#thefantasy

I like this guy. He says he likes me but then again, i might be a distraction. He's passionate about something. I dont want to deviate him from that. Im writing this for me. This is my fantasy. Not about him but maybe in the future someone like him.

Ill meet a workaholic, or maybe a passionate asshole who would never have time to focus on a relationship but always wanted one. Me, dreaming big, want to also get into my passion, we meet. We exchange i like yous. Laugh a little, drink a little, kiss a little, then we go on our separate ways.

One day, he'll have time. It wasnt soon, but one day. He'll surprise me. When no body does. No one has ever surprised me until last wednesday. Anyway, he'll surprise me by sheer chance or spontaneity. He brings me somewhere far, so he can work, all he wants was company. I come along. I watch him, he watches me. Finally chances to be with someone who i can support and who i can relax with. Without worry of where to go, what to do, chill. Maybe read, maybe write. Do our own thing just for the sake that we can, and we can by being together.

Then i tell him, im not ready. He'll wait. He'll tell me, he himself as well. Still, we stay together. Days turns to weeks, then months. The company grows needy. We decided to be together officially. Without publicizing it, we were. Family knows. Thats it. We liked it that way.

I reaches my goals, he got envious. Then, still i was there. To watch him dream, to act upon it, and was there when he finally reaches his. We are still together and we were both enough and more for each other. What happened in between wasnt important. What we support, who we love, little things we liked, the build of us, the growth, we'll do it together. To be together. To be us.

Its a fantasy because no one will ever be this. No one will ever let me. In reality, there will always be something to give up, something to let go, to stop, to remove. Something. Sometimes, we end up settling because of this fantasy. The fantasy that can never fully be a reality. The reality is, half of the fantasy can be done, because only one and not both. Only one can reach there goal and never together.