don't want to think about it. but yeah he dies a few years after his time with Loki.

a lot of depictions of ghosts portray them as being held still in this world because they have some sort of unfinished business in the world of the living, which. boy howdy does Theo have that.

so he eventually materializes as a ghost and walks (or I guess floats) the world as a ghost for many years

Loki and the Asgardians eventually come to settle in New Asgard and eventually ghost!Theo works up the nerve to go and see him

So one night when Loki is in bed reading Theo appears at the foot of his bed and says hello

Loki screams and generally freaks the fuck out, not knowing what's going on

Which then makes Thor barge in urgently looking for the source of his brother's distress

This eventually segues to Thor making somewhat pleasant conversation with Theo, asking him who he is and what he is and eventually figures out he isn't a threat

Loki, meanwhile, is curled in on himself on the bed, scarcely breathing, afraid that he's dreaming

Eventually enough of the shock subsides that he can manage to speak again and they talk

They talk for a looooong time. There are a lot of tears, a little bit of shouting, and a hundred apologies on Loki's end, but eventually they find themselves thoroughly closure-d, and just wanting to be with each other and love each other again.

They lean in to kiss each other-

and Loki's face goes right through Theo's. because he's a ghost, and ghosts aren't solid.

The Odinson household gains a new member that night.

Theo stays in Loki's room, sleeps on the other side of his bed. it makes him feel closer even though they can't touch.

He doesn't need to eat, or drink, but he does have limited telekinectic ability and follows Loki around floating objects to help and/or playfully annoy him.

When Loki had first realised Theo's non-solidity in earnest, he had carefully taken his ghostly hand in between his own, careful to not press through it, and promised Theo that he would fix this, that he would find a way for Theo to have a physical form, even as a ghost.

And he does. he pours himself into research, and it's dark, complicated, and dangerous magic, but Loki doesn't care. it depletes him immensely, and leaves him and his magic weakened for months afterwards, but it works. he passes out after the spell is complete, but not before feeling Theo's cold, solid hand cupping his face. he smiles.

Theo, after everything, runs cold, not unlike Loki. and if you were to feel for it you would find that he he has no heartbeat. but it wasn't the heartbeat that Loki was after, wasn't what he cared about. it was the heart, and the man it belonged to, and that he was the love of his life.

(cw for mentions & allusions to torture, physical abuse/assault, and imprisonment, all in a fictional setting)

one is vaguely canon and the other is for fluffy shippy type songs that can't go on the vaguely canon one because canon is Like That