#theintentions

When I started writing and putting my story together, ‘My Story’ wasn’t going to be about blame, a kiss and tell story, what he said, what she said, what I said, it also wasn’t going to be a negative book.

There are many positive reviews of my book, one of those reviews is below:

Review by Author & Activist, T.R. Bauer –

5.0 out of 5 stars – Not just an exceptional piece of work, this book is a lifeline!

“King Solomon once lamented that there is nothing new under the sun. The great author, T.S. Eliot, famously wrote, “Good writers borrow, great writers steal.” In the case of this book I believe Ilana Estelle is the exception. ‘Finding the Calm After the Storm’ is not only enlightening; it is an honest to God original piece of work. How often does that come along?

What we have here is a book about cerebral palsy written by a woman who has cerebral palsy. It is her story and much more than just that. She takes us on her daunting journey of self-discovery and on that adventure we learn principles that can change our own lives, whether we are disabled or not.

This book is a lifeline for anyone who has endured hardship on this great voyage we call life. It is my hope that Ilana’s teachings will help you as much as they have helped me.”

– Author & Activist, T.R. Bauer

Throughout my life and my ‘book journey’ I have also never sought to blame, I have merely sought to understand why, because with an understanding of why, it would become clear why I wasn’t told about my disability. If someone were to read the book and think otherwise, they wouldn’t be reading the book I wrote.

I know my parents did the best with what they had and although their best didn’t match my best, it was the best for them. That is something I have had to reconcile. I didn’t get what I needed, I got what they needed.

Again, would I have wanted my life to be different? Yes, but spirit has taught me to go with what I have, with what I have been given. If it wasn’t for the life I’ve had, there would be no thought process, website, or book. I am grateful that I have all three.

I wake up every morning, feeling blessed about that, but I would also like to wake up and not to have to deal with the other side of my life, my autism.  Although I love and embrace certain aspects of autism, it is difficult to live with.

With autism, I struggle with concerns and worry over the things I have no control over. Not knowing about about autism as a child, made my anxiety worse.