#imoverthisshit

so ruki is the problem, i really would like someone expert on the matter to tell me why ruki is so... difficult to get, is it me? maybe, i think its me, bc kou and yuuma, the two headcanons im writing currently, theyre really easy to get, like the charcater development and shit, why did ruki was so hard? i think it was the cat incident, yeah, maybe it is me.

Happy #HumpDay 🐪 My apartment is freezing. I'm working on 3 hours of sleep. My anxiety is through the roof. I've got a million things spinning through my brain at all times. It's just a regular old day for Stephen! 🙃 #IsItFridayYet #Wednesday #ImOverThisShit #INeedADrink #INeedCake #Funny #Haha #CreekTalkPodcast (at Glenolden, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/CnkBa4DOV-ru6V5r4fEHpScSJnQFzmMqW_gMsA0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Meh...😩

It’s the little things that count #merrychristmas #imoverthisshit https://www.instagram.com/p/CJOs4FBlAB1e7gatfVuKa5_u38qm65sH23jvSQ0/?igshid=p46l0taaowc4

Dressing at the park again wher everyone can see and making a nasty mess! #imoverthisshit #crackheads https://www.instagram.com/p/CFntgkYl3BM-hpV0Ci4rdkYntezS388Tavz8qk0/?igshid=1iogru4fx7aof

Ugh!! This right here!! I can't for the life of me understand why people are so damn comfortable risking their lives and the lives of those they love. And don't get me started on people they come in contact with on the outside. What's it gonna take??!! #peoplesuck #covid19isnotajoke #selfishpeoplereallysuck #imoverthisshit https://www.instagram.com/p/CCC4D6ODK26oMcSSGnTqn5zKf80iZPcWZOhe9o0/?igshid=hgg515ftpwdv

I'm up half the night - again. Anxious about all the shit taking place in my life, whether it's rational or possibly irrational. Overthinking is also a killer. It's starting to get the point of affecting me physically. I need this to come to an end immediately (not in a suicidal way, but simply in an "I think I need to see someone" way). I think it's about time I stop letting this go. I've been allowing anxiety to control my life for years, hoping for its dissipation. It has not, and as a matter of fact, it has gotten worse now that I'm an adult. How do I live my life with the combo of overthinking, always being tired (even after a good nights sleep), isolation, sometimes crying, insanely stressed about life, always asking people if everything is okay as far as me and that other person go - assuming that I bothered them somehow if they seem a bit off, and now sudden shaking kicking in? I'm over this. Have I mentioned that I have a passionate hate for weekends? That's when the anxiety goes into overdrive. Fuck those, too.