When I was 18 I realized,
That my dad wasn’t just my dad.
He was a dad to a hundred and 20
Not just a little but many
Kids.
I guess it fits,
But sometimes, I hate how he made me so
Dependent on his affirmations,
I want to be proud of myself.
Even if I have little patience.
Even when I am too loud.
I’m not the damned of the nation.
I will bring light and laughter.
I will learn to be better.
I am learning to be better.
Learning doesn’t mean failure.
Burning doesn’t mean danger.
I want to stand up and rise to new heights.
I want my eyes to roll back til I see glowing white.
Cause Lord gave me a heart and mind.
There’s always been time, I’m owning it this time.
I am the best I can be, I will be the best I can be.
I will make mistakes. Nothing worth it is without pain.
I’m growing up dad.
And if I’m totally changed, it’s ok.
I still love you dad. I’m just a little less fake, in a way.













