#theme: panic attacks

Hey so I want to recommend a fic called “When growing up feels like burning out.” It’s basically an Aaron centric about how he is asexual and how him and katelyn got together and includes a bit of the twinyards relationship. I love it and they way the characters are portrayed especially katelyn because she’s portrayed differently in this fic than others and it just makes sense. The authors tumbler is @figuringthengsout I can’t remember their Ao3 account tho. But I really recommend this fic!

Oh this is one of my favorite Aaron fics too! So much growth and depth to the characters, and a lot of honesty in the writing by @figuringthengsout. Thanks for the rec! -F

When growing up feels like burning out by ElephantLoveMedley [Rated T, 52930 words, Complete 2022]

How Aaron Minyard managed to juggle med school, a difficult relationship with his brother, being an athlete and making new friends that maybe aren’t just friends.

Hopefully we’ve dug up things you’ve not read yet or will enjoy reading again. - A

Find most of our previous kevin/neil recs in even more kevineil

Neil & Kevin as bffs/brothers + Kev/Neil here

‘Sunset Season’ here

‘Twenty Something: Frat Boy Remix’ is andreil but references a KN hookup, plus there’s a kevineil section in fuckboys Neil & Kevin

‘The Melancholy of Neil Josten’ here

‘Death Wish’ here

Kevin is Neil’s ex in ‘We Used To Be Friends’ (andreil, now complete) here

Kevin is Neil’s ex in ‘3 Cups Of Coffee’ (kandreil) here

5 things by ihaveacleverfandomurl [Rated M, 1945 Words, Incomplete, Updated Oct 2020]

Sometimes, Neil Josten counting Kevin through a panic attack stitches him back together.

tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: alcohol abuse, tw: non consensual drug use

you're in a car with a beautiful boy by amechanias [Rated G, 642 Words, Complete, 2020]

kevin is in his car, neil besides him and feelings are overflowing without either of them truly knowing why.

tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: ptsd

Drabble City by alex_glasses [Rated T, Collection, Incomplete, Updated Oct 2020]

Chapter 7: Kevin/Neil [762 Words]

This started out at feels but is actually crack. Kevneil with a hint of kandreil.

Kevin Pouting Kevineil hcs by @cressworthkiss [Tumblr, 2018]

Looooook Kevin pouting because he didn’t get his way when he wanted the team to practice for an extra hour. 

“go on and cry” for Kevin +Neil prompt fill by @cressworthkiss [Tumblr Fic, 2018]

“Kevin it’s okay. Just. Let it go.” Neils voice whispered to him in the dark. Their faces close, Neil’s breath fanning over his face. He hated it. Waking up with a snap not knowing where he was until Neil’s hands ran through his hair gently. 

tw: nightmares

kevin learns to knit when he gets sober, and he's such a perfectionist he wants to throw out the first few things prompt fill/hcs by @cressworthkiss [Tumblr, 2018]

Neil wearing socks that are two different lengths and a beanie that’s a little lop sided beanie. 

im thinking about neil just. poking kevin. prompt fill/hcs by @cressworthkiss [Tumblr, 2018]

Slow poke? Like pushing into kevins cheek as far as he can? Or fast swift poke that he can act like it didn’t happen?

Art

kevin and neil… art by @notants 

Just trying something here… art by @p0tatonoah

Happy to help, and the recs at the top of our previous asks will lead you to so much more. -A

previous asks...

more lap sitting & cuddling

andreil cheek/forehead kisses

hurt/comfort w/ crying Andrew

hurt/comfort

hurt comfort/any pairing (it’s pretty much all andreil)

andrew gets hurt

scar massage

bad day/panic attack

neil with anxiety/anxiety attacks

Better than a Blanket, Your Coat by pawnofkings [Not Rated (we say T), 2200 Words, Complete, 2020]

Andrew helps Neil calm down from a nightmare, but Neil still needs a distraction. They decide to join the team on a trip to IKEA, but Neil can barely stay awake, let alone on his feet, by the time they get there.

ft. Neil taking a nap in an IKEA shopping cart and protective!Foxes.

tw: panic attacks

how much? by flowerkook [Rated T, 486 Words, Complete, 2020]

Andrew's face is blank, but his fingers are never idle.

Soft Cuddles by abraxos_is_toothless [Rated G, 1151 Words, Complete, 2020]

Andrew and Neil have some sleepy cuddles and big talks of their future.

Set between Late Night Exploration and I love you, I love you, I love you in this series.

