#thebridgeexperience

Have you checked out my latest blog post? It is now live. Click on the link in my bio if you want to read it. As usual more of my a-ha moments are included. Based on my experience with The Bridge Program and Extreme Leqdership Program ❤️ . #thebridgeexperience #iamthebridge #alexipanos #prestonsmiles #growthroughwhatyougothrough #thebridge #strongwithoutrealising #brisbaneblogger #leaningintoit #mywords #feelings #thought #blogger #survivor #goddess #healing #hearts #writersofig #writersofinstagram #blogpost #fromtheheart #writer #wordpressblogger #quoteoftheday #real talk #writinginspiration #honesty #reallife (at Tanah Merah) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrKhEE0lOBh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=bvwragd233ha

This makes me laugh so much. . Why? . Well I’ve always been able to go out and have fun without drinking or doing drugs, well at least in recent years but that’s easy when it’s dimly lit and everyone else is drunk 🤷🏽‍♀️ . This was one of the stretches on the weekend and when we were told I thought to myself WTF I can’t do that. We had to go into a busy space and sing a song. Now the first song that came to my head was You are my sunshine but when it came time to sing this is what came out 🤣 . I laugh because I feel my ego cringing at the sound of my voice or the movement of my body and saying don’t post that how embarrassing. . I share because my ego got annihilated on the weekend and I don’t want to operate from that egoic place that keeps me ‘safe’ or ‘contained’ any longer. Who cares if someone looks at you funny or judges you - that is an issue they have with themselves, not with you. We all come from a place of triggers and mirrors - JUST DO YOU! . So go out and feel free to express yourself. You might be surprised at how good it feels! . . #strongwithoutrealising #thebridgeexperience #saltnpepa #innerrapgoddess (at South Bank, Brisbane) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqxzelqF8Nq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ole0edzb3y03

I have been trying to find the words to describe what I experienced on the weekend with some epic human beings. @alexipanos and @prestonsmiles created a space where I was not only free to express and free to be but a place where my heart was opened, my mind was cleared, and in truth, my life was reborn. . I learnt that in the midst of pain, you can still achieve the greatest missions. I struggled with my own guilt of not being by my sisters bed while she is in ICU, I fought against wanting to leave and be there. I fought against fleeing from my pain and putting her needs before mine, but in that was the biggest lesson of all. I fell into old patterns of not sharing, of not wanting to be the one talking about my pain because I didn’t want to take up others space. . But I deserve that space! And people deserve to be in that space. In sharing I felt the deepest connection with amazing human beings, that I’ve never felt before. Or rather I’ve never let myself feel. . I have been guilty of letting people in but keeping them at arms length. This weekend my barriers came down. . I expressed myself, I shared stuff I’ve never shared, not even with my husband. And that’s because of the space that was created - a loving, I got you, give it your all, space. I did things that if anyone had told me I would be doing I would have laughed and said no freaking way! . I know I’ve said it before but this time it truly comes from my heart - the old Shantel/Shannii is gone. You will be SEEING me from now on ❤️ . . #thebridgeexperience #wearelove #lovesvoice #lovethebug #strongwithoutrealising #growthroughwhatyougothrough (at Brisbane Convention & Exhibition Centre) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bqn2hDnlS9w/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gln8tfujc1qm

I just spent the weekend in my truth and what a fucking epic weekend it was! . There is letting go (which I thought I had done) and then there is letting go which was the most painful and feeling experience I’ve ever had. But fuck it felt good! . Realizing how much I have been blocking by staying in my pain instead of moving into my power. . Telling my truth and finding out that I’m not alone and that everyone has made a mistake in their life that has hurt someone was the ultimate freedom. I don’t have to keep punishing myself any longer. My past and that story isn’t me. . Fuck that! . Oh and a massive thank you to my husband for also last minute leaning in and joining me. Talk about life changing 😍 and for also saying ok done now let’s do extreme too 🤣 . It’s time to get my love train on. Who wants in? 🥰 and I’m not kidding I spent almost 90 mins today hugging strangers in South Bank 😳 . . . . #bridgeexperience #thebridgeexperience #iamthebridge (at Brisbane Convention & Exhibition Centre) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqUi67nlMHV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ovyaxrawaci2