i've realised i'm unwilling to tell anyone irl this so i will tell the internet. i got really upset in therapy today because my therapist was seriously entertaining the idea that i'm psychotic because i'm experiencing delayed-onset covid-related parosmia as a result of the covid that SHE gave me and she brought up me filling the antipsychotics prescription i previously was given by my doctor when my ptsd was at its worst and my support system at its flimsiest, a prescription i never even filled because as soon as i found out it was an antipsychotic i got really scared and then before i could fill it the situation improved enough that i felt like maybe i could make it without but the thing is parosmia isn't even a symptom of psychoses, she's thinking of phantosmia and i'll be honest having an olfactory processing issue and choosing ANTIPSYCHOTICS for your first line treatment is stupid, i don't care how tired i am of stuff smelling rotten if i can never eat another orange that doesn't have that wet dog smell to it then so be it i'm not going on heavy duty meds for something they won't treat
like literally it's "person who's only read the dsm hearing about a medical symptom: hmm this seems like a psychological symptom" that was so upsetting
