#thegivenchycode

im taking the 10 all the way, but im just worried on taking the wrong bus

lol i actually have talked to her! she added me on gmail, but i haven't really asked her any questions yet because i'm still talking to my counselor and whatnot.

i feel like i've just been feel more stressed because it's almost college application season and my entire existence has basically been dedicated to getting into a good college so if i don't i'm going to be a failure and i have no idea what i'm going to do \m/

going to throw a bitch fit if my skin doesn't clear up tbh

but like my parents both basically work 2 jobs so they can pay for all my crap and save up money to send me to school and they've worked so hard to get to where they are, especially since they immigrated from south korea to the usa with like zero knowledge of english, and i feel like the least i can do is repay them back by becoming successful and like studying is really the only way i feel like i can be successful because i have no special talents? and i mean, yeah i do wanna successful for myself, but it's mostly for my parents? i don't want the 20 years they've spent working relentlessly to make sure i get the life they couldn't have to go to waste.

ugh and it's worse when my family points out my skin and stuff bc i feel bad enough about myself already and when they pinpoint it i just feel mortified and ugh i just really hope my skin clears up soon

but thanks for your offer <3 i probably will have questions and whatnot after tomorrow lol

i really think i just need to change the way i think about myself because i HONESTLY hate 99.9% of myself and the .1% i do like is the fact that i at least realize i'm a shitty person and need to get my act together