Continuous Anxiety
I'm up half the night - again. Anxious about all the shit taking place in my life, whether it's rational or possibly irrational. Overthinking is also a killer. It's starting to get the point of affecting me physically. I need this to come to an end immediately (not in a suicidal way, but simply in an "I think I need to see someone" way). I think it's about time I stop letting this go. I've been allowing anxiety to control my life for years, hoping for its dissipation. It has not, and as a matter of fact, it has gotten worse now that I'm an adult. How do I live my life with the combo of overthinking, always being tired (even after a good nights sleep), isolation, sometimes crying, insanely stressed about life, always asking people if everything is okay as far as me and that other person go - assuming that I bothered them somehow if they seem a bit off, and now sudden shaking kicking in? I'm over this. Have I mentioned that I have a passionate hate for weekends? That's when the anxiety goes into overdrive. Fuck those, too.
