#thecat rambles

for YEARS i had people telling me that it was just my age, i wasnt that bad, other people couldnt even go out so i wasnt that bad, etc!

i got diagnosed like 3-4 months ago after finally getting to a point where i was so fed up of throwing up if i wanted to do anything, so i went down and explained it to my doctor. i was fucking shocked when he told me he was gonna put me on meds, because it had gotten to a point where i just thought i was over reacting. i’ve had people speculate on it and tell me im lying or over exaggerating, even my sister tells me that im “showing off” as though not being able to do anythnig without having anxiety attacks is worth showing off?

there are so many different types of anxiety, it cannot be confined down to one symptom. my anxiety is very different from my friend’s, yet we’re on the same stuff.

also, my pills do not make me brave, they do not make me able to talk and they dont stop me from panicking whenever im outside. i still think that every creak in my house is someone trying to kill me, and that everyone who walks past is out to get me. i still feel ill and terrified if i go out, i just dont throw up anymore. i can’t talk to people however if i need to speak (for example in work) i wont just puke or have an anxiety attack.

comic con is always on around the same time isnt it? bc then 18th birthday present too ayy

but like

for real

this time next year im going to go ok im gonna meet y’all 

cats

i dont think i need to explain this?? cats are my life my love the fuel of my energy cats are my fave holy shit guys c a t s