♀:a girl you like ✍:something you regret doing ☠:someone that is dead
Evelin, please... *rolls eyes*. Ehm... Well, I actually really liked Mari the 1st time I saw her - we met through a mutual sort of a friend of ours and I was really quiet and stuff, but I looked at her and thought she was really good-looking with her oh-so-red-oh-so-flaming hair and nice skin, and I hated the fact she was smoking because I thought she shouldn't really. I also liked you when we met, cause you looked exactly like Mari described you to me, but taller and darker and that's a plus. Now I hardly like girls since I work in a mostly female atmosphere, so I'm like "nah, girls, women, tired of your shit", but it's hard for me to talk about the people I like - makes me all shy, searching for the right words, failing miserably, starting over and getting even more embarrassed by myself.
✍:something you regret doing
I guess one day I'll just write a whole book of regrets of mine. Seriously, there're so many things I regret doing, but the one thing I really hate myself for doing was getting closer to a person I knew somehow would deceive or betray me. It's like all of my senses were screaming at me "you fuckin' fool, stop opening up to that person, biggest mistake of your life, dude, just stop it", but nope, I did anyway and after that I had quite a period of recovering and fixing up my trust in people all over again. And I also regret choosing Linguistics as my speciality, but it's too late regretting this anyway...*le sigh* And lots of other things, they wouldn't fit in 1000000 posts on tumblr.
My godfather died last spring and it was shocking. The ugliest thing is that I hadn't seen him for like 5 or more years before that happened, and I wasn't going to any time soon, but then he got into hospital and I had called him several days before his death and he was fine, we really hoped he's gonna recover, calm before the storm, all that jazz. I talked to him and I said: "Seriously, I haven't seen you for so long, as soon as you're out of the hospital, I'm going to your place and we'll spend more time together". And that was our last talk. I couldn't even picture his face properly when I got the news, I was just numb. I wasn't answering my emails for a week or so, I guess, I forgot how to form thoughts and translate them into words and phrases, I just felt really dumb and numb.
Wow, that was quite long, but thanks for asking, Evelin =)