I have a lot of feelings about Andrew and Neil sleeping together. by @eyyofrankie [Tumblr Fic, 2017]

As non-descript as it was, Neil liked being in Andrew’s room in Columbia. The navy sheets were soft from many washings. The pillows were plump. And the comforter was worn-in. Neil stretched out on his side of the double bed. Light from the streetlights outside shone through the curtains as Andrew shut off the ceiling light and Neil turned on the bedside lamp.

a concept: andrew getting really used to physical contact from neil hc by @fox-sleeping-minyard [Tumblr, 2017]

- he accepted neil lacing their fingers together pretty quickly

- or neil’s fingers in his hair

- and neil kissing him

Art

asleep in your arms art by @lnmei

neil touching andrew's hair art by @requiemofkings

I’ve got some with them sparring and just goofing around, plus a fun new one by one of my favorite fandom writers where andreil meet each other in a fencing class, because, social distancing. 

They play fight in ‘The Bones - Way Down We Go fic’ here, they get pretty competitive in this andreil play video games ask, and since I’m apparently just throwing whatever I want at you, here’s an ask where Neil and Renee spar. - A

Sparring by justdk [Rated M, 2171 Words, Complete, Andreil Week 2018]

Andrew teaches Neil to fight and Neil discovers something he really, really likes ;)

The Sads and the Stupids - Fics and Headcanons by AlexGlass [Rated T, Collection, Updated 2018]

Chapter 7: Nerf War [1238 Words]

- Buying a nerf gun is, quite possibly, the stupidest decision David Wymack ever made

Roadtrip by @ajmnaj [Tumblr Fic, Neilmas 2019], on ao3 here

Being on the road was no strange thing to Neil.

Wanting to be on the road– now that was strange.

But considering it was a roadtrip with Andrew, Neil shouldn’t have been so surprised.

stay awake (don't rest your head) by rooftopkisses [Rated G, 1487 Words, Complete, AFTG Bingo 2020]

Neil and Andrew are three days into Finals Week (aka Hell Week) at Palmetto. Will they make it through unscathed?

NB: fic inspired by this college au art by @fornavn for @aftgbingo

Fencing With Reality by fuzzballsheltiepants [Rated T, 7230 Words, Complete, 2020]

What do you do when you're bored out of your skull during social distancing and a spider has just taken up residence in your living room? If you're Andrew Minyard, you take up fencing and end up meeting someone who you can't get out of your head - even if you've never actually seen their face.

tw: spiders, tw: ptsd

Art

foxes as a meme art by @broresteia

Oh yes, this one seems to be a classic! -F

One Day We’ll Be Free (But Today is Not That Day) by KatherineF [Rated: Not Rated, 3481 words, Complete 2019]

A unwanted gift arrives in the mail for Neil and the Foxes nearly a year after Baltimore, bringing back bad memories.

Or: Neil is given a flashdrive of videos of him while he was on the run. The Foxes all see.

We can! Per your ask, I’m only listing ones here that have Andrew comforting Neil in front of the Foxes, but you may also like the asks neil having flashbacks and neil with anxiety. They contain a mix andreil alone and with the Foxes. - A

Dashboard Lights by Marmeladeskies [Rated: T, 408 words, Complete, 2019] 

The Foxes watch Deadpool. Neil has a flashback.

tw: mentions of past abuse, tw: implied/referenced violence

Hold Each Other by exactly13percent, superagentwolf [Rated: E, Collection, Complete, 2018]

Chapter 15: I for an Eye [Rated T]

Neil has his bad memories. He's managed to keep most of them down, but some start slipping out. It's a good thing he's learning how to make new ones.

tw: ptsd, tw:, blood, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced non consensual kiss

One Day We’ll Be Free (But Today is Not That Day) by KatherineF [Rated: Not Rated, 3481 Words, Complete, 2019]

A unwanted gift arrives in the mail for Neil and the Foxes nearly a year after Baltimore, bringing back bad memories.

Or: Neil is given a flashdrive of videos of him while he was on the run. The Foxes all see.

tw: panic attacks, tw: canon-typical violence, tw: child abuse

Kevin’s Insight by Annabee28 [Rated T, 825 Words, Complete, 2020]

Kevin does not understand how Andrew and Neil are together but he witnesses a soft moment between the two that helps him understand.

tw: panic attacks, tw: nightmares

Turn it Off by elawless [Rated M, 10449 words, Complete, 2018]

“It hurts…so much…too…much” He choked out between breaths. “I want to let go so…bad. I am so close”. He lifted his head to look at Andrew and saw no blue in his eyes and believed Andrew was real, but the rest of the pain was. It was just enough for him to trust Andrew with what he would say next.

“Stay. Give me Neil back. Don’t leave.” Andrew could no longer cover all of his desperation, his voice seemed to crack on the last word.